What really is the mark of the beast? Is it really a mark or psychological manipulation by the enemy? I believe it to be whatever is our deepest desires, for example like money, fame, power, greed…anything against God. Anything we view as being nothing in our eyes, but not acceptable to the will and purpose of God the deception by the enemy, pulling at our soul to make us sin unknowingly. We must be aware of our thought (mindset) of what we view as being right and acceptable to the Lord. We might be deceived into thinking it’s okay to be vengeful; without forgiveness, angry…sinning, justifying our sinful ways. We must choose to follow Jesus and draw nearer to God to remind ourselves who we are and to whom we belong. Recognize when we’re under attack, knowing when you’re slowly drifting from the path of the Lord righteousness and truth because the temptation is so great. It is becoming harder to be in the world and not of it, finding ourselves lusting after the things of the world and our minds being like minded of that of it. If we’re not on praying grounds to be full of the Holy Spirit to discern the mark of the beast will be upon us all.

Let’s see what the Bible says about the mark of the beast, Revelation 13:16-18 He causes all, both small and great, both rich and poor, both free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hand(your works) or on their forehead,(mind) so that no one may buy or sell, except he who has the Mark or the name of the beast to the number of his name. Here is a call for wisdom: Let him who has understanding calculate the number of the beast. It is the number of man. His number is six hundred and sixty-six. The mark of the beast is link to the Antichrist and his followers. He will come and be positioned with authority and power in the world. This will be the time for us all to choose a side the Antichrist or Jesus. You must choose and if you refuse the mark of the beast you’ll surely be killed. Remember what was said in Matthew 10:28 “Fear not them which kill the body, but are not able to kill the soul: but rather fear him which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.

This Antichrist situation remind me of King Nebuchadnezzar in Daniel 3:9-27. He had issued an order that everyone was to bow down and worship a golden statue, and anyone who didn’t would be thrown into a blazing furnace. And there were three Jews put in charge of the province of Babylon- Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego who refused and was thrown into the furnace. And much to the king’s amazement he leapt to his feet when he saw the three men untied and a forth who looked like an angel walking around in the furnace. Nebuchadnezzar went to the door of the furnace and called out to Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, “ servant of the Supreme God! Come out!” And they had not been harmed by the fire at all. Not their hair was singed, clothes were not burnt and there was no smell of smoke on them.

So let’s meditate on this for a minute Jesus hadn’t been born yet for the salvation and redemption of humanity, but yet their faith sustain them in their time of need to survive. So think for a moment unlike these men, we are reborn in Christ through water baptism and the fire of the Holy Spirit. We are in Him and Him in us as one; as He also was one with the Heavenly Father, John 10:30. No mark of any beast can lead us away from God. We have the power and authority to resist the devil and he will flee. The mark would only be of our choice. Would Jesus life, death and resurrection prove to be all in vain? No! We who are in Christ, His followers, should know better than to give into the wickedness and whiles of the devil and put on our armour of God. Giving into our weaknesses and choosing death rather than life as Adam and Eve did in the garden of Eden, by not being obedient to God is the only way to fall prey to the enemy. Adam and Eve had chosen after being warned. We also now have a choice and prophetic warning.

So God seals and the Antichrist marks. The first seal God had ever placed was on Cain in Genesis 4:11–15 Cain killed his brother Abel, God declared to Cain, “now you are under a curse and driven from the ground, which opens its mouth to receive your brother’s blood from your hand. Cain was petrified he’ll be killed now that the Lord had driven him out of the land and His presence, so God put a seal on him that no one who found him would kill him.

The seal, represents legitimacy, certifies something is real or authentic, ownership and grantees safety and protection. You are God’s possession. And a mark: an impression made on something, a distinguishing trait or quality, a symbol used for identification or indication of ownership, to take notice of: observe, register, record, grade, characterize, distinguish, signalize, chart. Antichrist can only copy what God does, not create his own thing.

To me the Antichrist is a man who want to be honoured, worshipped, respected like a God, but has the form, but doesn’t possess the true nature or power of the truth and righteousness of God. It’s the sin in man that has plagued us since the garden of Eden that would manifest itself once and for all to be destroyed. Like God coming to us manifest into the womb of a woman becoming flesh. The Antichrist is now sin manifesting itself into flesh becoming man so it can finally be judged and killed. Sin itself has taking on its own presence aside from man. An out of body existence in the form of a man, (demonic possessing spirit) When we think about what sin truly is define as which is everything against God’s will and purpose for man. It will finally rise up and take it place, no longer a serpent, but man a physical manifestation of all evil masquerading as man, the devil himself. Becoming one like us to deceive us, because now that Jesus is believed on in the entire world so whole heartedly, he’s now going to show himself like prophesied the returning Jesus, that we even who are inChrist would dear to believe he’s truly Jesus. So many in the days of Christ had rejected him as the messiah, now we are going to trust and believe in Antichrist to make up for our past unbelief. Fighting over man interruptions of scripture as being God’s honest truth to follow without a doubt. God’s truth is given by the Holy Spirit written in our soul, sometimes clouded by the world, but can only be clear up through faith in the truth and power of God in our lives, following of Jesus will to be obedient. It’s all about our choices.

One thing that after all these years from a youth till now, that troubles me about the hearing of the mark of the beast is the conflict of it being money or powers and principalities. At one time I believe it to be money, because one thing in our world today that give power and authority for so many; money and credit cards. Maybe back in the days long ago it was crops, farm animals, land, territory, slaves…but today it is money. We cannot live or die without it. Imagine even if you’re dead today your estate whatever you have left after you die have to take care of what you still owe. After you die what you owe shouldn’t count, but in today society money is everything. You get a terminal sickness you need money to try and survive longer. When your health is compromised by not having money then you know it’s bad really bad, because money can’t and shouldn’t be able to buy health, neither love, but today it truly can in some ways. It can even buy the only heaven we are guaranteed in this life, an beautiful mausoleum to be buried in,lol. One thing guaranteed is that it cannot get us into heaven or make us more spiritual or connect to God.

I believe the mark of the beast also to be the power and principalities…because we can’t see it, but it is a possession that takes over us. If you possess what I call the Cain mentally God has sealed Cain and that is what Revelation is talking about. Cain is being lifted out of hiding to get his just reward for killing Abel. Jesus is finally going take Cain life and all those under the Cain mentally will be destroyed along with the devil who started all this evil in the world. The blood of Abel crying out in the earth, “ listen it stopped!” Jesus’s blood silenced the cry to rejoicing. All flesh and blood through acknowledgment and following of Jesus, like Abel all the injustices of evil will seize and the crying will finally stop. Peace has already been given if you have faith trusting and believing in Jesus.

This mark of the beast as spoken in scripture seems to have taken place on many of us in the world today, separating us according to our mindset. Some of us is looking evil in its eyes and calling it good and good, calling it evil; seeing absolutely nothing wrong with our views that common sense, logic and investigations has brought about proof exposed nothing but truth we refuse to except and acknowledge.

Isaiah 9:6 For to us a child is born, to us a son is given, and the government will be on his shoulders. And he will be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

We celebrate Christmas every year as a constant reminder of how much God do love us, John 3:16. But what are we doing with commemoration of Jesus birth is so wrong. Instead of letting it be a reflection of freely given, freely receiving with love, big company businesses are capitalizing on making profits, people are spending excessive money especially those who are trying to make ends meet and hardly can afford it on gifts in hopes it will be appreciated, playing Santa Claus, when instead the gift is rejected and sometimes regift unknowingly, feeling obligated to give gifts to others who has given to us…the greatest misleading of the meaning of Christmas is in how we all celebrate it. We promote a very negative and corrupt meaning of Christmas. For some the giving or receiving is not even sincere.

If we can’t take the name of the Lord in vain, how dear we take His the meaning of His birth in vain. No wonder so many has fallen away from faith. We are to be the salt of the world and some of us as Christians has lost our saltiness, Matthew 5:13. Jesus is returning and we are to be the trumpets blowing, prophesying and proclaiming the the kingdom. Instead we are consumed by the worldliness trying so much to fit in, that we’re in the world and being of it, when scripture declares we should be the opposite, John 17:11-15 and 1John 2:15-17.

What are to be doing, especially for Christmas? We are to be following Christ, not making it about ourselves, but the less fortunate, those that are in need, like the hungry, cloth the naked, visit the sick and prisoners, praying for them, find the lost sheep…sacrifice yourself in service to the Lord almighty. To give with love without counting the cost. The Lord our God has sent His only begotten son as a saviour to us a great example of how we should be towards one another. When come to Christmas also all wars in the world, bickering, arguments, fighting, hate, vengeance, bitterness…should come to an end at Christmas. Love, forgiveness, healing, restoration of all broken relationship and unity should be the greatest gift we can give to each other in making our world better.

We praying for the return of Jesus to make everything to be made right. But what if it all begins with us? We have to start by resisting the devil that he will flee from us, James 4:7. Instead in our weakness we are lured into his lies, seductions and temptation…which all stem from us not truly knowing and understand who we are in Christ. Our weakness (sin) makes us dependent on God, that why we must do all things through Him, who’s power is made perfect in our weakness, 2 Corinthians 12.

Humanity are rechargeable in our mind, body and soul by the power of God, if only we reach to Him, our Father, who’s arms are stretched out wide to embrace us. Let’s run into the loving arms of the Father, rather the paths that leads us astray, that broad path, Matthew 7:13-14.

“Oh Joseph, how often your role as a provider, protector, stepfather to Jesus and husband to the Virgin Mary has been overlooked and unrecognized for its importance, by man. You were not even mentioned by the prophets when they prophesied of the coming of the Messiah. And sadly, when the prophet Simeon was in the temple on Mary’s day of purification, when both her and Joseph went into the temple to offer a sacrifice, because every male child who opens the womb is to be presented to the Lord, according to the law of Moses that shall be called holy to the Lord. Simeon mention to Mary only, that a sword will be pierced through her own soul, Luke 2:22-35. What about Joseph? He didn’t mention anything to him. Making it seem as though he would not by no means, be affected by what will happen to the child, or in that statement was a prediction of Joseph not going to be around at that, by not mentioning the effects on him? After all that Joseph went through with both mother and child, how could he not be affected by the love and bond they all shared as a family. It has always been about a virgin who shall conceived and bear a son, and shall name him Emmanuel, Isaiah 7:14.”

Genesis 3:11-12 And the Lord said, “ who told thee that thou wast naked? Hast thou eaten of the tree, whereof I commanded thee that thou shouldest not eat? And the man said, “ the woman whom thou gravest to be with me, she gave me of the tree, and I did eat. 3:16 Unto the woman he said, “ I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and thy desire shall be to thy husband, and he shall rule over thee.”

After reading Genesis 3 I realized it has always been about the woman. Eve was pivotal in the fall of man into sin, but she had done it with innocence, in a child like manner. It seems like she was more inquisitive, and courageous than Adam, just like Mary when the angel Gabriel came to her. Mary spoke up and even questioned the angel, Luke 1:26-38. Eve, like Mary, truly was the leader in the relationship because Adam followed her lead in what she had done, by eating the forbidden fruit; overlooking the seriousness of it; not even taking into consideration to be obedient to the warning God had commanded of them both and to remind Eve. He just went along with it all. Now here in the New Testament Joseph is just like Adam in following the lead of his wife, she said yes and now him. It seem like in the New Testament with both Joseph and Mary, God picked up where the story began with Eve and Adam in the garden telling them not to eat of the forbidden tree. And here goes Joseph like Adam playing a non-active role, but somehow getting caught up with all the drama.

Just imagine the outcome it would have been for the entire world if Adam had said something to Eve about the eating of the fruit and he, himself, had not participated. Adam called Eve flesh of my flesh and bones of my bones and he had, from the beginning, put her before God in his words. “Think of it, after all she was the only one like himself, not God or the animals he had been given to name.” Both Mary and Joseph, unlike Adam and Eve, were in one accord in their obedience to the will and purpose of God, without wavering, regardless what tribulations and trials the devil threw their way. God needed an incorruptible vessel to come through and both Joseph and Mary were the vessels needed. Couldn’t have one without the other to represent humanity. For this reason God had waited for the right time to send His son into the world. Man had to evolve from were they first fell and that is with being obedient to the will and purpose of God.

It took God some time to mold and shape man (humanity) after Adam. Adam had everything provided for him until the fall. The ground that has been cursed because of him; through painful toil he ate food from it and it will produce thorns and thistles. He worked hard just to eat; by the sweat of his brow. Genesis 3:17-19. For the sin of Adam and Eve earth has not been kind to him(man). Man has constantly been whipped and punished by the earth. And here we are blaming bad weather, storms, hurricane, earthquake, floods, tsunami…on climate change, toxicities, global warming…Man doesn’t realize it, but he has to be submissive to eat and live in the world where peace, harmony and tranquility exist not only with each other but nature and the entire earth. Submissive to God! Then and only then can it all be attained.

Joseph along with Mary went through the nativity story unlike what others proclaim are the new Adam and Eve. Why? Because they are the descendent of them, all human born into sin, not deity. But God, through the birth of Jesus, has once again renewed them both. He had renewed Adam and Eve when he sent them out of the garden and put coats of skins and clothed them. They, for the first time, had to learn to be independent of God and all the luxury they were accustomed to in Eden. They were thrown into what seems like the dark on their own with pain, suffering. Now Joseph and Mary are responsible for having thrown of humanity back into the light where Adam and Eve once were before the temptation and the fall.

Joseph, unlike Adam, was honourable, obedient and faithful to the Lord. He could have chosen another wife, put away Mary discreetly as he had planned. Poor Adam had to stick with what he had been given, there was no other. For Joseph, obedience to God in still marrying Mary, for this reason he had become very important. Joseph became Mary’s God-husband, a vessel that God could use for His will and purpose for His son entry into the world, without the devil being any wiser. For it was custom only a husband and a wife to have a baby back in those days.

Matthew 1:25 And did not know her till she had brought forth her first born Son. And he called His name Jesus. Yep! Joseph consummated their marriage, but only after Jesus was born. God isn’t cruel about his Will’s purpose by not taking into consideration to allow these to young people to be truthful in their commitment as husband and wife. It was not a pretend thing for God’s purpose. I believe God knew they truly loved each other and this experience would’ve brought them even closer in their relationship, especially having such a secret to hold on to. They became as one as Adam had first spoke of Eve, “ this is now bones of my bones and flesh of my flesh…Genesis 2:23

I believe Joseph and Mary consummating had to be important for us all to understand why sex is not to be taken lightly, that intimacy produces connection of the mind, body and soul. Mary carried what I call the power and authority of all creation in her womb and it must have affect her in some powerful way. And Joseph making love to Mary must have also affected within his soul. You cannot be touched by Holy Spirit and not be infectious to others.

A purified seed was planted into man (humanity) to make him clean. The devil messed with Eve’s soul, but the Lord renewed not only Mary’s soul but her entire being when she conceived by the Holy Spirit, Jesus. Through a woman sin came and now through a woman sin was conquered.

Why a virgin? I prayed and asked the Lord. Merriam-Webster dictionary defines a virgin as: noun a). person who has not had sexual intercourse, b). a person who is inexperienced in a usually specified sphere of activity, c). an unmarried woman devoted to religion, d). an absolutely chaste young woman, d). an unmarried girl or woman, e). a female animal that has never copulated. Adjective meaning: a). Chaste, b). fresh, unspoiled, c). specifically: not altered by human activity…free of impurity or stain: unsullied.

Eve in the garden of Eden with Adam was the original, first and only virgin until satan appeared onto her tempting her to eat from the forbidden tree. Mary was created by God to withstand that same weakness and temptation that led Eve astray into sin. Like Job, God must have put a hedge around Mary to keep her from the wickedness and the wiles of the devil. In keeping Mary pure, sanctified and protected, she served God’s purpose in being chosen to bring forth His only begotten son.

Like so many of those men and women who had been born before Mary in the Bible that God had chosen to fulfill His purpose who were all born into sin, Mary like Samuel was born to her parents as a miracle child, according to Merriam-Webster dictionary meaning of a virgin not altered by human activity… free of impurity or stain: unsullied. Mary who was brought up by parents who love the Lord and was in service unto Him throughout all their generations brought her forth with the same spirit of love, service and faith in the the Lord. It was in her DNA to be who she was chosen to be, the mother of God’s only begotten son. Still in service unto the Lord.

Virginity! Mary’s virginity was more than just abstaining from sexual intercourse, but her mind, body and soul belonged to the Lord. She was innocent, humble, obedient, loving, loyal, faithful and trusting. God was her first love and her everything. Her focus was on all things pertaining to God and God alone in a child-like innocent manner. God was her best friend, confidant…her world. Mary loved God and all of God’s creations. She saw good even in the bad; because she was faithful God was going to make all things good. She was loving, kind, trusting, hopeful and faithful in all things to God. Mary was a praying soul who loved the Lord. Mary would speak to God like he’s standing in the room and she’s the only one who can see Him. Like an imaginary friend she spoke and God answered her. They had a relationship like no other from a baby to now adolescent Mary had been communicating with the Lord. Like an angel sent from Heaven is the best way to describe her character.

Her love for children was undeniable. She faithfully believe that all children was a blessing and a gift from God. A lover and caregiver of children from a very early age, Mary dreamt of having children of her own one day. Mary had a voice to sing and all the children in the neighbourhood loved to hear her sing from a crying baby to a falling toddler, they would stop crying at her voice when she’d sing to them. Her singing can put an unwilling child to sleep. She loved children so much as a protecter of them all. She grew up an only child and with her cousins, and friends as close to siblings as possible whom she spent time playing and taking care of, which she loved to do with such a natural nurturing instinct. Mary can’t be looked at as being just born that way, but she was specifically created, tested and tried from a very young age. Even the animals, like children, loved Mary, they would gather around at the sound of her voice, especially when she sings. The birds would leave from soaring in the sky to rest on her as she sings, especially the doves, like a bunch of white angels they’d fly in a circle all around getting everyone’s attention to stop whatever they are doing and listen.

Mary, this woman, God’s vessel for His only begotten son is an amazing human being. She may not have been like the all those famous men of the Bible, but her role, as simple as they try to make it out to be, was spectacular heroism and a sacrifice. They underplay the importance of Mary’s role as the mother Jesus. She had to represent all mothers and women of God for us all to follow. How many of us would have liked to be the one, but being the one you have to be strong, not just mentally and physically, but spiritually. You have to be willing to be, humble, faithful, trusting, obedient, with all your heart and soul. Letting go and letting God orchestrate every aspect of your life without wavering especially in the worst circumstances of your life when all hell starts breaking lose. When the fire begins to burn, the heat has been turned up with gasoline poured on the fire, can you stand your ground? Do you curse God to die or love Him still? Especially when it’s not about you, but your love child, His and yours only begotten, the blessing and gift you received, God has now taken and given as a lamb to be sacrificed. And now He says to you, a human being with emotions, that soul He has created you with, “ you knew it was going to be like this, stop the crying!” Instead of retaliation for His words, she cries out, “ cover me(protect me from falling into temptation, sin) Lord, I love, and trust Your will be done.” Still humble and innocent as she can be for the love of her life, and her everything, her God.

Are you a deep diver and I am not talking about putting on a wetsuit, diving mask, air tank, snorkel, fins…to go into the ocean. I’m talking about a spiritual dive like Jonah did in the belly of the fish, Jonah 1:17.

Some of us are created to dive in and go down pretty deep spiritually and some to stay shallow. God never gives us more than we can handle, one of the reason we shouldn’t compare ourselves to others is because a bad experiences in your life can make you stronger, but can traumatize and cripple someone else, especially if they’re not called and decides to just copy what they see others doing that looks so easy.

I like to dive in and go down deep, not because I could hold my breath for lengths of time, but because the Holy Spirit is my oxygen. When it’s power has taken complete control, falling fresh on me, opening my blind eyes so I can see, deaf ear so I can hear and dumb mouth to speak. Then and only then can I say, “ I do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” There’s no way I would be capable of doing certain things on my own or of my own strength without God’s help.

The spiritual wisdom, knowledge and understanding attained from being a deep diver can be too much for some to bear. So they judge and criticize when they’re only on the shallow end. Life is given to everyone by God with the ability for us to choose, and we’re ignorant in not using it wisely for good all the time. I guess destined to be balanced with evil we sometimes can’t help ourselves, goodness can’t last forever, not in this life. There’s the good and bad as long as we’re in this body, this thing called flesh covering the spirit. The imperfections of our existence will always remain, but we must have the balance. You can’t be good all the time, neither bad. It takes discipline to stand in righteousness and goodness unto the end for it is a battle, let’s face it. Ecclesiastes 7:16 “Do not be overrighteous, neither be overwise- why destroy yourself?” 7:20 “Surely there is not a righteous man on earth who does good and never sins.”

“Take a leap and dive in, go down deep, really deep, that’s where you’ll find God, and all truth and righteousness, when desire to be spiritual. To be shallow we’re in the flesh and to be spiritual you’re in the depth penetrating the flesh to the higher self the spirit, the image of God within; his breath he blew in us to make us a living soul.”

The flesh is shallow, but the spirit is deep. In the shallow we can see only the surface, but in the depth is dark and mysterious until you reach the light within.

Deuteronomy 4:24 For the Lord your God is a consuming fire, a jealous God.

The fire is burning, the consuming fire of God, because the world is burning and we’re too busy to notice. Preoccupied with worldliness, money, fame, lust, greed, power…Eyes we have, but don’t see, ears, but can’t hear, hear and see what’s really going on. Have we drifted so far that the Lord who is tapping us on our shoulders metaphorically, to get our attention, we no longer feels his touch? So we don’t see, hear or feel God anymore? While our spirit is crying out to our Lord, who’s answering. We are walking around heavy burden with worries about our future and our present should be with the Lord to carry us through to our future.

The consuming fire is purification for sin in the world. The world is bleeding because we’re being cut, pruned. Whatever that’s going on in our world God has to cut, trim, so the new can come in. “Why fight it?” “Don’t you know bleeding is good!” We speak of the blood, the blood! It’s been poured out and now has a demand for reciprocity. We sing, dance praise and worship on the victory of the blood (Jesus crucified) and what a privilege and honour we are blessed with for our salvation. Now what sacrifice can we now offer in return? We don’t have time to think about it. The plague (Covid) is our pruning. Blood for blood, life for life. So many for one life, Jesus’s life he give for the lives of the world.

Our greed, our lust for the worldly things has taken over for what was once our true desire, God, Him and him alone, first in our lives. God who can deliver us from the burdens of sin, sickness, trials and tribulations, fears, doubts…death. Matthew 6:33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. We shall not want or desire anything, our God shall provide. But today power, authority and control, pride, fame, wealth…has crept into us unknowingly. We believe we’re going about life normally, but we are far from normalcy.

The fire is here to consume the worldly desires. The Lord needs for us to be focused on our life everlasting. The world is temporary, but his kingdom is everlasting and with no suffering and pain. We must stand our grounds and don’t lose sight, continue to build it up and be prepared for the return of Jesus. And the blood, the bleeding is the reminder of what’s more important for our salvation to be free from the bondage of sin, sickness, fears, hopeless, doubts…death, knowing from where comes our help when all else has failed us.

Romans 8:28 And we know that all things God works for good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

My husband and I were travelling for his work and this thought of David popped into my head as I was praying and meditating on the word of God, “why would God call David a man after his own heart?” Acts 13:22 I have found David the son of Jesse, a man after mine own heart, which shall fulfill all my will. David, this sinner who murdered Uriah one of his loyal soldier in his army for his wife, committed adulatory and was about to take credit for the success as king without acknowledging God’s presence with him for it all. Pride was creeping up on David having brought harmful consequences on himself as well those he’s responsible for, an imperfect man, a sinner.

2 Samuel 24:10-14 David was conscience-stricken after he had counted the fighting men, and he said to the Lord, “I have sinned greatly in what I have done. Now, Lord, I beg you, take away the guilt of your servant. I have done a very foolish thing.” God sent the prophet Gad to prophesy to David about the consequences of his action and he was given three choices. David replied to Gad after hearing his choices of punishment, 1. Three years of famine in the land. 2. Three months of fleeing from his enemy while they pursue him. 2. Three days of plague in the land. 2 Samuel 24:14 David says, “I am in deep distress. Let us fall into the hands of the. Lord, for His mercy is great; but do not let me fall into human hands.” Look at the privileged David has with God, that he can choose his punishment for his sin.

David, a man after God’s own heart? Though he seemed to have walked boldly into sin, doing it without a thought of the consequences. David always knew how to repent even before being confronted by God. It was like he knew he couldn’t help but sin when he wrote, “behold, I was sharpen in iniquity, and in sin did my mother conceived me, Psalm 51:5. To me he had this special relationship with God as plea for him to deliver him from his weakness to fall into sin. Maybe the reason David was cast away from his brother was because like a misfit he’d always stir up trouble. There are some of us in the world that have problems when it comes having relationship with others, especially if you have issues like mental illness. People judge and condemn, but mental illness is serious and to me it is responsible for a lot of people bad behaviour. As Jesus said on the cross, “forgive them for they know not what they do.”

I can’t help but believe David may have loved his solitude with God and the sheep because it seems to be where he stayed peaceful and out of trouble with man. He found a strong bond and relationship with God in an isolated place with animals as Adam did in the garden of Eden with God, before Eve came along. To me, David was a reminder to God of Adam and they had a relationship that was undefined. God was David’s everything unlike Adam, David was not alone once he had God and needed a help meet, Genesis 2:18. God was all David had as his (help meet) companion, friend, and lover of his soul. God was the only family David had that loved and accepted him just the way he was with his strength and weaknesses. They had an unconditional love between them that can never be severed.

Nothing could satisfied David and keep him contented except his relationship with God. The relationship with God completed David the reason having many wives was enough, brothers, sisters, mother, father, family and friends. I believe David did crazy things because God is truly what he was after and nothing in the world could ever replace the hunger and thirst; that zeal for the almighty that can’t be quenched by anything of the world, no amount of victory won, crown or wealth.

For my understanding David was looking for truth and righteousness. He was in the world, but not of it. He struggled and had problems connecting and being apart of the world and people. David had spent so much alone time with God that their intimate relationship and connection some how made him an outcast, set apart from others. He couldn’t seem to live a regular life outside of his relationship with God. Being God’s warrior, friend, companion, and his willing servant, yet a sinner who loved God more than anything. David, to me was perfect in the sight of God. But matters to his heart (emotions) as a king, husband, father, sibling, son and friend, he lacked the ability to be good at.

We see David as God fearing, but yet sinning, being crazy and so indifferent like not killing Saul when had a chance, running from his son who wanted to kill him and refusing drink the water he so desired from Bethlehem when it was brought to him. A misfit, but God is a good of mercy, love and understanding of humanity. David knew how to be in relation with the Lord in such a way only God can. Not Moses, Abraham, Noah, Joseph, Jacob…all other great men of the Bible no other had the kind of relationship with God like David. David revered God so much that strived to never do wrong by him and whenever he falls short he knew to right away to humble himself and repent. He had a love for God and a respect that is so unwavering pure and true and for his faithfulness God blessed him continually. David knew that the Lord understood his weaknesses as man, but loved him regardless and His mercy endures forever.

David, a man after God‘s own heart! He allows us to know that God’s mercy endures forever, a broken and contrite heart God never despise, day and night are the same to God, so He doesn’t judge us as good or bad in us because according to Psalm 139:14 “ fearfully and wonderfully made,” summarizing everything, David told us about what God feels about us, He knows and understands us, has me thinking, we must keep also in mind that we are all imperfect beings, but being conscience-stricken, respecting God’s will by being obedient is being after God’s own heart.

In my Father’s arms, the place I’ve found safety and comfort, but I couldn’t remain there forever, he wanted me to venture out, and led me out into the world (my birth). “Live life to the fullest,” he told me, “for I am with you always.” Taking away the memories of my true home and the life I was living with him. Here I am left in this world to grow in wisdom, knowledge and understanding and live. But my spirit cries out, longing to go back home, home the place where love, peace and tranquillity exist, a familiarity the sense of belong which is branded in my heart, mind and spirit. So aware of where I belong, and here on earth is not it, for I am a pilgrim in this earth passing through. There’s too much pain and suffering, this continuous battle with the negative and positive energies is overwhelming to my soul. Realizing that my life is a mission and I am commissioned to live in obedience to my Father Will.

Feeling like you don’t belong and everything is just against you is so wrong. Nothing has the right to make anyone feel this way not even the condition of the world nor the people in it. The forces of evil senses the presence of good, realizes the threat to its purpose, so it begins tapping into the flow of positive energy obstructing it. The words of the Father must be the driving force behind every negativity and obstacle, “I am with you always.” His words are written within our heart, mind and soul manifest itself through our spirit in faith where it cannot ever be removed or destroyed.

Excepting God in your life shouldn’t come across like life insurance for eternity in heaven. To know the the Lord is to be awaken to our true being within (spirit) the image of Him in which we were created. Seeking to know the Lord should gives us all a clear sense of who we are, our purpose and whom we truly belong to. In God is our safe place to rest and be. He’s the answer to all mysteries, supernatural, unexplained, existence and creations. Unless you have had an encounter with the Lord it is hard to convince others who has not, that He’s real. No one can remember being formed in our mother’s womb and the our birth into the world, but yet here we are.

Suffering persecution for being proud and loud about your relationship with the Lord; life not being worth the living without Him is an unknown threat to an enemy you didn’t set out to intentionally provoke in anyways. A matter of fact you didn’t even recognize existed. When God’s light begins shining through you it is not easy as some makes it out to be. Religious people tend to rush you into a becoming a Christian and then giving you this assumption that you’re exempt from trials and tribulations in your life, “the devil is a liar!” One thing you’ve got to learn that they don’t teach about is, if you been through some tough times in your life before giving your life to God, get ready for the heat to be turned up on your trials and tribulations, hotter than when you where carnal and in the world. The devil test and try your faith and God equips you with the wisdom, knowledge and understanding to overcome his attempts to destroy us.

Once you know God, truly know Him, to me it’s automatically your responsibility to encourage others to also to get to know Him. And no matter what you always become a target and a threat to the opposition the (devil). The devil is real, if you’re awaken spiritually you understand this fact. God who created him(satan) our opposition, through Jesus, His only begotten son, life death and resurrection has given us the victory, authority and power over his advances towards us. “When God says a thing, it is done,” when He’s said, “I am with you always” and being comfortable is in His arms that means you will always be comfortable and secure no matter what you’re going through. Fear, doubt and hopelessness these emotions threaten our power and authority over the enemy. You must stand faithful and obedient to the Lord, because we are overcomers through and in Him.

In the Fathers Arms is where we all need to be in the world today. No more the fig leaf or the animal skin, but the covering of His love. We sing, “nothing but the blood of Jesus.” The blood set us free from the bondage of sin, but it is His love, unconditional love that continually working powerfully within and without us to stand. Grace came because of that love, giving freedom in every sense of the word. When going through trial and tribulations, pain and suffering…whatever He’s got us. He’s the rock in which we stand and anything that would cause us to withdraw from Him or prevent us from being in a relationship with Him, pray Archangel Micheal come to defend you in the battle. “You better be fighting with all you got!” We got to hold on, remain in His presence the very thing the devil is trying to get you away from to finally destroy us.

I remembered as a child being told in Sunday school, there would be a time the presence of God would not be felt in the world. We’ll be crying out to God and he will not answer, because of sin, God would be far from humanity. There’s scripture in the Bible to back this up Jeremiah 11:14, Zechariah 7:13, Ezekiel 5:11,and it was taught that this was going to take place in the last days. As a child it petrified me, the thought of God leaving us and the devil being able to take control knowing that he is the evil one, my imagination took advantage of my fears and vulnerability. I promised to pray all the time that the Lord presence would always with me regardless. I was not going to allow God to leave me. I would always blink my eyes and there would be light that flashes before me in which I would call my imaginary friend whom I called, Father. These circles of light that surrounded me and would never ever abandon me, I truly believed. I couldn’t bare the thought of being in darkness and God not being there. I was almost fifty years old when I’d learned to sleep without a night light. I put it in my Will that when I die my family has to keep a light for me always and don’t allow my body in a freezer without light, for I fear darkness that much. The Lord’s presence to me from a child always represented by light, like the sun, it’s hard to imagine the earth without it.

How can we keep the flames of faith from burning out, at a time when the presence of God is obscured by so much negativity in our world. From the beginning of the pandemic until this very moment I find there’s been a movement, a shift of energy in our world, negativity fighting against positivity. All that is true and righteous, is in a struggle to stand and maintain. It’s fight against an invisible evil forces you can’t see or touch, but there is this undeniable fact of its existence, that we’re in a war, a spiritual war. It seems like good is now evil and evil is now good. The greed for power, control and money has taking over the minds of many and that which once was a priority before anything else (God) has now become only for convenience, placed way in the back of everything else. Out of sight, out of mind, this is the position our Lord has taken in our lives as faith is based on what is seen and tangible. Remember there was a time being poor was following and being like Jesus. Now fame and wealth is because of being obedient, follow and be like Jesus. We are being motivationally empowered and taught this. “Why settle for anything less?” We still don’t get it, we can be rich and still poor and poor and still rich. We all want to be rich, don’t want to just get by, we desperately want to be able to pay all our bills and still have leftover to do whatever we want to do, like go on vacations, buy a new car, help others…whatever. We still don’t get it whether rich or poo it’s all about our spirit within and our relationship with the Heavenly Father through the power of the Holy Spirit. This is all on a level of spiritual awakening and understanding.

We got to get down on our knees, clasp our hand and bow our heads and begin to fast and pray like never before. Get out our Bible begin to read the books of the prophets and revelations and recognize the irony on what humanity is going through again for our disobedience to the word of God. After the life death and resurrection of Jesus, I refuse to be like the Israelites in the Wilderness going around in circles for forty years after being delivered out of Egypt slavery because of their lack of wisdom, knowledge and understanding of what the Lord was doing in their lives when bringing them out of captivity. We got to read the Bible to truly get the understanding of humanity ignorance when concerning how we ourselves can impact the change for the betterment of our world.

Ecclesiastes 1:9 What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. We’re living in a time of lawlessness and the grieving of the Holy Spirit. It is better that we didn’t know the truth, than to know and still choose to go against it. And the truth is God is real and obedience to him is going to make our world a better place and our lives filled with peace when together we overcome the power and authority of devil for good. For us to go against Him is sealing our lives to all kind of disasters and causing the end of days instead of changing it. He’s on his way, no longer coming. God’s existence is present throughout our entire world and also the preaching of the gospel has spread. There’s now no place in the world the gospel has not been preached and exposed, whether believed, excepted or not, social media has completed the disciples mission.

Genesis 3:8-10, God never would leave us, we turn away from God. The enemy from the beginning of time always finds away to lure us away from God. But no matter what God comes calling and searching until we answer. Hebrews 13:5 “ Keep your lives free from the love of money, but the devil makes us suffer without having it by temptation and deceit. And be content with what you have, because God had said, “never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” But yet today, our faith is wavered in these times of what seems hopeless, fearful, uncertain, desperate and in need.

“How ignorant are we? Death is no respecter of person. Whether, black, white, straight, gay, religious, atheists, rich or poor… not matter what we all die. If a religious beliefs was predicted on survive this thing called death, and because it’s proven to be so powerful you become immortal then we’d all know for sure which religion is the correct faith to follow, wouldn’t we? But there’s no such thing, regardless of what our faith or not believing we all still die. Death is inevitable, it’s destined for the flesh(body) the clothing of the soul(emotions) so that the spirit can return to it’s life force, God. What a great mystery, this thing called death is for us all. Not to be feared, we get a glimpse of it every night when we sleep. Like the opening of a door, our spirit comes out the body and travels to another place and time, we call it dreaming. The door open and when about close the spirit calmly returns to our body and then we are woken up. We are limited to where the spirit can soar once the spirit is destined to return to the body for a time. When we die it’s different the spirit soar for what like seems eternity. You can feel yourself ascending, being drawn up by a gentle magnetic force taking you through darkness and then into a marvellous light. With a great jolt you’re landed into a new reality called heaven. It’s called heaven because for once in your life you found an everlasting inner peace and joy within your soul that cannot be explained. No more fears, pain, concerns…an ecstasy, euphoric feeling of continual tranquility that would never existed within and around you in the earth realm.

What is the meaning of life? A question always asked by those who are seeking purpose. We all have our own definitions especially conscientious folks. The true question we should be concerned about is what is the meaning of both life and death because life is something we all experiencing and death sooner or later we’ll experience. Like good and bad, but yet both serve purpose for life. Scripture declares world without end, so does it mean death has no effect to the world? The answer is, ‘yes,’ death do effect the world, but unlike us. We see the transformation and transition in the four seasons especially at autumn the harvest time to reap what has been sown and prepare the earth for winter’s coldness which kills everything that once was. We watch the beautiful flowers, plants, grass, tree and leaves wither away(dies). But we don’t get sad about it because it all returns again in the spring. This to me is like the storms, earthquake, hurricanes, floods…is a form of the world dying. But no matter what it God made it so that it replenishes itself a new.

To me, when I think of death, it is to be understood as a transformation and transition same as the world in the changing of seasons. The difference is we go to other regions in the world not remaining like the trees, grass, flower…or whatever we’ve sown in the earth. Our appearances and memory are renewed. We’ve been given many chances by the Lord at his judgement (throne of mercy) on the life we lived when we die and go before him. We’re given the chances to change whatever needed to graduate to heaven. For this reason some of us has long lives and other short. I believe after we’ve learned the lesson of life and it’s true meaning only then we graduate to heaven, becoming master teachers enter into the heavenly realm and become helpers to those on earth through God. I had a dream and saw my life time, which is many, I’ve been to the east west, north and south of the world. For whatI have seen about myself, I believe I am finished with this life being here on earth. I’m not returning again here on earth I believe when I die this time. My life circle after many renewals have been completed and my spirit will returned to the Heavenly Father.

Ask me how I know this? I have lived many lives before and got a glimpse at it all, I ‘be almost died three times and have returned. One foot in this dimension and the other in the spiritual realm. Acknowledge and now understand why I was told I am a medium. Like the movie Six sense, I can speak not only to the dead, but angels. When you have crossed over to the realm you are able to see life from looking down on it. Like being in an airplane, you soar over life and could see, discern, prophesy what others can’t, through the supernatural. Like demonic attacks you suffer a lot spiritually to gain balance of the negative and positive energy that clashes at times in your life, fighting for domination authority and power, like thunder and lightening it’s very frightening. I had to learn it’s not in the fighting against one or the another where safety and security is found it is the acknowledgment of the both are existing simultaneously with each other. We must not be afraid especially of the negative. It’s not only negative energy that weighs us, but the positive we have difficulty maneuvering in our lives. With discipline and obedience to God you have ability to stand against all energy forces, to weigh ourselves balance on the scale of life and death.

When Moses saw the burning bush, God didn’t send him out to deliver his people by repeating his experience about the burning bush. What I am trying to say is when we encounter God our lives are changed and we are placed on a mission for God’s purpose and no matter how we try we can’t run from it. Sometimes it feels like it was better I didn’t know, because knowing gives you a determine push from the Holy Spirit and it doesn’t matter how long it takes God prepares you until you’re ready, patiently moulding and shaping you for His purpose for you.

For a long time I’ve been hiding because God had a few finishing touches on my life in preparation to complete my being. The pain, fears, doubts…all negativity (sin) that laid dominant and strong within my soul has now been abolished. With everything that has been going on in the world today God’s calling prophets and preachers to do a mighty work in our world. “Now are you going to take your place and stand to fulfill the needs of others in preparation for the drastically changing world and the returning of the Lord?”

Matthew 9:37 “The harvest truly is plenteous, but the labourers are few.” Let’s get real for a moment, we do have enough labourers in our world today, but the problem is they are being judged and condemn especially the ‘Mega labourers’ for their wealth and fame by the Pharisees and the Sadducees of today’s world. If they are in it (having a church, preaching and teaching) for the wrong reason the Lord knows, and it will only be a matter of time till they fall in the sight of the entire world(social media). “God can’t be mocked!” But the devil sure tries and uses the innocent and vulnerable to his advantage. God is in control. It is not when things get worst for humanity means God is losing control that’s is when his power and authority is in full force all around our misbehaving, disobedient, rebellious, selfish…power trippin’ selves. “The devil will always try if we let him, but rebuke him in the name of Jesus!”