Woke up this morning with love on the brain. I was thinking to myself as I made the bed, the meaning of love is? God love must be nothing like ours. When I heard a voice say, “the same love I give to you is not for you alone, but to pass that love on to others.” I felt in my spirit right away forgiveness. Love according my spirit where the Lord is concern has to do with forgiveness and unconditional. So right away I stopped what I was doing and texted my love ones. I thought to myself, life is a circle and as the shape of the earth. I believe everything that is given to us by the Lord is to share with other. Lesson we have learnt teach others and blessings we’ve recieved share it heart to heart, we shouldn’t be selfish.

Jesus was on the cross when he said, “forgive them, for they know not what they do.” Luke 23:34 The love of God has to do all with forgiveness. Forgiveness is sacrifice and sacrifice is the greatest show of love. Jesus taught us that instead of wishing and praying for someone who has hurt us all manner of evil, use that energy to send them love of forgiveness and pray that they would one day see the error of their ways. Love of forgiveness releases bitterness of the mind, body and spirit. When you think of someone having the mind of a child haven’t yet experienced life but yet think they know everything, and they keep messing things up in their lives which is affecting themselves as well as others. “Why?” Because they truly don’t know what they are doing! Many times we all truly don’t know what we are doing until things go wrong and someone gets really hurt.

Love is a positive energy not meant for resistance. Love is not meant to be opposite or separate, it is ment to be as one, moving and flowing never ending. Like the earth in a circle going around and around. If the earth was to stop think of what would happen to us, something will cease and be broken just like the heart when it is clogged, same with love.

Absorb love and become it, then exhale it. Let love become contagious and infect everyone you can with it. It is so easy to infect others with hate especially by our word. For love to be infectious begins with the mindset, by repetitive actions of kindness regardless of the rejection of others.

God himself is always about love, love even in anger that derive from disappointment in love. But with love, God’s love, comes compassion, mercy, understanding also. 1 John 4:7-21 God is LOVE!!!

God is love and love is truth.

Psalm 139:1 O Lord, thou hast searched me, and known me.

Too much makeup! What are you hiding, is it the real you? Do you think that your appearance is not good enough, did God make a mistake with your appearance? You should of been more beautiful. Psalm 139:14 “I am fearfully and wonderfully made.”

As a young girl growing up I could never understand why it was always so important for us to dress so fancy to go to church. Long ago as a child you knew your place, a child did what they were told without questioning. So I’d look at the adults and their children knowing we all lived near each other and never had I ever seen them so nicely dress except on Sunday. Knowing Sunday is the day of the Lord I concluded that God was so important that we had to look our best for him.

As I grew older I realized not only did people dress nicely for church but going to school myself and siblings wore uniforms. Everyone was dressed the same in our navy blue and white for the girls and khaki and blue for the boys, yet we all were very much different because of our age. We all were dressed exactly the same and we looked great. What was in meaning of how we dress and why we did the way we do? I thought to myself as I began to mature, and watch and learn.

One thing that I’ve learned is that you can’t judge a book by its over and neither can you know a person truly know a person by the way they dress; outer appearance. We can dress up the outside but what’s truly going on in the inside no one but God knows. Thank God for as scriptures declares, he search the hearts and examine the mind, to reward each person according to their conduct, according to what their deeds deserve, Jeremiah 17:10. We can fool other people with our pretense to dress nicely and look good on the outside as if you have it all together, but not the Lord.

The dress code help us to acknowledge worked a person is in, what position they hold in society. We knew if you were a fireman, judge, police officer, nurse, doctor, rich famous, priest, lawyer, teacher. Every body look the same you can’t tell unless you meet them on the jobs in their uniforms. And even then, what you do for work doesn’t define who you are.

As I have grown I went through stages of learning to dress myself from being a tomboy to a lady. I’ve learned to dress conservatively because it was my dad who set the rule. When I first moved out and lived on my own all that church conservatively way of dressing was out the door and I dressed more like I should be on stage and had body guards like some famous pop stars. I was once in a  pageant where I first learn to dress like a lady and wore makeup and heels. To this day don’t like wearing cosmetics I like the natural look. It wasn’t until I went on a retreat that my dressing changed completely. I hadn’t worn skirts or short pants for almost twenty years. Wouldn’t be caught with anything above the knee. I looked like an old woman and it didn’t bother me. I had believed myself to be in the process of transitioning. I never felt so comfortable with myself as during that time. Everyone I knew saw the difference in me from my hair to my clothing everything had changed on the inside of me so my outside was affected. It was all discipline of the spirit. My spiritual mother and father told me to always have good morals, dress nicely, speak in the authority of the Lord, represent and if in anyway I shame them they’ll deny knowing me, so don’t call their name in association with me, lol. We all had a good laugh at that. I could remember my girlfriend I use to party with when we were younger, whom I haven’t seen in years I went to visit roommate looked at me with contempt because of the way I was dressed. I could of seen it in her eyes I was not what she had expected for a party girl. My girlfriend could dress so it was so unlikely because of the way I’d looked that we would even hang out together or went out to the clubs, so opposite.

I remember going on a trip with my husband and brother and we went to take a picture together and the photographer placed me in the back of everyone to hid me out the picture. Looking at the picture I did looked pretty ridiculous funny but it didn’t bother me at all I was so confident nothing bothered me. I had believed that the Lord wanted me to be in the world but not of it so I was stripped of pride, ego and the need for man approval and when I had mastered it. My greatest lesson was to learn to take pride in myself as a child of God and not only was it a great lesson but a difficult one, because God cannot be mocked I had to walk the walk and talk the talk in truly knowing who I am in the Lord and not fake it. I had to be my true and authentic self in Him, but what a price to pay. Fear got the best of me when for my love I received hate and persecution just like Christ.

I love being hidden especially looking ridiculous, then no one should have reason to hate on you, so I believed. So when I was told to start dressing according to the light within me people thought it’s because I am either trying to fit in, be something I am not, to look rich, lol. Nothing could be further from the truth, anything I ever worn didn’t costs me hundreds of dollars or was a name brand, even though it may look like it and as trying to fit in, the only “IN” I want to be is in His presence not the world’s. You don’t need to have lots of money to look good, the favor of the Lord on your life. You can be poor or rich and still look good. It’s favor, cause you could be naked and the light will still shine, then and only then they’ll know you’re blessed and highly favoured. It like saying you only require manners and good character because you’re rich and famous.

Joel 3:10 Let the weak say I am strong and the poor say I am rich. Your circumstances when in the Lord doesn’t stop you from shinning, you have everything you need and you just look and feel good, because of faith, hope and love which brings peace. When you walk the world can’t help but notice you. Ecclesiastes 10:6 Fools are put in many high positions, while the rich occupy the low ones. Question is who truly is the rich? It is time to begin to trace who we really are in the Kingdom of God. Deuteronomy 8:18 The Lord your God who give you the ability to produce wealth. Don’t put your hope in your wealth.

My answer to why rich people dress like they are poor? Do they really, cause what is poor dressing to the rich, no name brands? Maybe they do behind closed doors, some have to spend half their days in front of a camera being famous and when they get a chance to be hidden, like myself they love it, as not to bring attention to themselves or clothing maybe the least on their desire as being rich. And as for poor people dressing like they are rich if they could afford to why not. Money doesn’t matter if it’s how you feel about yourself, your mindset. If you like to dress whether you’re rich or poor you’ll always continue. Being rich only allows you to more accessibility to to have in abundance. I have a friend that loves nice things she works hard so she can afford it. From her house, clothing everything and anything she has you’d think she’s rich. The only problem with her is if she was rich she would be traveling the world to shop. Today’s world wether rich or poor once you have faith and determination you can do anything there’s no discrimination.

There’s nothing wrong with whatever reason you like to dress and look good as long as you’re being true to God and yourself. What people assume is on them. The closer the relationship between you and God the more you shine in the world.

If we had eyes to see and ears to hear, we would be able to realize that our prays echoes throughout all generations. Sometimes we wonder why it seems that someone can have all the luck in the world. But it is not luck someone’s has been praying for years for that blessings, dies and God still answers it so it goes to the next generation I believe.

I was watching a documentary on Martin Luther king Jr and thought to myself how bless I am to have the privileges granted to me today that it took faith, prayers and sacrifice by my ancestors for me to enjoy the freedoms that I have today. They fought the good fight didn’t have the chance to live it, but left it for us. Thank you Lord!!!

This 2020 New Year is the year of vision for me 20/20 vision of prophesy. I saw the angels of the Lord standing at the four corners ( east, west, north and south) of the earth. Not because of some impending doom, but keeping guard and taking report. Nothing is going to ever take place in the world that the Lord is not in control of.

These people called to earthly royalty and what a responsibility. It is written in scriptures that Saul being the first earthly King fell short of the Glory of the Lord and lost the blessings. It has been a struggle ever since then for earthly royalty. I pray that they themselves are praying and not like everything about their lives, make going to church a tradition and not a revelation. I pray that they truly seek the Lord with all their heart and mind. Form a relationship with the Lord, their well being depends so much on it. To whom much is given much is required, scriptures declares. You can’t stand alone in the requirements of being royalty, rich and famous. You need guidance and protection, more than what the world can offer. We all need the Lord, we can never be so established that we don’t.

I was praying for the Royals when a picture of the movie the Ten Commandments flashed in my mind. As a child after watching the movie for the first time with actor Charlton Heston one question remained in my mind, “why didn’t he just marry the pretty lady princess and become Pharaoh? No one had to find out who he truly was.” It was only when I got older the truth was revealed to me in my spirit that Moses did what he did by going to find out the truth about who he is and his people because he was lead by the Holy spirit. His life being rescued out of the water by the Pharaohs daughter was all for a divine purpose, he was chosen. Being chosen he was lead to find out his destiny. Moses didn’t allow the love he had for the princess or the fear of losing her stopped him from his destiny. There’s nothing wrong with love, but fear can destroy the power that it possesses.

2 Timothy 3 Tell us to be ware of such individuals having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof. Matthew 7:21 Not everyone that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the Kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven. We can fool each other with lies and deception, but when it comes to the omnipotence, omnipresence and omniscient God you just can’t. But there are people who really believe some how they can. That’s why he says, “depart from me for I know you not.”

Humans would always be imperfect beings. Faith doesn’t some how make us a deity or even exempt from imperfections. This misconception is causing a lot haters towards confessed Christians (religious people) who has fallen short.

Listen people, you who are being disliked for being a bully, being mean and egotistical doesn’t make biblical scriptures applicable to you. Understand it is because what you are doing is hurtful to others and not just one or two people, but you are affecting everyone you come in contact with. So stop quoting John 15:18-27 “If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.” You’re not in anyway being like Jesus when it’s all about you.

People shouldn’t use biblical scriptures to justify their ignorance in their behavior by victimizing the innocent, the people who are faithfully seeking the Lord. Everyone should understand God is not to be mocked. I could never understand why most nonbelievers trust to come to the church to find a spouse. They wholeheartedly believe church spouses are the real deal because the believe them to be very naive and perfect. If only they would get it, not all people who go to church was born in it, they themselves came from the outside world and are works in progress when comes to their Faith. Sometimes they backslide, so stop putting them in a general category as all church people. What does anyone really know about true believers other than opinions. Even people who are born into church life suffers imperfections.

“When I think of the Goodness of Jesus and all that he’s done for me… My soul cries out Hallelujah!!! Praise God for saving me. What a powerful hymn.” I am truly greatfull for all the Lord has done for me all the days of my life. When I thought of the many times I’ve cheated death, I felt abandoned and alone, hopeless, abused, afraid, tempted, misguided and confused especially about faith in him, sick: mentally and physically. God always showed up in one form or another. How does he shows up and how do I know it’s God? Through the presence of love, forgiveness deliverance, salvation, and redemption. God doesn’t show up just to see what’s going on, he knows, he is ever present. God doesn’t just show up for a need to know bases, He shows up cause He’s our problems solver, our way maker where there seems to be none in our lives. His presence is to deliver us from any situation because of sin. It’s all about sin within and surrounding us. We should have strong faith and pray for those who doesn’t. Our lives should be the living testimony of faith in the Lord, like our ancestors are in the Bible.

Pain and suffering should not be the only reason for us to find God. But in most circumstances it is the reason for our conversion of faith even drawing some of us closer. 2 Corinthians 12:2-10 declare His strength is made perfect in weakness. I can’t express my gratitude for all that the Lord has done for me. I want to be able to show him, so I pray, ” Lord help me to always pay it forward” Amen!

I always say that I will follow Jesus. In following Jesus I learn the importance of love which is the driving force behind Jesus ministry. Any man or woman of God in authority that has no love for other is not following the way of God. John 3:16 God so love the world that he give his only begotten son. Everything about Jesus begins with love.

With love comes compassion, patient, forgiveness, understanding. 1Corinthinians 13:1 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love also discipline even though it may seem hurtful. Discipline is correction for your own good, that is love.

Where the presence of God is there is love. The glory we feel in worship is love manifested, making love spiritually. Grace is the greatest manifestation of the Love of the Lord, because it is unconditional. Jesus is grace (love). Love is discipline, redeeming, sacrifice, unity, and obedience.

We all know the story of Joseph and his brothers who planned on killing him and then decide to beat him, put him in a pit and sell him into slavery over a dream and the love his father had towards him by making him a coat of many colours. All because of jealousy and hatred. Joseph was sold to a merchant who brought him to Egypt and sold him as a slave to Potiphar the captain of the pharaoh guard. Even though God was with Joseph his father Jacob sins followed him, that hereditary behavior of trickery. But unlike Jacob his father the trickster and his grandmother Rebecca, Joseph was honest, respectable and a righteous man. Nothing like his brothers who follows the pathology of their heritage of trickery and sin. Just the thought of their plan to not only to hurt Joseph, but totally disregard how it would effect their aging father knowing how much he loves Joseph.

Poor Joseph to be born into such a family. Joseph is proof that bad things happens to good people sometimes just because of your lineage. You can be a very good person and your goodness not even known to you is what’s needed to break a hereditary curse in your family. And guess what? You’re the chosen one everyone hates and they have no reasons to, cause you’re loving and compassionate. Joseph is also proof that your own will reject you, but strangers can except and love you more as one of them.

Joseph brothers behavior and attitude towards him was identical to that of Cain to Abel. The only difference is God intercede that they couldn’t take his life. Today as a Christian if you can’t say,” I am my brother’s keeper” then you are not on the Lord side. David who killed Goliath I believed was treated just like Joseph by his brothers, especially after he’d killed Goliath. David wouldn’t turn to Jonathan or even Bathsheba if he had a strong relationship within his own family.

Joseph broke the family hereditary and generational curse by continuing to do good regardless of what he had to endure for no reason at all. He didn’t do anything wrong by being sincerely truthful and honest to his family about a dream he had and to his slave masters, be respectable and noble. But his noble behavior made his master wife loved and amired him. So she lied on him to her husband because he rejected her sexual advancement and was thrown in jail. Joseph was like the first Job, God’s faithful servant, keeping the Faith regardless. Joseph is not only a man of great character the one thing we don’t associate Joseph with in his story is that he was also a prophet of the Lord. And like the rainbow his coat of many colours made for him by his father was prophetic as to say he was the promised one to deliver not just his family, but many from  famine that was going to affect their lives and to serve in God’s purpose for His chosen people. He even changed the mindset of his wicked brothers.

Scripture declares, ” let your light so shine before man, that they may see your good works, and glorify your father which is in heaven” Matthew 5:16. The cost for your light shinning brightly is a price only through God you can pay. If it had not been for the Lord who was on your side there’s no way you can stand on your own shinning brightly. If man can only get it, the light belongs to God and not ours. As Christian we do nothing of ourselves like Jesus said, ” the son can do nothing of himself, but what he seeth the father do; for what things soever he doeth, these also doeth the son likewise.” After all we are God’s creation, created in his image, fearfully and wonderfully made. So instead of being filled with jealousy and hating someone for being blessed and highly favoured go to God, that’s a choice we have and is given. Pour out you complain and fight with him about it.

Ephesians 4:26-27 (KJV) Be ye angry, and sin not. Let not the sun go down upon your wrath. Neither give place to the devil. Lord have mercy! Sometimes we know the scripture so well, but when provoked and tempted by what we consider pure evil we lose all control to stand in the knowledge and wisdom of the Lord. Psalm 73:2 “But as for me, my feet had almost slipped; I had nearly lost my foothold.” That’s what happened to me as I watch a man in authority take advantage of it and was abusing his authority just because he can, a real bully. And for this cause I lost control of my thoughts, emotions and action. I should of known better as a child of God, but my excuse, “the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak” Matthew 26:41.

I visualize myself choking, shooting and hitting him in the head as I was saying my pray when I heard a voice clearly say, “seeing that you’ve done everything you deemed necessary to him already what is left for me to do?” And I was frozen couldn’t even reply for it was the Lord that had spoken to me. The voice came from within my mind that I no longer could continue praying. I was at a lost for words even a thought for a few seconds. Then I said, “speak Lord, speak Lord for thy servant heareth.” Then I heard the voice of the Lord say, ” if you are praying to me for help, then let vengeance be mines.”

I never felt so ashamed for praying to God for help then taking the matter into my own hands instead of waiting on Him. I tried to justify myself by saying, “Faith without works is dead” James 2:14-26. Then conviction of the spirit hits, I was working faith alright no different than the evil bully. I thought to myself maybe that’s why Adam and Eve felt the need to put leaves on themselves when they realized they were naked Genesis 3:7. The shame that is felt within your spirit is like an emptiness a lost you can’t be regain and exposure so embarrassing, but there’s no place you can hide, “busted!” That is what sin felt like not even comprehending that sin can be an emotion and not just something we do.

We sin in thoughts and in deeds. We have to discipline our mind in our reaction to the things that hurts us. How many times Jesus was beaten and tortured yet not once did he retaliated given his abilities and power. He showed us what restraint and true Faith in the will of God and letting it be be done when he didn’t call down the legions of angels to save him from being tortured and crucified.

People can be used by the devil to get to you. You must be discerning as a child of God and not let the enemy win. We are so much stronger in the Lord than we give ourselves credit, if we just keep the Faith, let go and let God do his thing in us and through us.