Take my life Lord and consecrate it unto you. For you are my everything as Barry White said in his song, “you’re the first, the last, my everything.” I will not put anything on a pedestal that the devil can tear-down and use to destroy me like money, material things or others. My mind, body and soul cries out for you Lord.

Scriptures declares you are my salvation, present help in times of trouble, my joy and peace the forever lover of my soul. My comforter, shepherd guide, my friend. Your love for me a sinner passes all understanding. There are times when I am not worthy of your forgiveness, love, compassion, understanding, patience and trust, cause I’ve got problems extending the same to others as you continue for me.

Lord I’m bitter, resentful and a hater cause they hurt me so bad and I condemn all to hell. I can’t trust, I’m fearful so fearful of everthing and everyone. “No mercy in me I did my crying, Lord please, loose me.” I am prejudice, judge and condemn, and very selfish towards others yet I say I love you. If I had powers I would hurt the people who hurt me.

Thank you Lord for holding me back and pulling me out of the things that would of lead me down the wrong path. Psalm 122:1 I was glad when they said unto me, let us go into the house of the Lord. You house Lord, has become the field for me the lost sheep to return and call home where I am properly guided, protected and fed my Shepherd. You alone Lord, can change me

Some asked why wasn’t Mary the mother of Jesus given recognition of importance, but she did and is one of the most important woman of the Bible after all she is the mother of Jesus. It is really not about her fame. The true conflict is should we be praying to her? Yes, because just like Christ our intercessor so is the blessed Mother. It all started in Luke 1:27-28 A virgin named Mary who was engaged to a man named Joseph a descendant of David. The angel went to her and said,”Greetings you are highly favored! The Lord is with you.” Jesus himself before he died on the cross John 19:25-29 “Woman, behold your son!” And to his disciple, Behold your mother.

It was never about Mary or the other main characters of the Bible, but about the most High God. Every true servant understands this. Abraham was God’s friend, David a man after his own heart. Just to name a few main characters of the Bible.

When I think of Mary and what she said yes to, as a mother myself I can’t help of think what it was like for her to be pregnant with the son of God. Mary must had angels watching and guarding her every move even ministering to her for whatever she needed. I imagined Mary glowing in grace, and moving in the glory of God. This pregnancy must have changed everything about Mary and not just her life. She probably had dreams and visions of the future, was able to heal people, after all she had her cousin Elizabeth baby leap in her womb. Where ever she went there must of been so kind of miracles, but was kept secret.

If Moses went up to a mountain and spoke to God in Exodus 3, 4 and 34:29-35 Was given the ability to perform miracles to help the Israelites and after coming down the mountain his face was radiant that it frighten the Israelites. Moses spoke to the Lord and all this happened to him I could just imagine what was happening to Mary with the seed of God growing in her. This is something for everyone to think about. Yes it was all about Jesus, but to see or hear of Mary is like Jesus said, to see me is to see the father together we are one. The disciples are also important just as the followers of them today.

Matthew 5:16 “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” This is telling us that we are representing the most High God. What light do we have that is ours to shine? Genesis 1:27 So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them. So the image of God is the light in us that we must shine even thou we are sinners.

The world shines a light on us with an expectations and a demands we cannot live up to and one err and the light is turned off. The light of the world has a switch that is turned on and off. The light of God that shines through us without any expectations or demands draws people in with truth and righteousness and has no switch, it just keeps shine brighter once ignited by God. The enemy tries its best to turn it off such a light in you, but can only dim it, never completely turn it off. Only the light of God can out shine even light itself, it’s a light beyond any other.

The light that shines on you ( the world’s light) can never be compared to the light that shines through and on you, the light of God. When God shines a light on you people can’t help, but notice you. And when his light is within and on you everything you do and says draws a multitude of people to you. The light is not shining to glorify you, even though some people(servants of God) get caught up in themselves forgetting form where their light originated.

Yes I have Dyslexia. I was never able to understand why as a child I had learning disabilities. I always thought it was because I was just born dum, stupid. I thought to myself I will never learn. No matter how much I studied, read or write I will always have to be helped and corrected. My siblings use to laugh at me when I’d tried really hard and studied for hours and still failed the exams. Math, music, reading and comprehension was the worst for me. I’ve spent my entire life with Dyslexia without ever getting help because I was never diagnosed. Can’t believe at the age of fifty-three it finally came to light why I have such difficulties keeping up with writing my blog and needing my daughter to edit it for me all the time, if you’ve read my blog “I’ve been told”

I never like reading, but the Bible was and is the only book I was able to read and can comprehend. The version that was considered most difficult to understand for many the King James which was given to me by my granny as a child. With words like thou, hath, cometh and more I remembered my sister complaining she couldn’t understand it and she was always smarter than I after all she’s one year older.

With acknowledgement of my condition, this year I’m determine not to allow Dyslexia to prevent me blogging just as I am. This is the only way for me to let go and let God preform a good work in me. I want to practice what I have to preach. Not my will but God’s will be done through and within me. Anyone who’s wondering why I write like I do mistakes and all, this is the reason.

Matthew 27:46 “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani? Which means, “My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?” There’s an interpretation to this that stipulates Jesus was crying out to fulfill what was written in Psalm 22. Don’t know how truthful this is and can’t judge either.

How many times have we ourselves cried out this same thing to God, and have honestly, without a doubt, felt this way. Jesus who says, “to see me, is to see the father, the father and I are one. It is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work.” John 14:9-10 Why would he cry out to himself, is he not God in the flesh 1Timothy 3:16? First Jesus was in the garden of Gethsemane crying out to the Father to take the cup from him. Matthew 26:39. The question is what is happening to Jesus at that pivotal moment?

Luke 1: 31, 34-35 You will conceive and give birth to a son, and you are to call him Jesus. “How will this be,” Mary asked th angel, “since I am a virgin?” The angel answered, “The Holy Spirit will come on you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. So the Holy one to be born will be called the Son of God.” Jesus is divinity and his mother Mary created in the image of God came together humanity and divinity (flesh and spirit), what a mix! We all understand a little biology and how DNA plays a very important part of our lives from both parents.

One thing when spirit and flesh connects like on the day of Pentecost Acts 2:1-4 there’s an elation, but when the spirit leaves th flesh there’s a ripping away so devastating the flesh(blood) groans and cries out. Genesis 4:10 And the Lord said unto Cain, “What have you done? Listen! Your brother’s blood cries out to me from the ground.”

The blood has power and is victorious in its flow. Like flowing water when poured out it’s all energy.

One thing I’ve realized as someone who trying to lead a spiritual life and I say trying because it is a battle; being spiritual in a carnal world. Matthew 26:41 Jesus says, ” the spirit indeed is will, but the flesh is weak.” What a lot of us spiritual people fail to realize is that we have aches and pains, even sicknesses that is hard to treat or explain that cannot be cured by carnal medication for it is an attack of the spirit. Ephesians 6:12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. We are so connected to everything, like that which is in the universe and on earth. Jesus demonstrated this with his cry out to God like a woman giving birth who in labour and with each contractions not realizing it is the separation and disconnecting(to release, birth) that causes the pain. In Matthew 27:50-51 And when Jesus had cried out again in a loud voice, he gave up his spirit. At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. The earth shook, the rocks split,(earthquake).

In conclusion, there are energy forces all around us and that in which we possess through God our father to whom it originated.

Twenty-three years ago I finally decided to go on a retreat to connect with the Almighty. My frustrations with religions( is there really a right and true one) my spirituality and all the unanswered questions about God. One day I had a vision of Love, there’s no other way to describe it. It was about love, forgiveness, patience, mercy, compassion, sacrifice, understanding, wisdom and knowledge. When you’d think about the goodness of God which is within each and everyone of us being created in His image, we can possess it if we choose. That is how she appeared to me, Queen of all Queens, Mary the mother of Jesus, to whom I believed had no importance other than she’s the mother of Jesus.

To make a long story short, after communicating with her I no longer feel that way. Mother Mary took her crown of heaven, crown of the earth and crown of the crucific, placed it on my head and handed the infant Jesus in my arms saying that I am her and she’s me, just as God has entrusted her with Jesus, she also enstrusts me with all God’s children. Whenever you believe you’re not worthy, God says yes you are. It is said we are saved by grace, Ephesians 2:8. But there’s a grace we possess within ourselves through the Holy ghost that enables us to walk, speak and do the impossible, that Mary had, not just favour.

Everyone wants to be a queen, not me. The only thing I could think of is the saying by William Shakespeare “Uneasy lies the head that wears a crown.” Luke 12:48 From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked. Luke 14:11 For everyone who exalts him or herself will be humble, and the one who humbles themselves will be exalted.Remember Moses in Exodus 4 trying to convince God he was not the man for the job to deliver God’s people out of bondage, I felt that same way.

When God calls you out, you are set apart from the ordinary. It is not you that is the alien or strange, it is the world and it systems of things contrary to the will of God or should I say the way things rightfully should’ve been before man sinned. When God puts a light in you, you can run, but you can’t hide, people always find you out. That light exposes you and then you wonder why so much oppositions from the enemy. For this light that should be for a blessing turns out to be a curse. It is one thing to be envied and jealoused by strangers, but like Joesph in Genesis 37 when he told his family about his dream. Sad, but it can creep into your own family and friends. For the crown of Mary, I have suffered like Joseph. And it is sad because people who don’t know my story assume with the title Empress that I am egotisitical, calling attention on myself. If only it was so. In carrying out my duties, many times I’ve stumbled in more ways than ever, but if it hadn’t been for the Lord who’s on my side. God kept me and is never letting me go, no matter what, as it is said, ” being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ.” Philipians 1:6 I don’t like lying so I would never call myself something I am not. The truth is I love my peace and quiet, don’t want to be noticeable.

Being Empress is not to impress man, but to be a servant of God.

Luke 15:11-32 The Parable of the Prodigal Son, Jesus spoke this story to his disciples about a father who has two sons, a younger and an older. The younger son asked his father for his inheritance( I call his free will), and the father grants his son’s request, without a complaint or a waring of impending doom. The father didn’t whipped his son with threaths like some people do to win souls fo Christ. The father let the son go in faith. The younger son took his inheritance and squandered it( like what many of us do with the free will we are given and uses it for our own bad and selfih ambitions), eventually becoming destitute. In Luke 15:17 Finally he came to himself… It wasn’t written that the son not only came to himself alone, but by the father’s faith, the thing that cannot be seen, that connection in his spirit, the image of his father he was created in burst through within his soul as a reminder to who he is and where he came from. Knowing now that his actions and behavior was wrong and it profit him nothing; he now has to return to his father in humility excepting the fact his father never fought him, but allowed him to go when he had everything he need already, excepting his curiosity of the world without his father discipline and guidance. Before he could reach his father in Luke 15:20 “But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him, he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.” The younger son confessed to the Father that he has sinned against him and his father didn’t dignify it with an answer, but his called for the servant to bring his son the best rob(a covering for the shame he felf) a ring on his finger (covenant between them) and a sandals for his feet(protection for whatever path he walks). The father gifted and blessed his son, not just because he returned home, but he knew why he had returned home “for if it hadn’t been for the Lord” that’s why the father had the celebration it was a thanks giving for his son being alive and of sound mind.

The older son who was out in the field( about his father business working) returned home to no celebration for him. After all he wasn’t being selfish when he got his inheritance and left his father. He stayed and continued to work for and with his father. He refused to enter the feast for his brother(Luke 15:25-30). But, understand who would ever think by doing what is believed to be right and noble, seems to be a bad thing when those who do wrong seems to get so much attention and blessings. It’s like the Jesus with the sinners and not the Pharisee, the Jews and the Gentile, working all day to get paid as someone who worked for an hour or to find out all that you thought you were doing as a Christian according to what you interpret about the Bible is wrong to you even prosecuting and condemning people. It would be like the older brother make you angry to go into a celebration for them also.

The father explanation for his action towards the younger brother is he was, dead but now alive again Luke 15:32 he was only celebrating his son finding his way, by realizing that what he believe that would bring him happiness was only short lived and instead devastation. The fact that he pleaded with his older son to come into the celebration and all that he has is his also, because he is always with him Luke 15:31. This show the Father was showing no favoritism that his concerns was about both his son’s and they are very important to him despite their differences in the choices they made for their lives.

The Prodigal son, this parable explains to us that as human beings not two of us are the same even though we are siblings and family. The love of God for us is, like that of being a parent. A parent loves and care for their children despite their inadequacy. No matter what they do as long as they understand that home has a revolving door when the world has gotten to hard. But one thing return home with humility, gratitude and respect. The son didn’t return home with the same attitude he left with. Life had thought him there’s no place like home, the safe place where you’re guided, protected, taught and cared for.

Genesis 2:7 Then the Lord God formed man from the dust of the ground and breathed the breath of life into him and he became a living being. The breath (spirit) is for eternity, but the form (flesh) temporary. In the beginning God poured his spirit into man and like a tear drop, it trickled down through out our soul. We can’t even begin to imagine from that drop, the power we were given, created in his image. This is how God is inside each and everyone of us and why we can be considered a God ourselves, Psalm 82:6, John 10:34.

We know now that the power of God works in us and through us, that’s how we intercede for others as well as to help ourselves. The power is ignited by connection, having a relationships with God. This connection has only been broken when Adam and Eve was tempted by the devil to eat the forbidden fruit in Genesis 3 and mankind has been struggling to regain it. We must understand through the life death and resurrection of Jesus this connection, this relationship is our choice through faith.

We were formed of the dust in the beginning and through Jesus we were reborn through water, fire and the Holy ghost. What power we possess with this triple blessing. We are taken from the dust to water, fire and the Holy ghost we are just climbing up the mountain and this is something for us to realize when drawing nearer to the unseen, but yet reachable.

Whenever you encounter someone that can make a difference in your life by helping you out with any situations without them even knowing you, that is God showing up as we can only imagine a loving, caring, merciful and loving being, that’s why we call him, father.

As Father’s day is drawing near in four days this year 2018 I heard a voice say, “write about fathers.” I thought to myself, “what, I am a mother, I can speak from a woman’s point of view as a mother, but a father? This definitely has to come from God himself.” So hear goes something in the name of the Lord Jesus.

Famous fathers of the Bible are Adam, Noah, Job, Abraham, Isaac, Jacob, David, Zacharias, and Joseph. None can be compared to Joseph, why? Joseph is the earthly father of Jesus the immaculate conception(Luke 1:35). It is very important for all fathers to see themselves in the same position as Joseph when it concerns their children. Your children are not yours, they belong to God. You fathers are here to be in His stead, like Joseph was to Jesus. Understand you have it better than Joseph ever did because of the life, death and resurrection of Jesus, you have the Holy ghost, the comforter, to help you. Adam was formed of dust from the ground(Genesis 2:7) whereby Jesus man and divinity and part man.

So father’s who are you? You are created in His image, but Jesus said something that all who follows him must have this understanding where God is concern. John 14:9-10 “Anyone who has seen me has seen the father. The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work.” Wow! A lot of people miss this very important revelation and teaching. Father’s you are daddy’s when on earth and Father’s when you’re consecrated and connected to God in oneness. To see you should be like Jesus said, is to see God the father. Dad’s you’re supposed to be representing the most high.

Matthew 23:9 Do not call anyone on earth ‘father,’ for you have one Father, and he is in heaven. 1 Corinthians 11:3 Realize that the head of every man is Christ. This is to teach you humility you are not a God, but the son. Remember God is always in control so to be a good father is to allow God to direct you path. Being able to acknowledge that sometimes it’s not about you, but you serve a purpose, even if it was for a minute, like an extra in a movie, not being the main character, but to be humble and greatfull for the role you’ve been given no matter how minuscule. In one of the greatest story of the Bible, Joseph being called for such a purpose and being a man, wasn’t popular at all as though being the earthly father of Jesus was not so important.

Joseph was amazing father and man of God Matthew 1:18-25. Much wasn’t mention of him in the bible other than he was a carpenter and he may have had other children, even be a widower. In Matthew 13:55 it was said about Jesus, ” is that not the carpenter’s son? Isn’t his mother’s name Mary, and aren’t his brothers, James, Joseph, simon and Judas?” But one thing about Joseph, he fulfilled his role as a father to Jesus and a husband to Mary in every way, lead by the angel of God from the time he dreamt not to put away Mary quietly when he found out she was pregnant and they had not consummated there relationship. Matthew 1:24 When Joseph woke up, he did what the angel of the Lord had commanded him.

Are you fathers doing what you are commanded to do for God? A father can only be a good father when it’s not about himself, and he is present. His role is a big one, equally shared. A father could never be a father without a mother and same goes for being a mother, the roles is shared which brings balance to the entire unification as to what is called family. And let us not forget God!

God has put me here in this world as an individual. Even though I am created in his image and inherited my parents genealogy I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14).

As a child going to elementary I used to imagine, just by watching my classmates, what their lives must be like at home. I’d think maybe exactly like mine. It would only be confirmed to me the reality when I’d go for birthday parties or school projects; definitely their lives were nothing like my mine. I had brothers and sisters and some were only childs, I lived in an apartment and they lived in mansions and I was poor and some of them rich. It seemed to me that their lives were much more better than my own, considering I thought their lives were just like mine.

It was then the reality of myself living in a world created especially for me, hit me like a head on collision. My life was completely dysfunctional, when I believed it to be normal. My father left my mother, my mother left myself and siblings after my father left her when I was a baby; i don’t know her at all. He moved to Canada with another woman leaving his wife, my mother, pregnant and alone and when he got to Canada, he got that woman pregnant also who left him when she heard he had to come get his kids who was abandoned by his wife. My father loved women, lots of them all at the same time and he also like beating them (domestc violence). My siblings and I were passed around from our grandma to aunties until my father found a woman bold, patient, loving, caring and understanding to put up with him, his many children form different women and her one child and his verbal and physical abuse. This is just a summary of my world when I’d began to see and understand it as a small child and I believed it to be normal.

I could only imagine some of the untold stories about my parents lives leading up to my conception. I do believed that God had a plan in all the madness of those two worlds coming together. I also realized even though my siblings and I lived in the same so called world because we came from the same parents, both coming together as one seed planted, bloomed into a tree, we’ve all became individual branches with leaves. And this is how my world began individually. I have stories of my own when I woke up out of my childish imagination into adulthood reality.

My world began with being a branch, leaf, then a bud turn into a seed of my own.