It doesn’t matter, she was a woman. It didn’t mean a thing whether she was Mary, Martha’s sister from Bethany or Mary Magdalene. She could have even been the woman with the issue of blood who touched the hem of Jesus cloak (Matthew9:20), the woman that Jesus said, “thou art loosed from your infirmity” (Luke 13:12) or even the prostitute that they wanted to stone after being caught in the act of adultery (John 8:1-11). She could have been the Samaria woman at the well that Jesus asked for water who said he was a Jew that she shouldn’t even be talking for Jews had no dealings with the Samaritans (John 4:7-9) or the Canaanite woman who’s daughter had a demon and was in terrible condition that came to Jesus for help whom his disciples wanted Jesus to send her away yet Jesus said he came for the lost sheep of Israel and she fell and worshipped him. Jesus asked the woman, “is it right to take the children’s bread and give it to the dogs?” And she replied even the dogs eat the crumbs which falls from the masters table (Matthew 15:22-27) I would believe that back in those days, all these woman would of been considered a sinners, because these kind of things would only happened to you, if you’ve sinned.

It could’ve been any of the many women in the Bible whom Jesus has touched by delivering them from some real bad situations or just a strange woman who heard about Jesus and all that he was doing and loved and appreciated him for it, or someone who simply needed healing. And just like the woman with the infirmity (Luke 13:12), Jesus saw her and called her to him, she didn’t physically reach out to him, but her heart and mind did. The woman saw or heard about Jesus and she boldly came to him. This woman was accused of adultery, simply because of the change that took place in her after Jesus’ touch. Her boldness, from being ashamed and fearful for her life, to walking into a place where she was not invited and be judged for her action in a time when a woman touching a man who was not your husband was not accepted, to stand accused of adultery, to have her life spared from being stoned; she was not making a sacrifice, she was honouring Jesus with love and adoration for all that he was doing. The Alabaster box, to anoint him, her tears to wash his feet and her hair to wipe his feet.

This woman is the representation of how all of humanity should be like toward God. When Jesus mention in Matthew 26:13″Verily I say unto you, wherever this gospel shall be preached in the whole world, there shall also this, that this woman hath done, be told for a memorial of her.” The action of this woman was important to remember for Jesus’ sake, because only God alone knows what Jesus was feeling and going through emotionally at the time this woman showed up. She was the light that in his darkness, his strength in his weakness to carry him to the cross with her love. “His hour was coming,” he said, “she was preparing him for his burial.” Jesus had touched so many lives with his healing, teachings, feeding and even bringing the dead back to life. This woman is now the one to touch Jesus in his time of need, she was comforting Jesus. We sometimes don’t realize the importance to give back to someone, whether they need it or not, but just the show of appreciation in our actions deeds and words can make a lot to difference in a givers life. We can’t always expect to receive and never give back.

What we fail to realize is that, in the Bible, it sometimes tries to portrait Jesus as being invincible and all powerful. But as powerful and invincible as Jesus is, he does have emotions and, where man is concerned, he is very vulnerable. Being around humans is contaminating, and if animals could talk, they would tell us. There’s something about the flesh that weakens us. Here are some examples of Jesus showing emotion: Matthew 9:36 When Jesus saw the multitudes, he was moved with compassion on them, because they fainted, and were scattered abroad, as sheep having no shepherd. Matthew 14:13-20 Jesus was sadden by the death of John the Baptist and wanted some alone time, but the people followed him and when he saw them, he was moved by compassion towards them and healed their sick. It was late and his disciples wanted him to send the people away for them to go get something to eat and Jesus fed the multitude by blessing five loaves and two fishes and giving it to them to eat. Matthew 21:12 Jesus went into the temple and drove out all those who were buying and selling there. He overturned the tables of the moneychangers and the stools of those who sold pigeons. Matthew 26:36-42 Jesus in a place called Gethsemane, where he took three of his disciples with him to watch with him because his soul was exceedingly sorrowful and he went a distance to pray and cry out to his father  and every time he returned his disciples was asleep. He’d ask them why can’t you keep watch with me one hour; watch and pray that they enter no into temptation, the spirit is will but the flesh is weak.

To me, this woman was symbolic for nurturer. Ironically, Eve was blamed for the sin of man by giving Adam the apple to eat, but it was not her fault, it showed her innocence and nurturing nature and the wickedness of the tempter that caused them to sin. Because what this woman has done by coming to Jesus in the midst of ridicule in her boldness was to allow the devil to know that not this time would you let me fall short of the glory of God. To me, this was a restoration and a recovery to women in the kingdom of God, and no longer would women be seen or portrayed as a villain. Eve had prepared Adam (man) for death and now this woman was preparing Jesus (the son of man) for resurrected death.

All of Jesus’ disciples were men that he, Jesus, opened up to about who he really is and what he represents. Like Adam, they had forsaken him (GOD); tried to make excuses and contemplated in their minds what was taking place with the woman in his presence. And Judas, he was like the devil himself envious of the love attention Jesus was given, as the devil was envious of the love and attention God had given to Adam and Eve. Judas was insinuating that Jesus was not worthy of the Alabaster box the poor is more worthy and worthy of cause (Matthew 7-11). Was this the first time that Jesus had ever put himself before man, or was it about a condition of man? When he said, “for you have the poor always with you; but me you have not always.” People can confuse this interpretation, so we have to be careful of our understanding of it. Jesus is saying I am here to love, heal, teach, feed and touch you. When I am gone it wouldn’t be the same, you are going to have to get these things, by faith, not by sight. But I am here now so when you touch me, I can touch you back physically and spiritually, call out to me so you can see I respond to you, love on me while I am still here to receive it with all of your heart and mind so I can take this love and send it back to you.

For everyone that Jesus had touched or touched him, a part of him (virtue) was placed into them. The people back in those days, like this woman, didn’t need to be baptised. Jesus’ touch was their baptism, the renewing of their spirit. Maybe they did get baptised after, who knows, just to walk like Jesus did. It is believed that Mary and Jesus were the new Adam and Eve, but I believe that this woman considered a sinner unlike Mary the virgin, (innocent, undefiled, spotless) is the new Eve of restoration.

I also believe that this woman with the Alabaster box, embodies the term as it was in the beginning so shall it be in the end. Just as the angel had gone to the shepherd in the field to announce to them the birth of Jesus in the city of David, maybe she was sent also to Jesus, no different than Jesus’ triumphant entry into Jerusalem on a donkey and all the people cried out, “Hosana in the highest, blessed is he that cometh in the name of the Lord.” How else would these people be prepared for the entry of Jesus less it come from God himself? I know these things for some reason because this woman is me. God has revealed his truth unto me and there are some people today that I would bring my Alabaster box and wash their feet with my tears and dry them with my hair. Some haven’t even realized how much they have touched my life as they don’t even know me. Some of these people are Td Jakes and family, Oprah Winfrey, Joyce Meyer, Iyanla Vanzant, Dr. Phil, and Joel Osteen, Dr. Oz just to name a few.

 

 

Love. We take it for granted. Yet should be like a treasure we can all share with one another  and because treasures are so hard to find, we should cherish it forever. Love should not simply be defined as an emotion; emotions can be temporary. 1John 3:18 Let us not love in words or talk, but in deed and in truth. Love making between two should not be confused with loving someone. Making love is not just the unveiling of one’s nakedness to each other and engaging in a sexual act, but rather, it is allowing each other to go into a sacred connection of mind and body for a religious and spiritual purpose. It should be an extension of one’s love for each other in the highest form. That is why sex (intercourse) is not to be done casually, recreationally (booty call) or maliciously among individuals. Love is sacred and a discipline of the mind, body and spirit. I say this because I believe that God created love within us for that purpose and the conflict that we have with love is in our emotions (flesh). The spirit can endure the power of true love, which never dies. We can never embrace love as being energy, a powerful source of our being. Like with God, we cannot touch or see love, there is no tangible evidence other than what is in our mind and that rules our heart. “God is love.” 1John 4:16 We have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwell in love dwell in God and God in him.

The concept of Valentine’s Day puts undue pressure on people to be in that four letter word: Love. Most of the young people of today confuse sex for love or being in an relationship. Being single on Valentine’s Day makes you feel so lonely even when you truly aren’t and have friends and family. It takes you back to puberty when you first discovered you are attracted to someone and you’d try your best to get their attention because you see so many of your friends and people your age in relationships and you’re not. You feel like you’re missing out on something or, like you’ve been cheated. The truth is love is like a garden and it need tending in order to grow and anyone who has ever tended a garden knows it takes a lot of sacrifice and perseverance. Some of us see love like what we see in the movies, with the happy endings, but the movies don’t always convey all truth.

The meaning of Valentine’s day according to dictionaries is a day of romance, exchanging of cards, candies, gifts and flowers to a sweetheart. Valentine’s day is celebrated all around the world as a celebration of love and relationship created by companies who saw an opportunity to make money. It is much like Christmas which should be the celebration of Christ birth, but instead it is about businesses making profit. Consequently, some people are spending what they don’t have on gifts to impress or be liked and with an expectation to give and receive. To society, both of these things should exemplify the true meaning of love. But we are wrong about that. We are also wrong when we accept or expect material things for love. 1Corinthians Let all that you do be done in love, so even if you are given something materialistic it should be given with love. Showing love doesn’t have anything to do with material things, material thing are an easy way to try to account for not being physically and emotionally present but it is not the same. Romans 13:8 Owe no man anything, but to love one another.

The biblical meaning of love, 1Corinthians 13:4-7 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on it’s own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong doing, but rejoices with truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things and endures all things.

So let your Valentine’s Day be, not so much about being in a relationship or wanting to be in love, but reflecting on the love you already have and to give it to other like yourself who don’t want to be alone or feels lonely; it doesn’t have to be to your sweetheart. Luke 6:38 Give and it shall be given unto you. God is going to send you someone, the right help mate. Genesis 2:18 And the Lord God said, “it is not good that the man should be alone.” Remember you’ve got family and friend and for some, even fur babies, who love you as well as the greatest love of all, the love of God, his love is unconditional. “Why search for love when love is within and surrounds you?”

 

 

Genesis 2:18- 19 And the Lord God said; It is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an help meet for him. And out of ground the Lord God formed every beast of the field, and every fowl of the air; and brought them unto Adam, KJV.

I believe that man’s first help meet or companion, created by God for us, was the animals. Adam was the one that noticed the animals were paired off, but there was no one for him. Translation and interpretation of the text, is what we have to take into consideration to truly comprehend, what I am about to say. Is it possible that God’s intention was to be the companion that man needed, seeing that he was and is able to provide us with all of our needs even today. He provided man with every necessity that he needed in the garden of Eden including himself. He did created us in his image and likeness; God had the angels and he give us the animals.

I recall that it was a beautiful summer’s day when I heard the door bell ringing. “Who is it?” I asked and all I can understand is that someone was in the midst of crying frantically. I didn’t hesitate, I opened the door quickly and there stood my neighbour from across the street, weeping ever so devastatingly; she could hardly speak. ” What is wrong?” I asked and  she replied, “My cat, my eleven year old cat is sick. Could your husband take me to the vet; I have no money for a taxi?” In my ignorance, I paused and thought to myself for a second, “for real, is she really carrying on like this for an animal, I thought someone died.” Hon,” I called out to my husband, “can you take Alice to the vet, something is wrong with her cat?” Scriptures tell us judge not, that ye be not judge. For with what judgment ye judge, ye shall be judged: and with what measure ye mete, it shall be measured to you again, Matthew 7:1-2. That is how I felt about the situation now looking back.

It is not that I didn’t like animals, I lost my first pet at an early age of four and had done my first funeral service for our (my brothers sisters and cousin) one month old puppies, that died from several picks on the head from a hen protecting her chicks. I can remember thinking that the world was coming to an end, but the adults made it seem like it was nothing, just throw them away in the bush we were told, but instead we all held hands in a circle having never experienced death before, but knew God, and so we asked him to watch and protect our pets in heaven for us. That feeling of loss, although it not being addressed as though it was important, the life of an animal gone, made me never wanting another or even getting close to,” it is just an animal, stop the crying!”

I never thought getting married and having children would change my mind. We had dog, cat, fish, ferret and birds. It all made me understand the reason for Noah’s ark and why God didn’t only save the humans, but the animals also in the renewing of the earth. They play an important role in the lives of us human beings, they are our angels and the reflection of how I believe we are to be towards God. I say this because their love is unconditional, you can discipline them and they never hold a grudge or plot  revenge against you, they are not prejudice, they move on instinct not on feelings, they know more about the world and God than we do, they are very intuitive and sensitive to our needs.

It is now nine days since the loss of the second to last of our animals; our one and only Princess Nala our cat. I believe that my actions towards her death was far more worst than I could ever imagine over, (just an animal, as I had spoken of Alice, lol). Nala and all of our animals were like my family; my children. I never thought in a million years I could ever flel such love and be so loved. It is like a part of my heart has been torn out with their passing, as much as it would be the passing of my children, that is how much they meant to me.

The death of Nala, a year after one of the birds (one is still here), hit me the hardest, because now that all my children are grown and on their own doing their own things, I still had a child to take care of, my baby, Nala and Lucky the budgie(bird). Being brought up in a large family with thirteen siblings, I have this problem with being alone, and these animal brought me great comfort. I loved the fact that I could nurture them and they still had an independence about them and the unconditional love that they give, was like a reflection of God’s presence in them specifically for me and my family. Having them, I felt like we were protected from the seen and unseen evil, we were loved unconditionally and when we thought that we were the ones protecting them, actually they were protecting us and watching out for us. Through all my life, I’ve never felt love like what these animal gave not even from humans. I believe that they know God’s secrets and if we could communicate with them they could tell us some things, believe me.

After a while of being around us human I believe that the animal can speak our language and act just like us. Somehow our ways and likeness rubs off on them. Sometimes I use to have to remind my cat that she was a cat and not a human, whenever I took to long to come home after telling her I will be back soon, when I’d reach home open the door there she is sitting at the door speaking in her language like she was telling me off for taking so long to return and it was funny because I could understand her, she would even call my name. My home is three stories high and sometimes I’d  get up from bed and leave her sleeping and go downstairs to meditate and pray and when she’d hear silence in the house and she’d realize I’m not in the shower or the kitchen all you’d hear her saying when she is looking for a human is, “hello, hello,” and I’d have to be yelling, “I am down stairs pussy cat”, and all I would hear is the thumping of her paws coming down the stairs to me. My husband would come home from a hard days work, he wouldn’t let me massage his back because he says it tickles. He would lie down on the bed on his tummy and  she would jump on the bed besides him lick his face give him all the love in the world and crawl up on his back and start to massage his back with her paw, know it is said that cats do that so they could get comfortable to lay down on a position. Nala was declawed, her front paws and she would massage his back for minutes all over and he would say, “hon, it is as if she know exactly where I am hurting to massage, ” and she would be purring as she is working on him. It was just amazing to see. She always took the time to love on anyone who was in need of love, somehow she’d know; if you were happy or sad, sick, having a bad day, you were hurting, worrying about something, you could tell her all your concerns, secrets and just look into her eyes and it made you feel like she’s got your back. I’d call her mama, mimie, pussy cateau, my baby and when she got me angry,” Nala Girl-gee lamb.” My daughter got the cat into selfies and she was a professional at it, she knew when it was time to smile for the camera.

Sometimes I think that our animal stand in the gapes for us. They sacrifice themselves for us. Whatever’s suppose to hit us it hits them instead because they are more aware than us intuitively. Whenever I hear that saying of Jesus, “what greater love a man has that he would lay his life down for a friend.” (John15:13) All of our animals died of human diseases and illnesses, and the only thing that came to my mind especially Nala, with the cancer and rare for a cat to have is, it should of been me. She was so much closer to me than anybody else, because it was me who she saw and slept with twenty-four seven, practically.

There was this one story in the bible about Balaam’s prophet who would have been killed if it was not for his donkey who spoke to him and saved his life in the book of Numbers 22:23-33 Balaam was to go and curse the Israelites for the king of the Moabites and God warned him against it and he went anyway and there stood before him an angel of the Lord that stood before him with his sword drawn in his hand and the donkey saw the angel and moved out of the way of the angel and every time the angel came the donkey would move away even making Balaam crush his foot against a wall and Balaam smote the donkey. The angel of the Lord came after Balaam and the donkey and the donkey fell down under Balaam and his anger was kindled and for the third time he smote the donkey really bad and the Lord opened the mouth of the donkey and he spoke and asked what did he do that he would smite him and Balaam said, “that he the donkey was mocking him and if he had a sword he would of killed him.” The donkey explained to Balaam that never in the years that he has been with him has he ever disobeyed and Balaam agreed, “yes.” Then the Lord opened the eyes of Balaam and he saw the angel of the Lord standing in the way and his sword drawn in his hand . He bowed down his head and fell flat on his face and the angel said unto Balaam, “wherefore has thou smitten the donkey these three times? Behold, I went out to withstand thee because thy way is perverse before me and the donkey saw me and turned from me these three times unless she had turned from me surely now also I had slain thee and save he alive.

Whenever I think of my (ours, my family) animals, I think of the story of Balaam and his talking donkey. If God would only open up the mouths of our animals, pet, angel and our family, could you just imagine what they would say to us? Some of us wouldn’t even need to see shrink, or be on medications, lol. Pets are truly angels in the form of animals sent to us by God.

Matthew5:3-12 Jesus was on the mountain teaching his disciples. Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted. Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall be filled. Blessed are the merciful for the shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God. Blessed are the peacemakers for they shall be called the children of God. Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and say all manner of evil against you falsely for my sake. Rejoice, and be exceeding glad for great is your reward in heaven, for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you. God knows that I have lived by everyone of these teachings. I didn’t have to try, it came naturally for me. I believe I was born, and created to be walking like Jesus taught, on the mountain.

God has proven to me, time and time again, that He is the true and living God. Matthew26:38, 39 and 42 Jesus says his soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death. O my father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt. O my father, if this cup may not pas away from me, except I drink it, thy will be done. Jesus you who understand what is like to walk among man. You have witnessed and endured the pain and suffering man is cable of inflicting on one another. The  pain and suffering you endured on the way to Calvary, has it changed your mind on what you’ve once taught about dealing with humanity? Because like you Jesus when you know that the enemies were after you, you broke, and you cried out to your father for help,  I am crying out to you for help now Lord. Fear, pain and anguish have also taken hold of me for following your way. Take this crown of thorns from my head and the many daggers out of my heart. I am not in this battle for myself or to be glorified, but to do your will and serve you. Some also appreciated it, and others also ridiculed and hated me for caring and doing good, that which came naturally for me to do, because of you. When it is said, that the battle is not mines, but yours Lord, only now have I understood. It was you all the time with me, that had enabled me to do the things that I’ve done, like showing compassion, humility, understand, love, forgiveness, healing, teaching, to stand strong and firm in faith and so much more that I could feel without your presence within my life or should I say with the enemy trying to prevent your presence in my life, I am stuck and I become as wild beast(man eater and I mean it literally) raging out of control, I find myself having no patient or understanding for humanity, including my own weaknesses, fighting within and without, over it.

David has written in Psalms 30:5 Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. ” Why is my morning not coming Lord, why am I feeling forever abandon to the night?” I am praying that you Lord will deliver me, deliver me from the torment of my mind and the constant piercing in my heart over the wickedness and evil of humanity. When the chains of this bondage I feel is finally broken, I know that you are on your way. I am trying my very best to hold on at a very perilous times, for faith in this millennium. “I am my brothers and sisters keeper and a child of God.”

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I’ve been feeling very troubled lately about the going on in the world. I thought I was the only one feeling this way, but I now know that I am not. I am tired of doing the right thing while everybody else doesn’t care. I’ve wanted to make sure I dot the I and cross the T, with no room for error. I have been trying so hard to be perfect in an unperfected world itself, “God help me.” I feel like a change wanting to take place and I am having problems allowing it within and surrounding me. For example, learning to say no, and not feeling bad about it, to stop trying to do God’s job has been a struggle because for some reason I want to save the world. I feel tried though as if this is a fight for my soul. It is said, “be not weary in well doing,” but I am more than weary, I am burnt out, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I get angry at other people telling me how much they are tired of well doing and ask them how have they contributed to helping someone today just for kindness and for the greater glory of God, they can’t answer because in their heart it was about them and what they got out of it. Today in this world 2 Timothy3 The last days there will be difficult times. People will be selfish, greedy, boastful, and conceited; they will be insulting, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, and irreligious; they will be unkind, merciless, slanderers, violent, and fierce; they will hate the good; they will be treacherous, reckless, and swollen with pride; they will love pleasure rather than God; they will hold to the outward form of our religion, but reject its real power. keep away from such people. (But what are you to do when some of those people are of your own household?) Don’t let them contaminate your spirit, pray. Some of them go into people’s houses and gain control over weak women who are burdened by the guilt of their sins and driven by all kinds of desires, women who are always trying to learn, but who can never come to know the truth. These people are opposed to the truth, people whose mind do not function and who are failures in the faith, but will not get very far, because everyone will see their stupidity.

Everything about these people is not what you’d want to be to get in God’s good grace, but they create balance, because whenever you’re for peace someone wants a war, whenever you try do good, evil presence its self. Learning to let go and let God do his work sometimes is the only way to handle it, and the balance is in wisdom of acknowledging of that, when certain things are out of your control. Luke21:8-17 Jesus said there would be false Messiahs coming don’t follow them, wars and revolution, it would not mean that the end is near, countries will fight each other, kingdoms will attack one another, there will be terrible earthquakes, famines, and plagues everywhere, there will be strange and terrifying things coming from the sky, Christians will be arrested and persecuted, handed over to be tried and put in prison, you will be brought before kings and rulers for his name sake and you will tell the Good News. Don’t worry about how to defend yourself, because you will be given words and wisdom that no enemy will be able to refute or contradict. You will be handed over by your parents, your brothers, your relatives, and your friends, and some of you will be put to death. Everyone will hate you because of me, but not a single hair from your head will be lost. Stand firm, and you will save your self. 2Timothy2:3 Take your part in the suffering, as a loyal soldier of Christ Jesus.

There is nothing hidden anymore; the truth has been revealed, God’s truth not ours and as we stand in judgment before Him, it is better that we didn’t know than we do know. Because God is a reader of heart and mind you can’t lie to him. God went out all the way to provide us with the truth. He has sent signs and miracles, messengers, prophets, and priest. John 8:32 You shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free. John 1:17 truth came by Jesus. The revealing of God’s truth exploded even into the millennium now we stand as Christians, after almost two thousand years for those who has eyes to see could see and ears to hear is hearing.

God is asking us to stay strong throughout all what is going to take place before Jesus returns. Matthew 7:21-23 Not everyone who calls me “Lord, Lord” will enter the Kingdom of heaven, but only those who do what my Father in heaven wants them to do. When the Judgment Day comes, many will say to me, “Lord, Lord!” In your name we spoke God’s message, by your name we drove out many demons and performed many miracles!” Then God would say to them, “I never knew you. Get away from me, you wicked people!” I would not want to be one that God says, ” get away from me for, I know you not.” If there is something in you that is making you afraid of God’s rejection then you’re not doing what God want you to. Remember God never gives us more than we can handle Matthew11:30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

I feel like I am fight to stay on the right path. It is a battle field to stand in God’s truth when everyone around you isn’t, it is not their priority and there’s always something coming up against you. 2Timothy 3:12-13 Everyone who wants to live a godly life in union with Christ Jesus will be persecuted; and evil persons and imposters will keep on going from bad to worse, deceiving others and being deceived themselves. If you’re not a person of strong faith in our Lord and saviour Jesus Christ unlike Job are you going to curse God to die. There is so much more distractions, and temptations that the devil uses to get you off course in your faith, like for me it’s been my health, children, family, and friends, and if you don’t have the strength to put up a good fight in faith then evil wins. It is worst now than then, in the days after Jesus’s death. But for some reason I feel like we are given an even better weapon than back in those days and it is faith. We have never seen, but just have to believe. The Holy Ghost, our comforter is truly with some of us. We are in a different kind of warfare, unlike anything before.

Genesis 2:17 But of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, thou shalt not eat of it, for in the day that you eat thereof you shall surely die. “Death of what?” our innocence, of only knowing that which is pure, righteous and good?  The understanding that with God our provider and protector, we would lack for anything. In the Bible man didn’t lack anything until they ate of  the forbidden fruit tree. The devil does exist, he is the hater and divider between man and God.

“Sin, what is it sickness, labour for what you want in life, contraction pain during labour, poverty, anything that can cause pain, fears and suffering, death, could it be considered an out of control action, or is it also evil?” Paul wrote in Ephesians 6:11, 12 Put on the whole armour of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil, for we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Jesus was the one who stopped Paul on the way to Damascus from going to prosecute his followers and changed him that he too became a follower. Paul I believe got his wisdom, knowledge and understanding from Jesus, to have been able to change, not just his life around but from being a prosecutor of the follower to becoming a follower himself. It took the power of the almighty to witness and touch his soul in a way that he, Paul can now acknowledge that he was fighting or prosecuting Jesus’s followers because of the principalities, powers, rulers of the darkness of this world, and spiritual wickedness in high places. “Who could have revealed that to him, but Jesus?”

So what is it that Paul teaches us when it comes to evil? Evil is not about fighting against a physical body, but a force beyond our control that comes from a place of cruelty and hatred toward our existence in this world. Spiritual wickedness is the mockery of all things God consecrated as spiritual and truth. The devil mimics it to deceive and confuse man, that anything God can do, he the devil can also do. There are people who choose evil over good and consider it a religion, a sort of a belief to practice, to call on the dark and evil forces to give them control in the world along side what is know as the prince of darkness himself the devil. I now understand by what authority he, the devil was given his ruling in this world, other than he stole it when he manipulated Eve to eat the apple.

Jesus took it back when he was crucified and resurrected, I believe, because Paul told us in Ephesians 6:13-18 Just how to defeat the devil. Where for take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, (your loins is the hips and lower abdomen regarded as a part of the body to be clothed or as the region of strength and procreative power. To girt your loins means to get ready to do something difficult or strenuous.) So when we are told to girt our lions with truth, the truth is that God is real and we are worship no other. Having on the breastplate of righteousness ( all that Jesus has revealed unto us as the will of God.) And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace.(feet shod means wearing lor putting on shoes, and if it is on your feet you automatically know we have to not only wear shoes but walk in it also.) Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.(the word faith here is used not for things that we are wanting and hoping for, but refers to our belief in God, as a protection all around us from the fiery darts of the wicked. Jesus is the son of God that overcame the devil and through faith, he is our protector. The fiery darts is a metaphor for the hell fire pointed directly at you, which we cannot see with carnal eyes, but rather with spiritual eyes. I describe it as a strong emotion like hate, and resentment that can pierce right through you. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the spirit, which is the word of God. (helmet of salvation is to keep in mind all that Jesus has come on the earth to do for us.) Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the spirit, watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints.( prayer and supplication in the spirit means to ask humbly for your request in prayer, focusing only on the things of God not that which is in the world.) Watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints, means this is not about you, it’s about all others like you who are fighting the same fight, you all have to be on guard, support one another, despite the difficulties you may have to face be determine, with humility continue in prayer.

When people claim that there’s no such thing as a ghost. What they fail to realize is that Jesus was the first ghost mankind has ever seen. He was crucified, died then resurrected and was walking around the earth for forty days and was seen by his followers. Matthew 27:50-53 Jesus again gave a loud cry and breathed his last. Then the curtain hanging in the Temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook, the rocks split apart, the graves broke open, and many of God’s people who had died were raised to life. They left the graves, and after Jesus rose from death, they went into the Holy City, where many people saw them.  Here come devil mimicking God, with his own imposter ghosts frightening innocent people and controlling their mind with all kind of fear. Evil which is what I considered to be deception illusion of truth displayed by the devil, to destroy mankind relationship with God.

Why didn’t God just kill the devil I always thought to myself, or was the book of Job God’s way of telling us, that devil existence became part of His plan for humanity when Satan put a challenge to God that he could influence his faithful servant Job to curse him to die, if he does whatever he wants to him except touch his soul, Job1:6-12. Why did God allow Satan such a privilege?  Did God realize this in the Garden of Eden or was it when Cane had slain his brother Abel, because he didn’t kill Cane either? Yet he destroyed all of humanity except eight; Noah and his family. But then the question would be also, why when Adam and Eve ate of the forbidden fruit, who was before warned not to by God and did eat, why didn’t God kill them and the devil right there and  then and just started over? But then that got m thinking, what if there was no such thing as evil good or bad, because as the scripture says Romans 8:28 all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.

I was once told that you don’t have to believe in evil for it to affect you anyway. It was also mentioned to me that the only reason I would say evil exists is because I believe in a God. Belief in God automatically places me in the religious category. If I believe in God, it is often assumed that I must also believe in the devil. “No God, no devil.” This is not true at all, because I believed in God but I didn’t believe in evil. I couldn’t conceive in my mind that God would ever let anything evil happen to people. It was never God’s fault; from the beginning of time, it was all about obedience. If Adam and Eve had listened to God, we wouldn’t be in the kind of world we live in today. So if you’re obedient to God and try to live like Jesus, by following his examples and teachings, nothing bad would or could ever happen to you. Jesus died for us and resurrected, so he protects us at all times and he promised never to leave us comfortless[John14:18]

My dad would always say, “in this world there is negative and positive, that is what brings balance, neither can exist without the other.” He would always try to educate me about the paranormal. Especially when we’d watch a horror movie, he’d always say things like, “this sort of thing does happen for real.” The worst for me, was the movie the exorcist with Linda Blair in the seventies. The visual effects and dramatics was so vivid it strongly affected my imagination to the point that I went to bed for a while after seeing the movie terrified that demons can come after me and possess me too. I believe that my faith in God grew stronger than any other child in the world I would say, because I learnt every prayer of protection in the Bible and read the Bible every day faithfully. My dad was so superstitious, he would say things like,” walk in backward when you come home after midnight, because evil spirits will follow you in your house, don’t let a black cat cross your path at a certain time of the night, keep a metal horse shoe over your door for protection and luck of the home” to me as a child and all kinds of other crazy stuff. The worst is that witchcraft and things like voodoo do exist. People can take your picture, clothing and hair and put a spell on you. I did not believe and refused to believe him, that these kind of things can happen. I thought it was impossible.

It wasn’t until I was a grown woman living on my own, that I’ve experienced the paranormal and believed. All of the time when bad things happened to me in my life, I never saw it as being evil, I always thought it was my lack of obedience to God’s will for me. Truly in my heart I believed this, because nothing ever happened to me that God didn’t fix in my life especially when I’d pray. Evil was revealed to me for the first time when I met this woman who for some reason singled me out of every body else just to hate me and find faults in me that I didn’t know even see or know I had. I has been following a friend’s lead for the first time in my life to go and get what they call a reading by a physic. Again, I could say this happened to me because I was disobedient as I had a vision as a child at the age of twelve an angle came and said to me, “never have your future be told to you by anyone, if there is anything you need to know pray and God will reveal it to you, in dreams and visions.”

It was at a vulnerable time in my life where everything was going wrong and I’ve been praying and I just didn’t wait on the lord for answers this time, I was a little impatient for it, and boy was I ever sorry I didn’t wait on the Lord. I had thought that I was going through problems, well it only begun when I went to that woman. Because I was very naïve I always trusted my friend and people who where older than I. My friend was older than me and I always went to her for advice and she’d never guided me wrong. But for the first time it was like her advice took me to hell and back. This woman was as evil as the witches you see on television. I would see her in my dreams coming to hurt me and then one of my friends who knew her said, ” I don’t know this woman too well, but you do, and for so long, she says things about you with a hate that if I didn’t know you, I’d believe her, stay away from her please. Her intentions towards you is really bad, don’t say I didn’t warn you.”  Anyone who really knew how fragile, God fearing,humble, loving and compassionate person I am would know how much hearing someone hating on me would destroy my spirit. I am not saying that all physic readers are evil and people should not go to see them, but for me it is forbidden and I was told. I had no excuse, that I couldn’t even find myself blaming the woman personally, I was putting the blame to myself first. Apparently she wanted me to join her in what she was doing, I went there for a reading of my future not to join at the time what was considered a cult of some sort. She was good at what she did, certain things she told me about what was going on in my life had convinced me, she was truthful in her knowledge and I was ever so afraid of her because of it. One day she called me up and said, ” I know what you’re doing and thinking” she’d threaten me that she could hurt me in a way that no one would be able to help me. Ironic enough the same older woman who got me in this situation brought a Man of God, really that was his name in the church and he came to help me get away from this woman and that day she knew he was there. She’d called me cursing at me, using all kind of profanities. This brought back to my mind the things that my father always tried to warn me about that is possible like that people can take your picture, clothing even to where you are living and put spells on you, to control, hurt you and cause evil in your life. Like in the exorcist demon can come after to you. I was so terrified, as I was after seeing the movie the exorcist. I’d trusted this woman about every personal and important things about my life. I was accused by her of being a spy coming to learn her ways to destroy her, “what,” I thought to my self, is this woman crazy, a spy for whom?” My spiritual mother woke up to find blood all over her door and a dead animal with all kind of smelly oils on it. How did she knew who and where my spiritual mother lived to this day is a mystery. This woman was to me some sort of a demon, I would hear things moving around in my apartment at night when it was just me. This apartment complex was one of the most cleanest, well maintained place you’d ever seen, all of a sudden after living there for years we got infestation of bugs. My life was being played out like what’s in a horror movies, and I lived it, “it was real!” When I saw all the things that she was capable of doing I was ever so afraid for my life and my family’s, that once again I dove deeper into my faith in God. Not only did I read the Bible, I fasted, prayed and went to church. All of this is one of the reasons I became a prayer warrior. The first time I’d met her, she had warned me that I would be talking about her for the rest of my life. She’d took one look at me and said, “you can’t survive in this world like this you are going to die, it will eat you up, you’ve got to be strong.” I could have never seen it coming, because when she had said that to me, it was with such compassion, I cried, cause I knew exactly what she was speaking about, I was a push over and can easily be broken and it was the thing that had me so down. It was like she saw how naïve and fragile I am. I always thought to myself, was she part of God’s plan for me, she came across as some who really had meant well for me.

The man of God[Jesus I believe him to be] came once again as a deliver for me out of my troubles. He said, “Whom, do you fear, God or man?” and my reply was, ” man, because their fist I can see God’s I can’t.” He even started to scare me, when he began telling me all that God had design for my life and the reason I was going through what I was is because I have a calling on my life that I have to fulfill to find true peace and happiness. They are after you for what you possess, “who are they, and what in Jesus name do I possess?” I was so angry and fed up about all this hocus-pocus foolishness, I didn’t want to hear another word. He then looked at me and said, ” go outside and pick me up some flowers and then come back.” I told him ” this is a apartment complex there is no garden here.” I lived in the place for so long and never realized that there was flower garden in front of every one of the apartment building complexes. Was God showing me in some ways that I do not pay attention to  things, the little that can be very significant to my life or my well being. Like the flowers, they must of just planted them there recently I thought, cause I never saw them before ever and if I didn’t need or wasn’t sent to get them I would not have realized it was there. So then how much more things in my life unless I am in need, just happened to encounter or is right before me but I can’t see or even realize it exist.

When I arrived back home from getting the flowers, my attitude was change, I felt at peace and not angry any more. The man of God was sitting in the living room speaking to my friend. He look at me and said, “put the flowers in a vase and bring it to me with a light candle. I always kept candles in case of blackout or storm. So I got him the candle placed it on the coffee table with the flowers and he said a prayer and told me, ” take in the light.” I thought he meant physically to take the light I had lit in the candle holder on the table, but he said, “no don’t touch it”. He wanted me to take the light within my spirit, close my eyes and visualize myself drawing light into my spirit like I would inhaling my breath,” and I did. I saw the light like tiny bits of dust coming into my body and then surrounding me he said another prayer. That was it he said to me,” the next time I see you, I am going to bring you a Bible.” I never saw him again and didn’t even get the Bible. But there was something about his presence that stuck with me always in every aspect of my spiritual growth. This man never asked for anything, not even a donation for his time, nothing, and I realized with him saying that he would bring me a Bible, I’d gotten free Bibles from different religious groups that was soliciting their religions at my door. He was someone special, that mysterious Man of God.

If you have ever been in what I call the valley of despair (depression) metaphorically speaking you’d understand what it is I was going through. I’ve often referred to myself as a sensitive. A sensitive, by my definition, is some who is a nurturing, intuitive and deeply and easily affected by emotions derived by people or the environment, externally or mentally and is the kind of person that never will let anyone knows when they are hurting, or in need, because they like to care for others and believe that attention should never be directed toward them. I am touched when I  see people going out of their way to help the less fortunate or just to help someone in need. I am moved with compassion to help others and do right by them. It also breaks my heart to see people hurting one another, being selfish or inconsiderate. My conscious mind would not allow me to do wrong without wanting to make it right some how. It will affect me to the point that I will not sleep or eat, and it will constantly be nagging at me. I feel a deep obligation within my spirit to always want to do and say the right thing, especially when I’d think, ” what would Jesus do, and if it was me, what would I like?” And this sanctified way of being can cause a lot of turmoil in life, simply because of the ingratitude of some people and their evil ways, which can weigh  heavily on a person with a good heart and a conscious mind.

As a Christian, we all know that depression, or any kind of weaknesses, is not something we should ever consider to happen to us, because it would be like saying that we have no faith in the attributes of trusting in God. Long ago and even still today in some churches we are taught that as Christians, we are to be flawless, ever so perfect that we can’t do no wrong. What people fail to realize is that the more you draw closer to God, the more adversities comes after you. But God will never allow the enemy to conquer you as long as you are faithful and a warrior. Jesus was challenged in Matthew 4:1-11, when the devil tempted him to prove that he was the son of God.” Are we also being proven, to be the sons or the daughters of God, by the trials and tribulations of life?

In my dream, I was walking on a lonely road, crying and talking to God about my anguish regarding humanity: why is there so much envy, jealousy, fighting and pain amongst families, churches, communities and race etc. As I was crying, for some reason the clouds in the sky began to gather and it become cloudy and dark. All of a sudden, ”bang!” lightening strikes, and I felt like something  hit me in the back of my head and I fell flat on my face to the ground. When I tried to get up, I noticed right next to me was the Bible lying on the ground and I heard, ” the answers are in the Bible”. The Bible is the biography of humanity and the relationship with God and the constant battle, and struggles for humanity to remain in God’s righteous purpose. As I got up, I picked up the Bible and when I held the Bible in my hand, it was like my spirit absorbed everyone in the Bible who has ever felt what I was feeling towards humanity, from Genesis to Revelation. As I  continued to walk, the sky became clear. I noticed my surrounding, I was in some sort of a valley. I could see the rivers, lakes, trees, flowers and mountains. The beauty of the place reminded me of what I believe the garden of Eden in the Bible would looked like. There was a peace and tranquility, with the bird tweeting, and the butterflies flying around.

I continued walking and talking to God about humanity and what it would take for us to change our ways, to understand his true purpose for us and when all wickedness and evil would end. I heard what sounded like the breaking of dry wood, some sort of crackling, and as I looked up to where I heard the sound coming from, It seemed like it was coming out of the sky, but it was from a tall tree, that a rod fell to the ground in front of me, it look exactly like the rod Moses had in his hand in the movie The Ten commandments. I was very much afraid when I heard a voice said,”this is the Rod of discipline (training, correction, obedience) it is yours walk with it, and the Bible is to navigate into the mind, body and soul of all humanity there is nothing new under the Sun.” Right away I felt I knew those words, ”nothing new under the sun,” had to do with mankind behaviour over centuries, even to me being and feeling the way I do. I continued to walk with the Bible in my right hand and my Rod of discipline in my left. Suddenly I came upon what looked like a hill in the middle of the path I was walking on and there were these people moving about and I couldn’t understand where they came from or why they were all gathered together there. When I got closer, I saw a lion standing on the hill and fearfulness came over me. And it was as though the lion knew my fear, it looked right at me and started running straight for me. I was so afraid I froze; I couldn’t move and the lion jumped right into me. When I say he jumped into me I mean physically into my body and disappeared and all of a sudden I heard a great big roar (the roaring of the lion is the voice of God) of the lion it was coming from my mouth. I woke up, ever so petrified, out of the dream.

God’s interpretation to me was by my works in faith, and through faith. I never been to ministry school, nor have I studied theology but I could preach a good service without having to prepare for it, and I am very good at prophesizing and healing others, I just knew how and what to do. I had another dream where God showed me how to carry the world upon my shoulder without it getting to heavy and burdensome. I never knew that there was a Greek mythology about a Titan named Atlas that was cursed to carry the world on his shoulders for battling with Zeus the king the God’s but after I came across a  fish aquarium that had a man with the earth on his shoulders almost the same way God showed me how to carry the world upon my shoulder. I was so surprised by this revelation because it reminded me of my promise from God. The dream meant that I have a calling to be or I am a Pastor. I was given the wisdom, knowledge and understanding by God to heal myself through healing other. These are dreams I was told by elders (older people in ministry I consider family and I trust) to keep to myself and when I was told that, it didn’t seem that it was something good or to be proud of. It seemed more like something to fear or be ashamed of, that’s how they made me feel about it. For someone like me a sensitive, as I defined earlier, my emotions always run deep. I was and still is in some ways afraid to speak about them, I have this great fear about allowing people to come into my secret place, fear of humanity, I experienced and seen all manner of evil we as human beings are capable of doing to one another.

Today, the reason for me to not feel afraid is that I sit and watch the television and internet with all kinds of people giving revelation to everything that I’ve known, that has been prophesized to me over twenty years now, which thank God I do have witnesses, even some video tapes by certain people as the only evidence that may exist. People will hear what I have to say now, hopefully all over the world, and probably will think or believe I am copying or repeating what someone has already, is doing, done or saying.. The truth is, I should be what the terminology is today a “hater”, someone who hates on someone else, because they had the tenacity to do what they procrastinated or just didn’t get around to doing. But instead it gives me great pleasure, in knowing that everything I’ve ever dreamt, envisioned and prophesized, it all wasn’t crazy or imaginative. Now I have a keen sense for truth, I could discern who is truly one of God’s chosen, especially because I would feel like I am one of them and one with them. It is a funny thing to me, everyone that I believe to be God’s chosen, they all do come together.

” Did you ever have a dream that came true? ” It is called a prophetic dream. Genesis 37:1-10 Joseph in the Bible is one of the first prophetic dreamer. If you have ever experience such dreams then you’d understand what I am speaking about. I have had many of those kind of dreams in my lifetime and I would like to share a few.

I had a dream that I was greeted by a young African child, no more than nine years old in front of a big wooden door. ”Hurry, hurry” he said, “he’s been waiting for you,” as he held onto my hand all excited. He knocked on the gate and it opened all by itself. A gentleman, he didn’t look black or white, his skin was tanned, dressed in a gleaming white gown with a wooden rod in his hand, with long black curly hair, some facial hair and piercing eyes. All I could remember is trying not to look into his eyes. It felt so strange, like he had the ability to draw you in with his eyes, like someone who can hypnotise you. He said, ”sit, let us eat,” we sat alongside a river where he had a fire burning, no dishes or chairs; we sat on the ground. This is all taking place outside in what looks like some kind of a forest, valley or some kind of garden place. He then handed me a brown bowl that looked like a plant, and in it was rice and fish. It was hot to the touch meaning it was just prepared. He said, ”I was waiting for you,” I just couldn’t speak, and he smiled, as though he was reading my mind and knew what I was thinking, and what I was thinking was, ” who is he?” I sat down to eat waiting for a spoon only to realize he began to eating with his fingers as though to show me there’s no spoon; no need for a spoon. I believe once again he was reading my mind. The strangest thing is, as I began eating the food I felt like I knew him and I loved him very much and I couldn’t help but stare at him. I felt like I should not have done that as, remember, there’s something about his eyes. Next thing I knew it was night time, and I felt like I was giving birth, my stomach started to hurt me like I was having contractions and I was surrounded by these tribal woman telling me to push and as I started to push with all my might the scenery changed. I went on this marvelous  journey to the four corners of the earth: east, west, north and south.

I want to state that some of these places and people I had never known existed until I researched them after my dream; thanks to internet and how easy it is to access information. I believe that my dream was some sort of rooted connection to my spirituality and where it all originated and for me to understand why and who I am, for me not to be judgemental to others, regardless of their religion, race, and culture. I had never heard of Zulu tribe, Vishnu, Chief Eagle feather, Hawk peek mountain, Chief papa of the Bantu tribe, or Buddha. I travelled to Asia, Africa, Greece, Egypt, Jerusalem, Atlantis, Bermuda triangle, Japan, and Palestinian. I was taken to the highest mountain to the lowest valley and to the deepest ocean, even into the cosmos.

These places that I’d traveled to, I felt like  I’d lived there, I was one of them, the people. I understood their languages, cultures and their faith practices, and essentially everything about them. I felt like I was someone of importance, because I had gotten to sit among royalties and head of states. One thing they all had in common where I was concerned, was that every time I traveled to a new place I was always greeted by people who said that they were waiting for me, like they knew I was on my way before even I did.

This experience took me back to the past and into the future with amazing wisdom, knowledge and understanding. I learned from the people many things such as healing, to fly [my spirit can leave my body and ascend], marshal arts, even Japanese sword fighting, all of their ritualistic dances and celebrations, to hunt, to be a warrior; a general, the discipline of mind, body and spirit, even astronomy, the angels, God, and the devil [evil forces], and how to overcome and defeat it, music, singing in the supernatural, and writing, ministering, discerning, prophesying  and death and its meaning. They thought me so much, but the most important thing that I’ve learned from them is that religion[faith practices] by everyone was and is based on people intuition of who and what God is. Even though Jesus came and taught us and showed us there are many that have yet to reach that level, including some of those who call upon His name. The knowledge of knowing the existence of God is in all things is so important l. How this is manifested is the key to understanding the wisdom in many practices of the world faiths [religion].

The answer to the question of who the gentlemen was that gave me the fish and rice is as He said, ”I am that I am, who do they say that I am?” Now that lesson has been taught, how well learnt are we, humanity?

This situation with my eyes, led me to take a another look at the story of Saul on his way to Damascus in Acts 9:1-18. “For the light of God is so great it penetrated not just Saul’s sight, but his spirit.” I’ve asked myself, was it really the light alone that affected Saul’s sight? Or is the light of truth that man can’t bear? It is said that “no man can see God and live.” The power is just too consuming to the soul, and here is a great example of that. This man Saul was a murderer of innocent Christian, and what changed him was an encounter with Jesus and the lost of his vision.

I’ve asked myself this question after analyzing the scripture on Saul on the way to Damascus: Is God making a change within my spirit? Is all this happening for God’s purpose?’ I truly believe that this was not an attack from the enemy. It all made sense to me after coming from MegaFest 2015 in Dallas, Texas. The last day I spent there was in hopes of going to the Potter’s House for Sunday service and instead service was at the AA center and Bishop was ill. I was ever so disappointed, but service was still fantastic. Something held me back from leaving right away after service and as it turns out, one of my favorites, an influential spiritual teacher whom I love and adore, was there: Dr. Cynthia James. All I could hear was my sister saying,” look, your favorite lady is here.” I approached her simply to greet and thank her for Wednesday night bible studies and babbled on about how much I adore her, and she stopped me as I was praising her and said,” I don’t want to hear all that, what do you want me to pray with you for?” I was taken aback because I didn’t go to her for that. I was shocked when those words came out her mouth. God knows I don’t even put in a prayer request in private to anyone to pray for me. In fact, I am always the one praying for others, so this was like a Divine intervention for me. I couldn’t speak, I didn’t know what to say, I felt my mouth moving, but no words were coming out of it. I remember thinking or even might have said it, “I don’t know, I am so tired of being afraid” and the tears started to run down my face. She placed her hand on my stomach and all I could remember was her saying is, ” out of your belly.” The whole place went silent and I was in a dark place, but she was with me, she was like a light pulling me out and I could of heard myself praying with a loud voice. The louder I prayed, the light started to shine where we were and I felt like I was ministering with a loud and powerful voice on a the highest mountain with the sun shining ever so brightly. And she was gone. It was only then when I came to, that I could hear myself repeating the words “loose” several times while shaking myself off. My husband and my sister were gone and there were these women surrounding me. I had no clue who they were, so I looked around to find my husband and sister and noticed Doctor Cynthia James was also being surrounded and had been separated from me by some women in the back of me. I felt like I was in a dream. When I’d realized what had just happened, I told the women that surrounded me who turned out to also be Pastors, “Thank you”. When I tried to approached Dr. James to say thank you to her, one of the ministers said to me, ”she’s done with you now,” and I said,” I know, all I want is to tell her thanks.” Dr. James was heavily still in the spirit I had notice and understood, and the minister held my hand and said, ”I’ll tell her for you.” I then found my sister and husband, and my husband had taken pictures of myself and Dr. James. I was so happy. I didn’t expect that; it is not as though we had posed for them. I should had thought about asking her to take a picture with me instead of talking lol.

It was an experience that touched my life in more ways than ever; my mind, body, and spirit. Psalm 130 “Out of the depths have I cried unto thee, O Lord…” So filled with fears, fears because of what the eyes can see; the wickedness and evil that man are capable of doing. Matthew 6:22 “The light of the body is the eye, if the eye is healthy your whole body will be full of light, but if your eyes are not good you will be in darkness.” I believe the reason it is said, ” that the eyes are the window to the soul,” is because of all the senses (to taste, touch, hear, emotions, and to see), God has given man eyes as the confirmation if it all. How would we then be able to enjoy all of creation and its beauty without being able to see it? Everybody wants to be in the light and no one wants to be blind; we want to be able to see, especially as Christians. If we could understand our spirit is the real consciousness of our being. The body is just the evidence of being human. The eyes speaks they talk about your mind, heart and your body when you are sick, that’s why even if you are blind the eyes still cry, because the tears is the washing, purging, renewing and communicating of our spirit to our God all at the same time.