Why a virgin? I prayed and asked the Lord. Merriam-Webster dictionary defines a virgin as: noun a). person who has not had sexual intercourse, b). a person who is inexperienced in a usually specified sphere of activity, c). an unmarried woman devoted to religion, d). an absolutely chaste young woman, d). an unmarried girl or woman, e). a female animal that has never copulated. Adjective meaning: a). Chaste, b). fresh, unspoiled, c). specifically: not altered by human activity…free of impurity or stain: unsullied.

Eve in the garden of Eden with Adam was the original, first and only virgin until satan appeared onto her tempting her to eat from the forbidden tree. Mary was created by God to withstand that same weakness and temptation that led Eve astray into sin. Like Job, God must have put a hedge around Mary to keep her from the wickedness and the wiles of the devil. In keeping Mary pure, sanctified and protected, she served God’s purpose in being chosen to bring forth His only begotten son.

Like so many of those men and women who had been born before Mary in the Bible that God had chosen to fulfill His purpose who were all born into sin, Mary like Samuel was born to her parents as a miracle child, according to Merriam-Webster dictionary meaning of a virgin not altered by human activity… free of impurity or stain: unsullied. Mary who was brought up by parents who love the Lord and was in service unto Him throughout all their generations brought her forth with the same spirit of love, service and faith in the the Lord. It was in her DNA to be who she was chosen to be, the mother of God’s only begotten son. Still in service unto the Lord.

Virginity! Mary’s virginity was more than just abstaining from sexual intercourse, but her mind, body and soul belonged to the Lord. She was innocent, humble, obedient, loving, loyal, faithful and trusting. God was her first love and her everything. Her focus was on all things pertaining to God and God alone in a child-like innocent manner. God was her best friend, confidant…her world. Mary loved God and all of God’s creations. She saw good even in the bad; because she was faithful God was going to make all things good. She was loving, kind, trusting, hopeful and faithful in all things to God. Mary was a praying soul who loved the Lord. Mary would speak to God like he’s standing in the room and she’s the only one who can see Him. Like an imaginary friend she spoke and God answered her. They had a relationship like no other from a baby to now adolescent Mary had been communicating with the Lord. Like an angel sent from Heaven is the best way to describe her character.

Her love for children was undeniable. She faithfully believe that all children was a blessing and a gift from God. A lover and caregiver of children from a very early age, Mary dreamt of having children of her own one day. Mary had a voice to sing and all the children in the neighbourhood loved to hear her sing from a crying baby to a falling toddler, they would stop crying at her voice when she’d sing to them. Her singing can put an unwilling child to sleep. She loved children so much as a protecter of them all. She grew up an only child and with her cousins, and friends as close to siblings as possible whom she spent time playing and taking care of, which she loved to do with such a natural nurturing instinct. Mary can’t be looked at as being just born that way, but she was specifically created, tested and tried from a very young age. Even the animals, like children, loved Mary, they would gather around at the sound of her voice, especially when she sings. The birds would leave from soaring in the sky to rest on her as she sings, especially the doves, like a bunch of white angels they’d fly in a circle all around getting everyone’s attention to stop whatever they are doing and listen.

Mary, this woman, God’s vessel for His only begotten son is an amazing human being. She may not have been like the all those famous men of the Bible, but her role, as simple as they try to make it out to be, was spectacular heroism and a sacrifice. They underplay the importance of Mary’s role as the mother Jesus. She had to represent all mothers and women of God for us all to follow. How many of us would have liked to be the one, but being the one you have to be strong, not just mentally and physically, but spiritually. You have to be willing to be, humble, faithful, trusting, obedient, with all your heart and soul. Letting go and letting God orchestrate every aspect of your life without wavering especially in the worst circumstances of your life when all hell starts breaking lose. When the fire begins to burn, the heat has been turned up with gasoline poured on the fire, can you stand your ground? Do you curse God to die or love Him still? Especially when it’s not about you, but your love child, His and yours only begotten, the blessing and gift you received, God has now taken and given as a lamb to be sacrificed. And now He says to you, a human being with emotions, that soul He has created you with, “ you knew it was going to be like this, stop the crying!” Instead of retaliation for His words, she cries out, “ cover me(protect me from falling into temptation, sin) Lord, I love, and trust Your will be done.” Still humble and innocent as she can be for the love of her life, and her everything, her God.

Are you a deep diver and I am not talking about putting on a wetsuit, diving mask, air tank, snorkel, fins…to go into the ocean. I’m talking about a spiritual dive like Jonah did in the belly of the fish, Jonah 1:17.

Some of us are created to dive in and go down pretty deep spiritually and some to stay shallow. God never gives us more than we can handle, one of the reason we shouldn’t compare ourselves to others is because a bad experiences in your life can make you stronger, but can traumatize and cripple someone else, especially if they’re not called and decides to just copy what they see others doing that looks so easy.

I like to dive in and go down deep, not because I could hold my breath for lengths of time, but because the Holy Spirit is my oxygen. When it’s power has taken complete control, falling fresh on me, opening my blind eyes so I can see, deaf ear so I can hear and dumb mouth to speak. Then and only then can I say, “ I do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” There’s no way I would be capable of doing certain things on my own or of my own strength without God’s help.

The spiritual wisdom, knowledge and understanding attained from being a deep diver can be too much for some to bear. So they judge and criticize when they’re only on the shallow end. Life is given to everyone by God with the ability for us to choose, and we’re ignorant in not using it wisely for good all the time. I guess destined to be balanced with evil we sometimes can’t help ourselves, goodness can’t last forever, not in this life. There’s the good and bad as long as we’re in this body, this thing called flesh covering the spirit. The imperfections of our existence will always remain, but we must have the balance. You can’t be good all the time, neither bad. It takes discipline to stand in righteousness and goodness unto the end for it is a battle, let’s face it. Ecclesiastes 7:16 “Do not be overrighteous, neither be overwise- why destroy yourself?” 7:20 “Surely there is not a righteous man on earth who does good and never sins.”

“Take a leap and dive in, go down deep, really deep, that’s where you’ll find God, and all truth and righteousness, when desire to be spiritual. To be shallow we’re in the flesh and to be spiritual you’re in the depth penetrating the flesh to the higher self the spirit, the image of God within; his breath he blew in us to make us a living soul.”

The flesh is shallow, but the spirit is deep. In the shallow we can see only the surface, but in the depth is dark and mysterious until you reach the light within.

Deuteronomy 4:24 For the Lord your God is a consuming fire, a jealous God.

The fire is burning, the consuming fire of God, because the world is burning and we’re too busy to notice. Preoccupied with worldliness, money, fame, lust, greed, power…Eyes we have, but don’t see, ears, but can’t hear, hear and see what’s really going on. Have we drifted so far that the Lord who is tapping us on our shoulders metaphorically, to get our attention, we no longer feels his touch? So we don’t see, hear or feel God anymore? While our spirit is crying out to our Lord, who’s answering. We are walking around heavy burden with worries about our future and our present should be with the Lord to carry us through to our future.

The consuming fire is purification for sin in the world. The world is bleeding because we’re being cut, pruned. Whatever that’s going on in our world God has to cut, trim, so the new can come in. “Why fight it?” “Don’t you know bleeding is good!” We speak of the blood, the blood! It’s been poured out and now has a demand for reciprocity. We sing, dance praise and worship on the victory of the blood (Jesus crucified) and what a privilege and honour we are blessed with for our salvation. Now what sacrifice can we now offer in return? We don’t have time to think about it. The plague (Covid) is our pruning. Blood for blood, life for life. So many for one life, Jesus’s life he give for the lives of the world.

Our greed, our lust for the worldly things has taken over for what was once our true desire, God, Him and him alone, first in our lives. God who can deliver us from the burdens of sin, sickness, trials and tribulations, fears, doubts…death. Matthew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. We shall not want or desire anything, our God shall provide. But today power, authority and control, pride, fame, wealth…has crept into us unknowingly. We believe we’re going about life normally, but we are far from normalcy.

The fire is here to consume the worldly desires. The Lord needs for us to be focused on our life everlasting. The world is temporary, but his kingdom is everlasting and with no suffering and pain. We must stand our grounds and don’t lose sight, continue to build it up and be prepared for the return of Jesus. And the blood, the bleeding is the reminder of what’s more important for our salvation to be free from the bondage of sin, sickness, fears, hopeless, doubts…death, knowing from where comes our help when all else has failed us.

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things God works for good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

My husband and I were travelling for his work and this thought of David popped into my head as I was praying and meditating on the word of God, “why would God call David a man after his own heart?” Acts 13:22 I have found David the son of Jesse, a man after mine own heart, which shall fulfill all my will. David, this sinner who murdered Uriah one of his loyal soldier in his army for his wife, committed adulatory and was about to take credit for the success as king without acknowledging God’s presence with him for it all. Pride was creeping up on David having brought harmful consequences on himself as well those he’s responsible for, an imperfect man, a sinner.

2 Samuel 24:10-14 David was conscience-stricken after he had counted the fighting men, and he said to the Lord, “I have sinned greatly in what I have done. Now, Lord, I beg you, take away the guilt of your servant. I have done a very foolish thing.” God sent the prophet Gad to prophesy to David about the consequences of his action and he was given three choices. David replied to Gad after hearing his choices of punishment, 1. Three years of famine in the land. 2. Three months of fleeing from his enemy while they pursue him. 2. Three days of plague in the land. 2 Samuel 24:14 David says, “I am in deep distress. Let us fall into the hands of the. Lord, for His mercy is great; but do not let me fall into human hands.” Look at the privileged David has with God, that he can choose his punishment for his sin.

David, a man after God’s own heart? Though he seemed to have walked boldly into sin, doing it without a thought of the consequences. David always knew how to repent even before being confronted by God. It was like he knew he couldn’t help but sin when he wrote, “behold, I was sharpen in iniquity, and in sin did my mother conceived me, Psalm 51:5. To me he had this special relationship with God as plea for him to deliver him from his weakness to fall into sin. Maybe the reason David was cast away from his brother was because like a misfit he’d always stir up trouble. There are some of us in the world that have problems when it comes having relationship with others, especially if you have issues like mental illness. People judge and condemn, but mental illness is serious and to me it is responsible for a lot of people bad behaviour. As Jesus said on the cross, “forgive them for they know not what they do.”

I can’t help but believe David may have loved his solitude with God and the sheep because it seems to be where he stayed peaceful and out of trouble with man. He found a strong bond and relationship with God in an isolated place with animals as Adam did in the garden of Eden with God, before Eve came along. To me, David was a reminder to God of Adam and they had a relationship that was undefined. God was David’s everything unlike Adam, David was not alone once he had God and needed a help meet, Genesis 2:18. God was all David had as his (help meet) companion, friend, and lover of his soul. God was the only family David had that loved and accepted him just the way he was with his strength and weaknesses. They had an unconditional love between them that can never be severed.

Nothing could satisfied David and keep him contented except his relationship with God. The relationship with God completed David the reason having many wives was enough, brothers, sisters, mother, father, family and friends. I believe David did crazy things because God is truly what he was after and nothing in the world could ever replace the hunger and thirst; that zeal for the almighty that can’t be quenched by anything of the world, no amount of victory won, crown or wealth.

For my understanding David was looking for truth and righteousness. He was in the world, but not of it. He struggled and had problems connecting and being apart of the world and people. David had spent so much alone time with God that their intimate relationship and connection some how made him an outcast, set apart from others. He couldn’t seem to live a regular life outside of his relationship with God. Being God’s warrior, friend, companion, and his willing servant, yet a sinner who loved God more than anything. David, to me was perfect in the sight of God. But matters to his heart (emotions) as a king, husband, father, sibling, son and friend, he lacked the ability to be good at.

We see David as God fearing, but yet sinning, being crazy and so indifferent like not killing Saul when had a chance, running from his son who wanted to kill him and refusing drink the water he so desired from Bethlehem when it was brought to him. A misfit, but God is a good of mercy, love and understanding of humanity. David knew how to be in relation with the Lord in such a way only God can. Not Moses, Abraham, Noah, Joseph, Jacob…all other great men of the Bible no other had the kind of relationship with God like David. David revered God so much that strived to never do wrong by him and whenever he falls short he knew to right away to humble himself and repent. He had a love for God and a respect that is so unwavering pure and true and for his faithfulness God blessed him continually. David knew that the Lord understood his weaknesses as man, but loved him regardless and His mercy endures forever.

David, a man after God‘s own heart! He allows us to know that God’s mercy endures forever, a broken and contrite heart God never despise, day and night are the same to God, so He doesn’t judge us as good or bad in us because according to Psalm 139:14 “ fearfully and wonderfully made,” summarizing everything, David told us about what God feels about us, He knows and understands us, has me thinking, we must keep also in mind that we are all imperfect beings, but being conscience-stricken, respecting God’s will by being obedient is being after God’s own heart.

In my Father’s arms, the place I’ve found safety and comfort, but I couldn’t remain there forever, he wanted me to venture out, and led me out into the world (my birth). “Live life to the fullest,” he told me, “for I am with you always.” Taking away the memories of my true home and the life I was living with him. Here I am left in this world to grow in wisdom, knowledge and understanding and live. But my spirit cries out, longing to go back home, home the place where love, peace and tranquillity exist, a familiarity the sense of belong which is branded in my heart, mind and spirit. So aware of where I belong, and here on earth is not it, for I am a pilgrim in this earth passing through. There’s too much pain and suffering, this continuous battle with the negative and positive energies is overwhelming to my soul. Realizing that my life is a mission and I am commissioned to live in obedience to my Father Will.

Feeling like you don’t belong and everything is just against you is so wrong. Nothing has the right to make anyone feel this way not even the condition of the world nor the people in it. The forces of evil senses the presence of good, realizes the threat to its purpose, so it begins tapping into the flow of positive energy obstructing it. The words of the Father must be the driving force behind every negativity and obstacle, “I am with you always.” His words are written within our heart, mind and soul manifest itself through our spirit in faith where it cannot ever be removed or destroyed.

Excepting God in your life shouldn’t come across like life insurance for eternity in heaven. To know the the Lord is to be awaken to our true being within (spirit) the image of Him in which we were created. Seeking to know the Lord should gives us all a clear sense of who we are, our purpose and whom we truly belong to. In God is our safe place to rest and be. He’s the answer to all mysteries, supernatural, unexplained, existence and creations. Unless you have had an encounter with the Lord it is hard to convince others who has not, that He’s real. No one can remember being formed in our mother’s womb and the our birth into the world, but yet here we are.

Suffering persecution for being proud and loud about your relationship with the Lord; life not being worth the living without Him is an unknown threat to an enemy you didn’t set out to intentionally provoke in anyways. A matter of fact you didn’t even recognize existed. When God’s light begins shining through you it is not easy as some makes it out to be. Religious people tend to rush you into a becoming a Christian and then giving you this assumption that you’re exempt from trials and tribulations in your life, “the devil is a liar!” One thing you’ve got to learn that they don’t teach about is, if you been through some tough times in your life before giving your life to God, get ready for the heat to be turned up on your trials and tribulations, hotter than when you where carnal and in the world. The devil test and try your faith and God equips you with the wisdom, knowledge and understanding to overcome his attempts to destroy us.

Once you know God, truly know Him, to me it’s automatically your responsibility to encourage others to also to get to know Him. And no matter what you always become a target and a threat to the opposition the (devil). The devil is real, if you’re awaken spiritually you understand this fact. God who created him(satan) our opposition, through Jesus, His only begotten son, life death and resurrection has given us the victory, authority and power over his advances towards us. “When God says a thing, it is done,” when He’s said, “I am with you always” and being comfortable is in His arms that means you will always be comfortable and secure no matter what you’re going through. Fear, doubt and hopelessness these emotions threaten our power and authority over the enemy. You must stand faithful and obedient to the Lord, because we are overcomers through and in Him.

In the Fathers Arms is where we all need to be in the world today. No more the fig leaf or the animal skin, but the covering of His love. We sing, “nothing but the blood of Jesus.” The blood set us free from the bondage of sin, but it is His love, unconditional love that continually working powerfully within and without us to stand. Grace came because of that love, giving freedom in every sense of the word. When going through trial and tribulations, pain and suffering…whatever He’s got us. He’s the rock in which we stand and anything that would cause us to withdraw from Him or prevent us from being in a relationship with Him, pray Archangel Micheal come to defend you in the battle. “You better be fighting with all you got!” We got to hold on, remain in His presence the very thing the devil is trying to get you away from to finally destroy us.

I remembered as a child being told in Sunday school, there would be a time the presence of God would not be felt in the world. We’ll be crying out to God and he will not answer, because of sin, God would be far from humanity. There’s scripture in the Bible to back this up Jeremiah 11:14, Zechariah 7:13, Ezekiel 5:11,and it was taught that this was going to take place in the last days. As a child it petrified me, the thought of God leaving us and the devil being able to take control knowing that he is the evil one, my imagination took advantage of my fears and vulnerability. I promised to pray all the time that the Lord presence would always with me regardless. I was not going to allow God to leave me. I would always blink my eyes and there would be light that flashes before me in which I would call my imaginary friend whom I called, Father. These circles of light that surrounded me and would never ever abandon me, I truly believed. I couldn’t bare the thought of being in darkness and God not being there. I was almost fifty years old when I’d learned to sleep without a night light. I put it in my Will that when I die my family has to keep a light for me always and don’t allow my body in a freezer without light, for I fear darkness that much. The Lord’s presence to me from a child always represented by light, like the sun, it’s hard to imagine the earth without it.

How can we keep the flames of faith from burning out, at a time when the presence of God is obscured by so much negativity in our world. From the beginning of the pandemic until this very moment I find there’s been a movement, a shift of energy in our world, negativity fighting against positivity. All that is true and righteous, is in a struggle to stand and maintain. It’s fight against an invisible evil forces you can’t see or touch, but there is this undeniable fact of its existence, that we’re in a war, a spiritual war. It seems like good is now evil and evil is now good. The greed for power, control and money has taking over the minds of many and that which once was a priority before anything else (God) has now become only for convenience, placed way in the back of everything else. Out of sight, out of mind, this is the position our Lord has taken in our lives as faith is based on what is seen and tangible. Remember there was a time being poor was following and being like Jesus. Now fame and wealth is because of being obedient, follow and be like Jesus. We are being motivationally empowered and taught this. “Why settle for anything less?” We still don’t get it, we can be rich and still poor and poor and still rich. We all want to be rich, don’t want to just get by, we desperately want to be able to pay all our bills and still have leftover to do whatever we want to do, like go on vacations, buy a new car, help others…whatever. We still don’t get it whether rich or poo it’s all about our spirit within and our relationship with the Heavenly Father through the power of the Holy Spirit. This is all on a level of spiritual awakening and understanding.

We got to get down on our knees, clasp our hand and bow our heads and begin to fast and pray like never before. Get out our Bible begin to read the books of the prophets and revelations and recognize the irony on what humanity is going through again for our disobedience to the word of God. After the life death and resurrection of Jesus, I refuse to be like the Israelites in the Wilderness going around in circles for forty years after being delivered out of Egypt slavery because of their lack of wisdom, knowledge and understanding of what the Lord was doing in their lives when bringing them out of captivity. We got to read the Bible to truly get the understanding of humanity ignorance when concerning how we ourselves can impact the change for the betterment of our world.

Ecclesiastes 1:9 What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. We’re living in a time of lawlessness and the grieving of the Holy Spirit. It is better that we didn’t know the truth, than to know and still choose to go against it. And the truth is God is real and obedience to him is going to make our world a better place and our lives filled with peace when together we overcome the power and authority of devil for good. For us to go against Him is sealing our lives to all kind of disasters and causing the end of days instead of changing it. He’s on his way, no longer coming. God’s existence is present throughout our entire world and also the preaching of the gospel has spread. There’s now no place in the world the gospel has not been preached and exposed, whether believed, excepted or not, social media has completed the disciples mission.

Genesis 3:8-10, God never would leave us, we turn away from God. The enemy from the beginning of time always finds away to lure us away from God. But no matter what God comes calling and searching until we answer. Hebrews 13:5 “ Keep your lives free from the love of money, but the devil makes us suffer without having it by temptation and deceit. And be content with what you have, because God had said, “never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” But yet today, our faith is wavered in these times of what seems hopeless, fearful, uncertain, desperate and in need.

“How ignorant are we? Death is no respecter of person. Whether, black, white, straight, gay, religious, atheists, rich or poor… not matter what we all die. If a religious beliefs was predicted on survive this thing called death, and because it’s proven to be so powerful you become immortal then we’d all know for sure which religion is the correct faith to follow, wouldn’t we? But there’s no such thing, regardless of what our faith or not believing we all still die. Death is inevitable, it’s destined for the flesh(body) the clothing of the soul(emotions) so that the spirit can return to it’s life force, God. What a great mystery, this thing called death is for us all. Not to be feared, we get a glimpse of it every night when we sleep. Like the opening of a door, our spirit comes out the body and travels to another place and time, we call it dreaming. The door open and when about close the spirit calmly returns to our body and then we are woken up. We are limited to where the spirit can soar once the spirit is destined to return to the body for a time. When we die it’s different the spirit soar for what like seems eternity. You can feel yourself ascending, being drawn up by a gentle magnetic force taking you through darkness and then into a marvellous light. With a great jolt you’re landed into a new reality called heaven. It’s called heaven because for once in your life you found an everlasting inner peace and joy within your soul that cannot be explained. No more fears, pain, concerns…an ecstasy, euphoric feeling of continual tranquility that would never existed within and around you in the earth realm.

What is the meaning of life? A question always asked by those who are seeking purpose. We all have our own definitions especially conscientious folks. The true question we should be concerned about is what is the meaning of both life and death because life is something we all experiencing and death sooner or later we’ll experience. Like good and bad, but yet both serve purpose for life. Scripture declares world without end, so does it mean death has no effect to the world? The answer is, ‘yes,’ death do effect the world, but unlike us. We see the transformation and transition in the four seasons especially at autumn the harvest time to reap what has been sown and prepare the earth for winter’s coldness which kills everything that once was. We watch the beautiful flowers, plants, grass, tree and leaves wither away(dies). But we don’t get sad about it because it all returns again in the spring. This to me is like the storms, earthquake, hurricanes, floods…is a form of the world dying. But no matter what it God made it so that it replenishes itself a new.

To me, when I think of death, it is to be understood as a transformation and transition same as the world in the changing of seasons. The difference is we go to other regions in the world not remaining like the trees, grass, flower…or whatever we’ve sown in the earth. Our appearances and memory are renewed. We’ve been given many chances by the Lord at his judgement (throne of mercy) on the life we lived when we die and go before him. We’re given the chances to change whatever needed to graduate to heaven. For this reason some of us has long lives and other short. I believe after we’ve learned the lesson of life and it’s true meaning only then we graduate to heaven, becoming master teachers enter into the heavenly realm and become helpers to those on earth through God. I had a dream and saw my life time, which is many, I’ve been to the east west, north and south of the world. For whatI have seen about myself, I believe I am finished with this life being here on earth. I’m not returning again here on earth I believe when I die this time. My life circle after many renewals have been completed and my spirit will returned to the Heavenly Father.

Ask me how I know this? I have lived many lives before and got a glimpse at it all, I ‘be almost died three times and have returned. One foot in this dimension and the other in the spiritual realm. Acknowledge and now understand why I was told I am a medium. Like the movie Six sense, I can speak not only to the dead, but angels. When you have crossed over to the realm you are able to see life from looking down on it. Like being in an airplane, you soar over life and could see, discern, prophesy what others can’t, through the supernatural. Like demonic attacks you suffer a lot spiritually to gain balance of the negative and positive energy that clashes at times in your life, fighting for domination authority and power, like thunder and lightening it’s very frightening. I had to learn it’s not in the fighting against one or the another where safety and security is found it is the acknowledgment of the both are existing simultaneously with each other. We must not be afraid especially of the negative. It’s not only negative energy that weighs us, but the positive we have difficulty maneuvering in our lives. With discipline and obedience to God you have ability to stand against all energy forces, to weigh ourselves balance on the scale of life and death.

When Moses saw the burning bush, God didn’t send him out to deliver his people by repeating his experience about the burning bush. What I am trying to say is when we encounter God our lives are changed and we are placed on a mission for God’s purpose and no matter how we try we can’t run from it. Sometimes it feels like it was better I didn’t know, because knowing gives you a determine push from the Holy Spirit and it doesn’t matter how long it takes God prepares you until you’re ready, patiently moulding and shaping you for His purpose for you.

For a long time I’ve been hiding because God had a few finishing touches on my life in preparation to complete my being. The pain, fears, doubts…all negativity (sin) that laid dominant and strong within my soul has now been abolished. With everything that has been going on in the world today God’s calling prophets and preachers to do a mighty work in our world. “Now are you going to take your place and stand to fulfill the needs of others in preparation for the drastically changing world and the returning of the Lord?”

Matthew 9:37 “The harvest truly is plenteous, but the labourers are few.” Let’s get real for a moment, we do have enough labourers in our world today, but the problem is they are being judged and condemn especially the ‘Mega labourers’ for their wealth and fame by the Pharisees and the Sadducees of today’s world. If they are in it (having a church, preaching and teaching) for the wrong reason the Lord knows, and it will only be a matter of time till they fall in the sight of the entire world(social media). “God can’t be mocked!” But the devil sure tries and uses the innocent and vulnerable to his advantage. God is in control. It is not when things get worst for humanity means God is losing control that’s is when his power and authority is in full force all around our misbehaving, disobedient, rebellious, selfish…power trippin’ selves. “The devil will always try if we let him, but rebuke him in the name of Jesus!”

My thoughts as I sit and watch the funeral of Queen Elizabeth II. I can’t help but think to myself after Her Majesty passing, “where do we go from here?. Not just the world, but the entire royal family. This is a sad day, but the out pouring of respect and love for the Queen from all over the world says a lot about who she was as a human being and head of state. This is a marking of an extraordinary movement of God in which has been done in our world. I believe it is a sign to the beginning of something. We had the plague, fires and climate disasters…and now the sovereign of seventy decades passes. “Brace ourselves. something is coming, I can’t help but feel this within my spirit.” We can only pray that it is something good like Jesus return. Things has gotten so bad and chaotic in our world today with humanity and it’s getting worst, even with the truth and the word of God to guide us, we are still not taking into consideration the lessons we are to have learned. Prejudice, hatred, racism, war, enslavement to have dominion and power, unforgiving, lies, murdering…everything that has been detrimental (sin) to the existence of the future of humanity in which we are yet to overcome. As it was in the beginning we’re still disobedience to the loving Father of us all. “When will we ever learn?”

At least Jesus with all his love for his earthly family was able to come back (resurrection) to his disciples in the upper room after his crucifixion to encourage them to move forward with all that he’d taught, and showed them. He didn’t just leave written instructions, but his divine presence intervene as witness to enable their weak and broken soul. Sometimes I wish our loved ones will return to us and also give us encouragement to press on forward. Maybe they do, but man has fallen so far from God we no longer have that ability to hear them, being caught up with the things of world.

With every passing of someone that made an impact in our lives we should recognize how important it is to live good and do good. You don’t want your legacy to go down in history as the worst human being ever. Knowing we’re flawed doesn’t give us the excuse not to strive and fight against our imperfections, do the best we can to make this world we’re living in a better place for ourselves and the generations to come. To bring about love, unity, mercy, peace and compassion like our Heavenly Father, reflect Him within us.

It feels like a helpless emotion after the passing of a loved one. Change is hard, but the human spirit is resilient . At the moment we feel stuck in time to move forward, holding on to the moment that seems to have ripped through our soul, the passing of a loved one. Going forward is hard, but we must move along regardless, because time waits for no one, and moving forward, is life goes on. The difference between moving forward and time, is emotionally we can be held back form moving forward, if we don’t take control of it and it takes discipline to move with time as it keeps ticking away not waiting. “We can’t hold back the hands of time.”

“Oh Lord, do have mercy on us!”

1 Samuel 8 The people ask for a king. What was sad about this request is revealed in verse 7: And the Lord told Samuel, “ listen to all that the people are saying to you; it is not you they have rejected, but they have rejected me as their king. You can hear and feel the rejection of God in His word, His heart is truly broken over it. We rejected God for a man, “but I get it, man we can see, but God we can’t.” It takes unwavering and steadfast faith in which much of us is lacking to acknowledge His presence in our lives. People rather have someone they can see versus an unseen God. It is so much easier to connect with what you can see. The one thing we don’t take into consideration is man is flawed. The imperfections of man through sin causes so much turmoil to one self as well as others.

Verse 9: “warn them solemnly and let them know what the king who will reign over them will do.” And as Samuel prophesied all the things the people would endure having an earthly king which to me was very serious to contemplate, especially the part of being his slave after what they experienced in Egypt. But the people refused to listen it didn’t detour them, like spoiled children having a tantrum, just wanting what they want without thought of the consequences. But what struck me is the Lord give them what they asked with humility. He’s God! If He was a man, right away He would of answered them with boast and pride of who He is, “I am God, and how dear you? Worship me, I am your king, all you need.” But God with all humility gave the people what they wanted, but warned them of the consequences. From since then when man was given a king as they requested of God, suffered under his rule for choosing man naively over God. It was not God’s intention for us, but what we want.

After what happened in the garden of Eden with the serpent causing Eve to sin by being disobedient to God, I couldn’t help but ponder at the kind of God we have, He still give us the right to choose, instead of a dictatorship. Our obedience to God is for own welfare, there’s dire consequences for not being obedient as we’ve learned through Adam and Eve. God does everything for our well being. He doesn’t need our worship and praises, He has the angel in heaven doing that already. Our worship, prayer and praises is our way of connecting and communicating with God. And God loves having a relationship with man, so pray, get angry, cry throw a fit…whatever He’s got you, like a parent who no matter how difficult a child may be never give up on them and stand with them through it all with love.

Jesus had come into our world to lay the foundation of God’s kingdom to humanity. And no kingdom in our world today that belongs to God is going to stand lest its foundation is according to the Father’s Will given to man by the son. The return of the son to the Lord’s kingdom here on earth is not an institution he’s coming to built by the hands of man, but predicated upon how its constructed within humanity hearts, mind, body and spirit. How well learnt and discipline are we to the word of God and humanity history of past wrong doings. It’s all about God and the movement of Jesus life death and resurrection, its infectiousness upon us all in the world. Jesus is not coming because the world is in trouble, he already did. He’s coming for the fulfilment of his reign for all those who are blind in faith and can’t see it is he that’s truly the king of us all.

God has called some people to stand as his light in view of others for His Will and purpose in the world. People may think you’ve got it all and your life is so easy. But if only they knew the truth our light is to shine to glorify God in us not ourselves. We are not to be prideful or indulge in the accolades of others, but have an humble, loving, compassionate, merciful, forgiving nature like our heavenly Father. Some of us are blind and unaware of this wisdom, knowledge and understanding or the eyes to see that it’s all about God. Instead we worship the man, idolizing the person as they are a God. Putting weights upon them they cannot carry, making our expectations of them so high that when they disappoint us we move to hating on them in such an evil way, forgetting they like ourselves are only human.

God’s kingdom is to rule the entire earth, to reign taking over the world kingdoms. For this reason the kingdoms of this world must fall to give rise to the true kingdom. The spreading of truth has fully taken over the world regardless of the enemy wanted to pollute the truth with deceptions, lies, manipulating and confusing even to those who are chosen by God to lead all people. All people are God’s people (children).

There was once a time the Royals was insignificant to me. It was only the marriage of Princess Diana to Prince Charles that had caught my attention. Every little girl love fairytales love stories in my days, after all these stories enticed the imaginations. We didn’t have technology, movies and television like today to keep our imaginations occupied. Reading was the source back then, the only way to open up our imaginations. Fantasizing of one day getting married who wouldn’t wished it to have been fairytale like we all had believed Prince Charles and Princess Diana was as portrait in the media. There’s no young girl or woman brought up in western world with its influences that doesn’t have this kind of sentiment concerning marriage.

Learning about Her majesty Queen Elizabeth life became an obsession to me as to what she could have in common to the Queen of all Queen, Mother Mary, mother of Jesus. I had so many questions like why would she be the only living queen so popular in our word? And like Mother Mary was she chosen from among many women, honoured and favoured? Understanding her back ground from her parents to her position as to becoming Queen is nothing but a calling to destiny, I thought. Everything about her life was orchestrated by the hand of God, I truly believe. And as a woman Her Majesty The Queen empowered me as I learned that a woman can play an important role in the world dominated by men, especially back in the days when woman was only to be wives at home, having children and up keeping a home, seen but not heard. She has changed for me the perspective in which I saw the role of a woman in the world as a young girl. I couldn’t believe a woman could play such an important role as sovereign. Queen Elizabeth The II, the only Queen I’d known that existed in our world as a child and I was blown away she was not an entertainer like a movie star, but she being a queen was a job and a big responsibility.

Seventy decades of service, commend enough respect. Seven the number of completion and this amazing Queen reigned. No one can do such a thing without the Lord guidance, I call her God chosen Queen. Her Majesty had done a fantastic job that we all can model after, duty before all else, a true servant of God. I could just imagine her as she’s before God right now, as He says to her, “my beloved servant whom I am well pleased.” Her service, loyalty and leadership is untouchable and cannot ever be replicated. A one in a million only for our century we got to thank the Lord for her presence in our time. Yes, I know her relevance to a lot of people is not one of any importance, even to resentment and for some hated for the institute she represented, guilty by heritage. There’s the talk of enslavement and cruelty which I believe had nothing to do with her reign. She was born into an institution dominated by man with rules and regulations out of her control. What she had an ability to change she changed but we all know with us humans we’re never satisfied and always want more. Things take time to grow and change. I am just so happy there’s now the rule for the royals to marry for love and not prestige. Even with her passing things are still changing. We all must stop holding on to the bad and think of the good that we as humans who are so imperfect do, to keep hope and most of all love and peace alive, not focussing on the bad to fuel negativity resulting in division instead of unity.

Three times I was moved to tears watching the television news about the passing of Her Majesty. The first was the brothers Prince William and Prince Harry and there spouses together greeting the people, the proclamation of King Charles The III with his son Prince William at his side thinking if only things had worked out differently Princess Diana would of been there also, and the removing of the of Her Majesty coffin from the hearse into the St. Giles’ Cathedral in Edinburgh couldn’t help it the tears just kept coming. I felt something in my spirit that said the world has just lost an very important woman of God The Head Of State, of the East, West, North and South. What an authority, powerful position given to woman who represented well. Not even Kings of the past can even be compared to her extraordinary reign. Sorry men, but according to MC Hammer, “ U can’t touch this.” She makes me so proud to be a woman, because we as women can do it all.

Very much loved and sadly already missed. One Queen that change the perspective of what it means to be a woman in charge, authentic who served with such excellence and very much loved and admired. Would ever be known to me as The Queen of Legacy for our century. There’s this eerie feeling now that the Queens has died, like a warning to all humanity that something is going to happen to our world when someone of this status passes on, the world would never be the same again. A great change is coming to the life we known for so long.

Queen Elizabeth II, “I f it hadn’t been for the Lord who was on your side, you reign! Rest In Peace and love my Queen.”