Love, humility, truth, forgiveness, obedience, suffering and righteousness is some of what it costs for freedom from the bondage of sin(evil).

Jesus was so unbelievable good to endure all that he had for us. I can only imagine the fear, the physical and emotional pain he must have endured. To watch those you care and love so much fill with rage and hate against you for no reason at all. His heart must of been so heavy and broken. Knowing Jesus he probably didn’t even make it about himself, but was crying for humanity.

Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane as he cried out to the “O My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me, nevertheless, not as I will, but as Thou wilt.” Matthew 26:39 This shows the emotional disposition of Jesus as his emotions is running high as the dread of the evilness of humanity is drawing closer upon him, our sins, weaknesses, temptations, doubts, fears and death, he was now about to overcome for all of humanity. Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane though divine, his fears and concerns are just like ours. His divinity slowly fades into the back ground as he allowed his full humanity to come forth, coming very much vulnerable to what was coming for him without resistance. Jesus was captured and secretly judged by the religious leaders, spat upon, slapped, ridiculed, called a blasphemer…hated.

The attack of the physical body. Jesus was then presented to Pontus Pilate the Roman governor for judgment who decided to appease the people by having Jesus scourge (flagellation), but yet they cried to crucify him. The soldiers after flogging Jesus twisted together a crown of thorns and put it on his head, clothed him in a purple rob mocking him saying again and again, “ hail, king of the Jews” slapping him in the face. Jesus mind must of been emotionally distraught and his physical body just wounded and broken by all the whippings. The mind and the body in collaboration is the first to begin to breakdown. Pain has a tendency to over loads the mind and heart causing mental trauma.

The scourging at the pillar is not what too many people preach about, but it’s meaning is important. It was the breaking of spirit out of the body which is being shocked. If you have ever experienced pain that the mind goes into shock and stop registering to the brain the pain, like the nerves just stop operating and you feel no more pain. A coping mechanism of the brain itself. Almost forty years ago this had happened to me, that they had to operate on me without anesthesia. It took almost twenty-four hours with medication for my body to unlock the mechanism of the shock. Jesus began to die from that moment on, the reason he fell carrying the cross when they called for an random man Simon of Cyrene. Jesus had to hold on until he got to the cross because the blood was already spilled. The cross was where the fire had to take place. The consuming of the fire took place so God can send the wind to blow it throughout the entire world. It was not for him to die no other place.

I cry each time I think of what Jesus must of gone through for humanity and still some of us are so ungrateful. Why do we want him to return again? For some to make life easy, and have peace for eternity? He already had done that for us, “why we can’t believe and except it?” He’s returning to give everyone a chance to repent to enjoy the peace and love of God the kingdom brings to all. The lesson of knowledge of good and evil, Romans 8:28 “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose. Genesis 50:20 Joseph said to his brothers, “as for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today. Whatever the devil meant for evil God will use it for good. He’s always in control.

I thought I had to meet Jesus at the cross with all my trials and tribulations, but he let me know, he’s with me at my cross because “He’s risen!” He did tell me to take up my cross and follow him. As the Father was with him, so shall he be with me. “To see me is to see the Father,” says Jesus. “I can only pray that when others sees me I can also reflect you Jesus and thy glory too Lord.” Though the cross maybe heavy and a brutal burden, “Thank you Lord for being with me.” It is the power of love that takes us to cross and rises us up again.

My tears for our world. This attack determines the fundamental structure of humanity evolution, our mental and spiritual capacity on how well learnt are we in history as to not repeat our cruelty and evil towards one another. History are to be learnt not repeated. It is not there for us to follow, but for us to look back and grow with wisdom, knowledge and understanding.

My heart cries out, my soul and spirit cries out. I cry, because war was inevitable, if not Ukraine it could of been any other innocent country. Evil has been festering since two thousand sixteen, it was just a matter of time before it came into fruition. 2 Timothy 3 Perilous times of the last days has played out itself within the world. Those who have eyes to see, ears to hear and are in a relationship with the Lord constantly in there secret closets should of all known it was coming to this. My heart goes out to every and anyone especially the innocent in pain and suffering for Ukraine. I plea and cry out to God for his mercy and deliverance for them. All around the world we are mourning and groaning for what’s going on with Russia and Ukraine. I see the working of the devil in all what’s going on with Russia and Ukraine and knows he’s responsible for stirring up this evil.

I felt an enormous weight on my heart and spirit. Almost to the point of devastation and brokenness. I wanted a stop to it immediately, I’d felt like this is our doomsday for all of humanity. Judas once again slipped in at the side of Christ. Through the pandemic and everything we were going through it was like this too will pass I understood from the Lord, but more lives was going to be taken. But this is a trigger to cause the promised lands to go sour by war, another world war. What a test of faith in the Lord.

This man Putin have nothing left to lose now, he’s made enemy with the world and he’s going to finish what he started to his death. The world has to stop him. I was angry at the fact they NATO just didn’t go in shooting and blowing things up. I said to God didn’t you say according to Matthew 7:6 “Do not give what is holy to dogs; nor cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you in pieces.” Isn’t that’s like Putin once he’s broke the laws which obviously he has no respect for or the lives of the innocent. He like s spoiled child, he must get what he want or reek havoc on anyone who gets in his way. Evil, nothing but evil!

When I pleaded to the Lord why isn’t anyone doing something, anything to stop him. To me sanctioning is nothing to someone like him. What he’s doing to Ukraine is exactly what will make him afraid if he was in their position. But them not giving in is just making him throw a fit. He was very much informed on what he’s doing, knowing nothing really bad is going to happen to him by NATO and their rules and laws before his determination to get his way. He shows no fear, he’ll take the pain, whatever it cost to get his way. I am just wondering what is the world, (NATO) who’s just seem to be standing by waiting is going to do? Are they going to give him a pat on his back and say, “ ok, you won Ukraine, let’s get down to normal world business and lift the sanctions?” He’ got to know this is not going to end well for him, all those around him, especially the young soldiers for years even after he dies like Hitler. He’s opened up a Pandora’s box to the past we’d rather to have left closed forever. We’ve came too far to turn back. Just to think of all other countries who would try to imitate him. We got to let Putin know we’ve evolved and are not barbaric in the world today. It is said we have time traveller and it exists, maybe he needs to go back where he came from, son of Hitler or Hitler himself reborn😆. This is not a joke, it’s serious what’s going on and I know, but we need a laugh sometimes.

As a Christian because of this brutal attack against Ukraine by Putin never have I ever prayed for violence toward someone for their actions. The devil almost had me over this, but God showed up. Because this wasn’t met with evil against evil like I preferred, shutting Putin down before he’d gotten started and gone so far, is what I wanted. NATO showed mercy, compassion and patience for all the innocent involved, both Russians people and Ukraine who are innocent to this evil. It reminded me of the mercy, compassion, and patience the Lord have with us the world. We are a force to be reckoned with when it comes to sin. We just keep on indulging instead of rebuking the devil. “Come on, we’re living in the enlightened times where nothing is hidden, the truth is up close and personal. There’s no way to deny that we neither understand or know by now, the difference between right and wrong, “the devil is a lie.”

The answer to all this is prayers. Scripture declares in Psalm 20:6-8 “Now I know that the Lord saves his anointed; he answers him from his holy heaven with the saving power of his right hand. Some trust in chariots and in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God. They are brought to their knees and fall, but we rise up and stand firm.

The world got to understand that there are certain impossible situations like this war that only God himself can overcome. Remember David ( 1 Samuel 17) when he came to bring food to his brothers on the battlefield had to remind them to come up against the Philistines army you got to come in the name of the Lord and he killed the Philistines Goliath ( 1Samuel 17:45). Ukraine (little David) and with faith in the most high God he can slay the giant Goliath, Russia (Putin). President Volodymyr Zelenskky get your rock which is the Lord and sling at Goliath(Putin) and you shall defeat him.

Steadfast and unwavering faith in the most high God, shall this war come to an end. Vain is the help of man, but on our knees we shall overcome in the name of our Lord. Pray children pray, for prayer is the key. Thank the Lord it’s Lent season we have much to fast and pray for for our world and ourselves. Lord please help us!

So ironic this word freedom is being thrown around and many people is using its meaning today ignorantly, especially over the mandates for vaccine. You have to experience subjugation to understand the true meaning of freedom. These people are totally so misguided and influenced by misinformation. Slavery: the state or condition of being a slave; a civil relationship whereby one person has absolute power over another and controls his or her life, liberty, and fortune: Collins dictionary. Freedom: the condition or right of being able or allowed to do, say, think, etc. whatever you want to, without being controlled or limited. Freedom is also the state of not being in prison or in the condition of slavery (=condition of being legally owned by someone else).

Black history month, all that comes to my mind is the enslavement of black people and cruelty. Like all other races that has endure persecution for no other reason but the evilness of humanity to one another. A time to educate ignorance on what the meaning of true freedom is and how being mistreated, with long suffering affects on communities, mental state of mind, the steps taken to fight for freedom, the obstacles faced in doing so, how far we’ve come and still have to go, what we’ve learned and can teach each others. To have discussions and communication with respect with those who are misguided and misinformed. For every human being who’s suffered degradation in their lives should come together with understanding that we have all been targeted with hate and should come together to make the world a better place by making changes with education. It’s a time for all of us to have a conversation about human cruelty. To have others understand the brutality of inhuman treatment of one race of people towards another, that continues to exist from generations to generations. The ignorance to believe as a human being that you can and should be superior over another; shows the lack of understanding to the purpose and plan God had for us all as our creator and only superior. We are all human beings why call ourselves race, without putting human in front, “after all Cain, Abel is your brother.” Like race makes us less or more humanity, shows ignorance at its highest level. We are different, because differences like colours is beautiful. Any other living beings in the universe (aliens) would see us all as one, human beings; just to think, if only the animals could speak.

For four hundred years it is written that the Israelites was enslaved by the Egyptians until Moses was sent. The world also suffered enslavement to sin and Jesus came. There are still pharaohs of today refusing to let God’s people go with no regards to His will. Just remember what happened in the days of Moses. The devil want us to believe the lies that the countries who enslaves their own people through dictatorship governments, the unlawful and cruel death and treatment of blacks, treatment of the indigenous people, the sex trade of the innocent, bad treatment of gays and lesbians, women, and whatever darkness of humanity towards one another that’s going on behind closed doors we don’t know about, some how God has abandoned us by allowing this to continue to happen. The evil is not winning, God’s allies the angels is our defence. Evil is being exposed and eliminated; for those who have eyes to see. It is so disheartening to think of being kidnapped, rapped, brutally mistreated and subjected to cruelty beyond the human imagination. Being treated worst than an alien from out of space, and being treated like the enemy by your own, earthlings. It should make us want to ask ourselves, “are we (human beings) the devil himself, we fear?”

I have to touch on the Whoopi Goldberg being suspended for saying the Holocausts was, “not about race,” but about mans inhumanity to man and how horrible people can be to people. She was then corrected that the Holocaust was about race, because Hitler and the Nazis considered Jews to be an inferior race. I couldn’t believe the backlash on poor Whoopi, come on now! Someone educate me, please! Why was race so important to be recognized? I am at a lost. That could of been me and I don’t consider myself anti Semitic, just uninformed and miseducated. “Thank the Lord, I am not famous, myself being ignorant of the fact that the Holocaust was about racism.” Never in all the time the Holocaust was spoken about to me as a child growing up in school or at my home was I ever educated that it was about racism. I was told that the Holocaust is only a big issue because it is the first time in history white people has been documented and photographed enduring the same cruelty and prejudice black people has suffered for centuries and continues to suffer. I was never told the Holocaust wasn’t real, in fact it is the only evidence and proof of the extreme evil humanity are capable of doing to one another. I remember thinking as a child after seeing the documentary and pictures of the Holocaust, “is there pictures of black people suffering like that?” Then I saw the pictures of the Martin Luther King March with the dogs attacking innocent children and they were being sprayed down with hoses. It was so unreal to see that things like that could be allowed to take place. Seeing the videos of the Holocaust and the march for rights and freedom with the children, made it so real and undeniable the cruelty of humanity to one another. It became my determination to seek out other race documentaries and videos of brutality, extreme cruelty and sure enough, it’s exist throughout the entire world.

I call for all who has ever suffered racism to have a dialogue so we can truly understand and respect each other’s suffering without complaining about who hurt was worst and all the misinformation that’s being spread. Pain is pain and hurt is hurt there’s no greater or lesser. Coming together and educating one another can change the ignorance we face about all our history. What we can truly look forward to in the future can only begin with us.

I was up at 4am till the break of day talking to God as I struggle the with the images in my mind on what’s going on in all the earth, especially in my own country with the Freedom convoy 2022. My soul is so heavy, I needed a touch from the Lord this morning in prayer. My dreams has been invaded by the pictures on the News and all conversations on what’s going on in the world. I cried out to the Lord “help us, please help us.”

I was reminded in my spirit of Isaiah 40:31 But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. Psalm 46: 10-11 “Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. The Lord of host is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah!

I cried for the Lord to take me home, yes I felt like I rather die than to live this life, for the promised land filled with milk and honey is now souring. The hopelessness I felt was so dark that the Holy Spirit brought my attention to 2 Timothy 3:1-5 “There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God. Having a form of godliness, but deny its power. Have nothing to do with such people. These are the people that are so against my Son as I call him, the Prime Minister Trudeau. He shepherd his flock with wisdom, patience and love. I see it in my spirit that he’s a good shepherd. If he was a narcissistic, and ruled with dictatorship, he would be loved by people of this perilous times who are for war instead of seeking peace and unity, “the devil is a liar.” But in everything he’s done, I saw it was for the good of all. They the opposition try to trapping him up all the time, with black face, unmarked grave of the indigenous children, Lavalin affair, We charity, fighting with him when he wasn’t the first to buy vaccines, now to blaming him alone for the mandates, for not enough financial support for families and businesses during the lock down, CERB problems, freedom convoy, accusing him for over reaching in what he’s done and pointed out about the convoy. Yes, let’s not sugar coat it, they’re hateful, prejudice against race and government, not all the protesters, but the ones, they know who they are. People fail to realize that our Prime Minister is a minority government and everything he does has to be voted in by the oppositions. It is proven by the words of their own mouth on the News that they want the blame to fall directly on him for this convoy, but God allowed us to hear and see. He was there every day keeping us update during the pandemic from day one until they went back to parliament while covid was affecting his wife and now one of his children. There might of been those who came to the Freedom convoy with good intentions to have a conversation about the mandates with the Prime Minister and all government responsible. But let’s get something straight nothing wouldn’t of been discussed when it concerned those disrupters who had the “F Trudeau” signs. They were there to spread hate and corruption towards the Prime Minister. It was not going to be good for him to come and say a word about the mandates, especially if it wasn’t going to change. If the people didn’t get what they want and what they wanted wasn’t for debate, why the hell should he have come and say anything. All they wanted was to just get to him and now the evil ones is just not satisfied that their plans didn’t work in reeling him out calling him soft. If he was soft as they thought, and had come out to talk, they were waiting to roast him. But no weapon formed against him shall prosper, and every tongue that rise up against him shall be condemned for he, Justin Trudeau like Solomon the chosen to build God’s house and God house has to built with love, unity and peace, not war and division.

I Prayer for my Prime Minister Justin Trudeau, Lord, he may not be a perfect human being, with strength and weaknesses only you alone God understands. You and you alone has chosen him for such a time like this to be Prime Minister of Canada. I do know you have a reason and purpose for him, so I pray for him, his family and all members with him in leading our country. Stand with him, watch guard and protect him from all evil seen and unseen, remove all stumbling blocks and obstacles and have your way with him Lord, according to your will, Amen!

Grant me steadfast and unwavering faith Lord, Hallelujah and Amen!

Luke 19:41 As he approached Jerusalem and saw the city, Jesus wept over it.

As I woke up this morning and thought about what’s going on in my city I myself like Jesus wept. Trucks came from all other provinces of Canada for an anti-vaccine- mandated protest. Two years of what started with Covid-19 frustration with health restrictions and mandates to be vaccinated or risk losing work or access to other services seems to be taking its toll on many people and their mentality.

Desperately people are trying to find someone to blame and pay for this pandemic. This is the reality from my perspective of this situation. Some are truly petrified for our future with this pandemic and some is using it for evil intentions. The pandemic is exposing a lot of evil the world wasn’t ready to recognize and except. In the middle of this crisis evil has been stirring. Those who has eyes to see, I pray you see and ear to hear, please hear. Not that I want to talk about gloom and doom all negativity, but when it’s the truth it either comes across as a blessing, or curse that can bring about fears, depression and anxiety.

If there’s ever a time we need to draw nearer to God, it is now. Psalm 60:11 Give us help from trouble, for vain is the help of man. There’s a lot of people looking for a hero. Someone who would swoop in and make everything better in their lives. They are voting, looking for a miracle with each person they voted in, only to realize, perfection come from no human beings. There will always be a disappointment concerning one thing or the other. For some people when given power, corruption comes. Praying for discernment from the Lord to know who to vote for, is important. To understand the requirements of what a good Godly leader is, “this is not hard, look at Jesus!” He was ONE with the Lord. The only hero we can trust that didn’t lie or manipulate us.

There’s an evil that is spreading from those who has an agenda, they work for the evil one, trying to cease power and control. Stirring up trouble for the vulnerable, naive, and lost souls. Having money once again is trying to corrupt, but the devil is a liar. Having God is greater than anything in the world, and He shall defeat all corruptions.

I wept and rebuke the devil for what he’s trying to do to my promise land (Canada) I am blessed to live in. The words used by protesters against my Prime Minister is nothing but hatred and disrespect. It is shameful as Canadian. How then can they expect other countries to respect our country now. This is not the White House insurrection Trumpism even though I know some people wish for it, cause they are sure trying hard to act out the part. Some of the protesters have nothing to do with the true cause of the trucking industry they are corrupters, hatred for other races, anti- government…using the platform for their evil agenda.

I wept, my soul cried out to God. I see rejection of truth and rebellion against authority. Now I understand why Jesus wept concerning Jerusalem. When you see a people that can be so blessed and lifted up, chose the dark side instead of light, knowing there a great consequence for their actions that going to fall upon them suddenly and the only help they turn away (God), there’s no other. Psalm 60:11 Give us help from trouble, for vain is the help of man.

Obedience is ever so important where the Lord is concerned. And thank God for Abraham who show us all that importance, and the blessings that flows from obedience.

Abraham seems to be a very loving and obedient man by nature. When his wife Sarah told him to sleep with her slave to have a child, his heir, he did, Genesis 16:1-4. When his wife once again, told him after giving birth to their promised child Isaac, to get rid of his son Ishmael and slave his mother. Being distressed because it concerned his flesh and blood son. God spoke to him and said for him to listen to whatever his wife Sarah tells him about his son Ishmael and his mother, it’s through Isaac the promise will be fulfilled. It was hard on Abraham, but once again, he was obedient.

I had thought it to be so mean for God, to say yes, for Abraham to get rid of his son according to his wife Sarah. Then it hit me, anything that is not in God’s plan or that can hamper it must go. The fact the Ishmael was mocking Isaac at the great feast given by their father Abraham. Sarah recognize trouble, the same conflict and issues she had with his slave mother Hagar when she was pregnant with him, Hagar who had despised Sarah, Genesis 16:4-6.

After all it was Sarah’s idea to allow her husband, for the sake of love, to lay with her slave to have an heir. It was selfless of her, because it must of been the hardest thing to do as a woman who loves her husband. Unlike back then, thank God we have surrogates and in vitro fertilization, because no way, no matter how much a woman loves her husband today she will not allow her husband to sleep with another woman to have his baby, especially an heir. Koodos to you Sarah! It started with Sarah and it ended with her. The Lord permitted it, because he understood her heart and mind. But there was very much hard consequences for her actions, she suffered.

Obedience, nothing like it to be blessed and highly favoured. When people see your life and you’re happy and well off. What they fail to realize is, if you live in obedience to the Lord, he provides what you need and protects you and your love ones.

When after everything Abraham and his wife went through waiting on the promises of God even by there works( planning and trying to have a child by surrogate). Remember the scripture declares faith without works is dead James 2:14-26 Abraham and his wife Sarah surely was doing all the works they can, even at the cost of causing themselves emotional pain. Then God asked Abraham to take his son, his loved child with his wife Sarah in their old age and the promise one, to go and sacrifice him. And with obedience to the Lord, Abraham took his son to sacrifice him, Genesis 22.

Was God being evil to have asked such a thing of Abraham? No!Abraham was proof that man can be redeemed from disobedience. The disobedience that lead humanity to sin(death). Now we can all understand why Abraham was chosen to be the father of all nations. God needed the bread of life for all of humanity (Jesus) to come from such a bloodline.

Paradigm shift, a change has been coming and prophesied for years, and it’s here! There’s always going to be a shift and change in our lives. As long as the world keeps turning change is going to come.

For all of us who’s been sleeping, it’s time to arise and shine in your calling. An awaking is taking place in our world, a spiritual awakening. We’ve been dormant for a while, but it’s time to come forth! Those who are in darkness also must come out of it. There’s no place to hide that the light wouldn’t reach.

Awakening and division has begun. Those who has ears to hear, hear what the spirit of the Lord is saying. For all those who wants to play stupid, ignorant, or foolish, the jokes on you. “If you ask, you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and it shall be open to you,” Matthew 7:7. “Don’t play you’re foolish!”

Evil is on the rampage. The devil time is soon coming to an end and he’s seeking and coming after all he can to take down with him. And we all must be on guard in prayer and fasting. We must draw nearer to God every minute and every hour.

I was pretty upset to the point of tears. It’s been years now and I’ve been doing some soul searching. My dilemma, every time I try to be obedient to the will of God, evil presents itself. I am so tired of every time I do good evil presence itself, and I am left wondering if being and doing good is worth the hassle of my heart being broken and my emotions is on high, second guessing myself.

My conversation to the Lord. “God if you require of me to do your will, then harden my heart, and help me to forget hurt and pain. Take control of my mind and prevent my thoughts from spiralling out of control with its negativity. I feel so broken, lost and confused. This following Jesus has it’s difficulties with the heart and mind. The balance between the flesh and the spirit is difficult. It takes discipline and understanding to overcome. Discipline is knowing when to let go and let God. Understanding is key, knowing it is by no strength or power of our own we do what we do, “but if hadn’t been for the Lord.” We are to take no credit for victories won or feel wounded and defeated. Scripture declaring, “the battle is the Lord.” Proverbs 21:31 The horse is made for the day of battle, but the victory belongs to the Lord.

We live in a world today that’s in a crisis with entitled, disobedient, self righteous, unapologetic, narcissistic…”must I go on human beings,that God loves unconditionally?” Yes! That’s right God loves us, that he keeps doing everything in his power to save us all, even from ourselves. But my question to God is why keep on trying to save, who don’t want to be save? I can believe or comprehend the the resistance of those few. We shouldn’t have to throw a lifesaver at a drowning person who keeps tossing it back to you refusing to hold on, which can only mean one thing, “I don’t want to be saved, let me drown.” The fact that they would watch you right in the eye and then submerge themselves and when you jump in to help them they try to beat up on you or take you down with them. But God, I thought you said, “ don’t give what is holy to dogs; nor cast your pearls before swine, lest they trampled them under their feet, and turn and tear you in pieces, Matthew 7:6?” God reminded me of Luke 10:11-12 Whosever shall not receive you, nor hear your words, when you depart out of that house or city, shake off the dust from your feet. Verily I say unto you, it shall be more tolerable for the land of Sodom and Gomorrah in the day of judgement, than for that city.

You know what God’s said to me, “ I am feeling just as helpless and frustrated as that person is feeling with life, so if I can’t see myself in their position with my tantrums right now to understand, and show compassion as one who’s got so much faith in Him, because not only do I believe, but declare how much I love and I trust in Him. It’s better that I didn’t know, than know He’s real and not just a few, but all things are possible with Him.

Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. In my obedience to doing what God has said, I’ve realized the helping of others was also helping myself we’re all as one in the sight of the Lord, with our strength and weaknesses. But if only we can see it is a battle and a struggle we all face within ourselves as do others to stay on the right path. The negative forces always tries to conquer us all and sometimes we don’t even know it. So when we point fingers at others and judge, really we are only judging ourselves. As Jesus said, “he that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone” John 8:7

With love comes a lot of emotions good and bad. Taking on the responsibility for others as though it was myself who give birth to them, when it’s God. Sometimes we just have to know our place. We are all sinners and just because God has chosen us to do a thing, doesn’t make us Gods ourselves. God is not on the throne making Gods, he’s there taking care of his creation whom he loves so much.

“Yeah though we walk through the valley of the shadow of death, we shall fear no evil,” Psalm 23:4 Death has surrounded us like never before without us being at war. But are we not at war? Death is not prejudice(no respecter of person), it’s coming after everyone in the world, there’s no exceptions and no place to hide. Death has to be so that evil doesn’t remain.

We are so afraid of death because it’s the unknown. So many people has passed on (died) as much of those who’s been born. Why are we not afraid of life (being born) as we are afraid of death. But then again are we? Is life coming from the other side (birth) just as much frightening as death? We don’t know, or should I say, “we can’t remember.” The fact that the majority of us don’t remember birth or our death, the answer to this question is a mystery. All I know is that the here and know of our existence began with us, when we could remember as far back as we can. Our memories before starting with our birth some how has been erased. But like déjà vu, certain aspects of our lives flashes before us.

I never understood it, we as Christians who believe in the life, death and resurrection of Jesus are afraid of death. Whenever I heard this quote from men and women of faith, “thank God, I am alive to see another day.” It’s like to be alive is to be blessed. But then again it is written the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Jesus our Lord, Romans 6:23. Could it be that we’re misunderstanding that it’s not this life we’re living now, which is within sin, but the life to come after, the resurrected life with Jesus? Jesus overcame sin and was resurrected. Death couldn’t hold him down, yet he lived, Amen!!! 2Corinthians 5:8 “we are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord.” (KJV)

Could it be that God is taking so many souls because a certain shift in our world has occurred?These souls that are being taken is it possible that they have reached the point of maturity and is no longer useful for the plans the Lord has for the earth and their services is now needed in heaven.

According to the hymn, “Oh when the saints go marching in!” No longer on the wheel of life, but graduated to heaven. I believe we all have passed lives and until we learned and experience certain things we had problems in facing or dealing with in our past lives, for example things like racism, a certain illness, a phobia, suicide, faith, etc. Today world is the day of our salvation for all those who got it, the lessons needed to to be learnt, such as the wisdom, knowledge and understanding of the most High God of our world and all that dwell there in.

I don’t want to come across as being ignorant to those who are just wreaking havoc in the world as we consider them, bad people, the sinners. Yes they are also dying and what’s happening to them is the creator Himself has plans for them why they’re also being taken off the earth for the Lords purpose. Only God is judge and He understands and knows why some people turn out bad. In the sight of God though we’ve all sin, but our redemption was given through Christ Jesus for our sins of the past, today and the future. “Remember, John 3:16 God so love the WORLD!”

So some of the heroes taken are soldiers in the army of the Lord, carpenters (builders), teachers, preachers, prophets and leaders…The angels of the Lord are very busy ascending and descending from earth. It is clear to see they are searching us to see who’s fit to stand in this preparation for the coming of our Lord and saviour Jesus Christ.

I have this feeling we are being sifted like the wheat from the tares right now. The righteous and the unrighteousness, the lost and the stolen. I say stolen because everything and everyone belongs to God and we are stolen when the devil puts obstacles in our way through temptation, weakness and our vulnerability. He then captures us, refusing to let us go.

Changes are about to come and for us who are left behind (not dead) we have the responsibility to stand and having done all to stand knowing He is with us to the end to fulfill purpose and destiny. So don’t get too eager or happy yet, because it’s gonna require discipline and faithfulness to stand and overcome as war shall be ragging against you by the enemy (devil). You may feel like you’re not ready to handle it, but the Lord knows you better than you know yourself. You are ready and equipped for the battle, “the devil must go!”

For those refusing to take the vaccine, you’re an indication of what disobedient is (sin) which leads to death. We must die to the things of this world, being in the world and not of it. Our only focus should be on the things of God, like Jesus. “Not our will, but thy will be done, Oh Lord!”

I dreamt I saw Jesus and he was pregnant, with the world. “Pregnant with the world?” I thought, “how could this be?” I saw him in the garden of Gethsemane, sweating drops of blood on his head, but yet the crown of thorns wasn’t on his head, Luke 22:44. It seemed like Jesus was between then and future of what will be. In the garden of Gethsemane we understood Jesus was crying because going to the cross was terrifying and he was exhibiting emotions with fear, especially when he asked the father, “ O My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me, nevertheless, not as I will, but as Thou wilt” Matthew 26:39. But like a woman in labour giving birth, he was calling out to God for the relief of the pain, the contractions was so strong. He couldn’t for the love of God get the disciples to stand strong with him in that moment. Every time he left them and came back they were fast asleep. He was willing to push, but he needed them to help him like a coach to breathe (prayer) at each contraction. Prayer became the breath needed to take, then push. The pushing is the ability to stand and not fall into temptation. The baby have to help the mother by moving down the birth canal with every push. If the baby refused to be moved towards the birthing canal to the light, it would get stuck and need cesarean, causing the mother to have months of pain in stead of a moment of pain.

Matthew 26:38-47 Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me. Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. “ Couldn’t you men keep watch with me for one hour?” Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.” He went away a second time and prayed. When he came back, he again found them sleeping, because their eyes were heavy. He left to pray a third time. Then came Jesus to his disciples and said to them, “sleep on now, and take your rest, the hour is at hand and the Son of man is betrayed into the hands of sinners. Rise, let us be going, behold, he is at hand that doth betrayed me…

It was never about Jesus, but about the world that God so loved. Jesus tears was the hopelessness of man to stand. It was Jesus pleading for us to stand and help ourselves. The heaviness of the disciples eyes showed we were unable to fight the power of temptation. Jesus was in the garden of Gethsemane like being in Eden, this time rectifying sin within us(man). This is were Grace was birth for us. The connection between Jesus and the disciples was ever so powerful. He was pulling their weaknesses onto himself to distribute his strength into them in the garden and they couldn’t receive it. Remember in Matthew 10:1-42 (NIV) Jesus called his twelve disciples to him and gave them authority to drive out impure spirits and to heal every disease and sickness…And even then the disciples had problems in fulfilling this duty. In Matthew 17:14-20 There was a man who son had that suffers with seizures and often falls into fire or water. He’d brought his son to the disciples and they could heal him. So he brought him to Jesus to heal him and Jesus response was, “you unbelieving and perverse generation, how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy here to me. Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of the boy and he was healed. When the disciples came to Jesus privately and asked why they couldn’t drive out the demon? He replied, because they have so little faith. If they have faith as small as a mustered seed, they can say to a mountain move and it will. Nothing will be impossible.

Jesus implanted the wisdom, knowledge and understanding of the kingdom of God to his disciples by his life death and resurrection. But they kept on coming up short. Man has got a long way to go to receive the victory over sin. We keep on waiting for Jesus to come again, but it’s up to us with all that we know about Jesus, to make our crooked ways straight. In the renewal of our minds we could have dominion over our weaknesses (sin). As Jesus said, we must rebuke the devil and he shall flee. We’ve been given authority and power through fasting, praying, the Holy Spirit and the name of Jesus. We must acknowledge the kingdom has come and through faith it is established throughout the world. How well learnt are we? Through the reading of the biblical lessons and the revealing of the Holy Spirit. “Come on, we got this, all we have to do breath (pray) and push (stand) with Jesus! It’s not hard, with understanding the spirit of Jesus has never left the earth. After two thousand years it is by faith we call on the name of Jesus whom we have yet to see, but still believe. All we are really looking for is the physical manifestation of his being. John 4:24 “ God is Spirit, and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth!”