Lord in my weakness throughout my trials, tribulations and temptations, hear my humble cry. I know you’re always with me, please hear and answers my prayer Lord. I am angry, I don’t feel I can keep up with being good all the time, with my human default within, struggling with sin. Whiles I am trying to be faithful and true, I can feel the contamination, contagious work of sin creeping in, I so am angry at the world. Scripture declare, “be angry, and do not sin.” Ephesians 4:26-27 I am trying so hard because people are being possessed unknowingly by Satan, as I watch them taking evil for good. They are adamant that right is wrong, truth is lie and evil is good. I claim it to be possession because they are blinded, can’t recognize truth even if it’s right in front of them, like Judas was against Jesus. Something is terribly wrong and we need you Lord. There’s a continue vision flashing in my mind, a scene of humanity finally realizing the truth and like Judas who betrayed Christ, it’s just too late and we all perish.

Hears my grievances directly at them as I vent out of the depths of my soul. “For all you judgemental Christians I was once like you when the zeal of God had first captivated me, and had consumed my soul, mind and was born again. I had so forgotten, what a wretched sinner I myself was. But because of the convictions of the Holy Spirit within me, I cannot tell a lie. The truth, I can’t hold it down within me, it finds a way to manifest somehow, and I spew it up. I have to be careful not to be judgemental myself, but rather to see through the lenses of the Holy Spirit that is working through and within me. But I am angry, and bitterly so, especially over the blatant hypocrisy of humanity who believe themselves to be Christians( to be Christlike) speaking up on behalf of Christ like the Pharisees try to do,where God was concerned, who didn’t even recognize His son in their presence.

Sometimes we must remember what being Christlike means: resembling or showing the spirit of Christ. Christian: following the teachings or manifesting the qualities or spirit of Jesus Christ. Instead we focus and concentrate on our own selfish desires giving into our emotions giving way to the devil to overcome us, having his way with our mind, soul, and body.

“It’s not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.” Jesus said, on hearing the Pharisees asking his disciples, why does their teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners. Just remember sinners are the ones Jesus died for, “so stop persecuting them.” Jesus should have said, “if you believe you’re healthy you don’t need a doctor!” The Pharisees like some Christians today, truly believe themselves to be the doctor the people needed and not Jesus. We’re all sinners and have fallen short, but God so LOVE the WORLD, He gave his only begotten son, John 3:16 We must stop persecuting sinners, and leave it God. We are God’s vessels, His instruments, not His replacement.

On abortion! “I just don’t get it.” The sixth commandment, “thou shalt not kill” Think for a moment where in the Bible (word of God), is there any exceptions for killing? Here’s what Jesus says, Matthew 5:21-21 “You have heard that it was said to those of old, ‘you shall not murder; and whoever murders will be liable to judgment.’ But I say to you that everyone who is angry with his brother will be liable to judgement; whoever insults his brother will be liable to the council; and whoever says, ‘You fool!’ Will be liable to the hell fire. I am trying to comprehend their ideology on what “thou shall not kill means” to me it’s very straight forward a commandment. When we speak of abortion as killing (murder) babies, what about the children and babies in Ukraine, Gaza, Lebanon and all war torn countries, you hypocrites, where are your Godliness to help and prevent what’s going on in our world. Why would you think war is acceptable or having any form of weapons that kills, especially a guns for people to own.

Judge me all you want, hypocrites, abortion like any medical procedures man can do is given by God, whether it’s cosmetic, surgical intervention, operation, medical procedure…I do disagree with anyone who would use abortion as a form of contraception. When Jesus was working all kinds of miracle, like making the blind see, the lame walk, dead come back to life…he told the disciples John 14:12 Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. This is letting us know that every, creative mind, scholar, genius…all comes from God, after all we were created in our Father’s image. If only some of us can realize and understand that. It like saying we shouldn’t use the advance abilities we now have medical to improve our health mentally or physically. What about our advancement with technology I guess it’s a sin to be use also. How quickly we forget that we have a God that’s not a bully or dictator, we can choose and we’re the only ones when making our decisions have to live with the consequences.

When it comes to abortion or any sin we’ve committed, just remember it’s not even our parents who give live to us can speak up on our behalf or anyone for that matter. It is we ourselves, who will be the ones standing before God on judgment day. When we die, just like when we are born it’s always one at a time coming into the world, even if you’re a twin, one comes out first. We can’t take anyone with us and even twins don’t die at the same time or day. You’re on your own with death and judgment before the Lord, “for all you self righteous, religious, judgmental so called Christians.” How do I know? I practice what I preach and I’ve experienced what I preach. We have to stop speaking things we don’t know or understand and stop assuming it’s fact because we’re just guessing or read someone else experience not our own. “We don’t have a heavenly or hell that is of our own, to put anyone in, so spot the judgment.

Jesus didn’t come to judge or condemn the world, John 3:17 For God did not send his son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. I came boldly to the throne of God and confess I am a sinner and found out, sin is sin, no exceptions as a less or greater and all have sinned and fallen short. The worst thing is to come before God not recognizing or accepting like Cain with his brother Abel, that you have sinned Genesis 4:1-16. But we have a merciful, compassionate, understanding, and forgiving God when we do sin, forgives us and says, “go and sin no more.” In other words look at the consequences of sin in your life. Stop sinning and learn from it, don’t be a presumptuous sinner, that you don’t keep repeating it. If you’re liar stop lying, if you’re adulterous stop, you’ve lost your entire family, if you’re murder, stop killings….

All us wicked, cantankerous humans (sinners) are so lucky Jesus never went back to heaven and summoned a last call for our lives as we do towards one another. We must understand according to Romans 7:14-19 The law and sin: We know that the law is spiritual; but I am in spiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me…For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do-this I keep on doing. Oh, the conflict of sin within us, and it’s a struggle. Matthew 26:41 “The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

Lord my anger is sincerely about the miseducation of your WORD, and the true working of the Holy Spirit within us, being clouded by vulnerability of our weaknesses (sin) As we open up ourselves through disobedience for the love and lust for the things of this world. The devil is telling us today like he did Jesus in the wilderness, Matthew 4:8-11 To worship him, and he’ll give us the world. Many people today are going through difficult times to survive, and just as Jesus was hungry in the wilderness after forty days of fasting and prayers, we are hungry and thirsty, but not for you. A lot of us has chosen to given into the devil and began to worship him, because our desires for money, accolades, and fame and all he has to offer us, far outweigh our love and reverence to you God. “I see it and feel it and I am angry.”

Christians are suppose to be the salt of the world and if we begin to be of the world, then we’re definitely losing our saltiness. The world is in subjection to repetition of history, a history we’ve tried and fought so hard to change. Look how far we’ve came to turn back now. If we don’t come together to stop what’s going on; take a look at history, try to comprehend, how well learnt are we not to repeat it.

I am writing this to you Lord, whose a reader of hearts and mind and I could be truthful with my feeling. But there’s a few people I feel the devil uses to provoke my soul I do want to cuss 🤬 for their wicked behaviour. Keep me back Lord, let not my slippery footsteps slide🙏

“Oh righteousness and truth of God that should be within us, where are you?” At a loss for words for the actions of my fellow human beings. What are we perpetrating when we claim to be children of God when with all this hate towards one another and believing in man, rather than trusting and having faith in our God. History has proven that whenever humanity strays away from our Heavenly Father we encounter our own demise, for the Bible tells us so. I picture it like God holding onto us like a parent while crossing a busy road, and like a child wanting our own way, deliberately deciding to wiggle out of His grip and end up being hit by a vehicle. “Who’s then responsible? God, or we ourselves?” This is how I see our world today. We’re out of control with this free will business, free to lie, hate, discriminate, to kill, to threaten, treat each other with cruelty… Some of us are too immature for free will. We have to be grateful our God is loving, caring, forgiving, merciful, compassionate…God for the things we do especially towards one another and all His creations.

“Forgive us Father for we all have sinned and came short of your glory.” We acknowledge sin has been a conflict we’ve been battling within us throughout the ages as written in scriptures. The battle was no longer ours, it became Jesus for our sake and through Him and in Him we got the victory. But yet, once again humanity has gone astray from the path of righteousness and like in the days of Noah, Genesis 5:29, and Sodom and Gomorrah, Genesis 19:24…the lawlessness is so outrageous and out of control that it’s blinding the eyes and the minds even of His chosen. Matthew 24: 23-24 “Then if any man shall say unto you, Lo here is Christ, or there; believe it not. For there shall arise false Christs, and false prophets, and shall shew great signs and wonders, insomuch that, if it were possible, they shall deceive the very elect.

It all began with COVID-19 spreading across the entire world. Then, and only then, I believe the division began, sheep from the goats. I remembered the desperation for a vaccine, a cure, for so many lives were being taking by this pandemic and it had no discrimination of persons, regardless of religion, country, nation, government…the wave of it hit us all on plant earth. The division began because of its impact on every aspect of our lives as we had known it. The closing down of everything, the isolation we’ve all experienced and none contact with others as we’ve known and experienced took us into a deep dive in our mental and physical well being as it was out of our normality. This pandemic broke some of us to the point it brought out demons. But I also recognized angels guarded the heart and minds of those who remained strong and faithful because we believed the Lord would see us through, going deeper in faith rather than losing it. This pandemic has drawn out the best in some of us and if we were struggling from the get go the worst. Till now, it hasn’t stopped, because so many people whom had lost sight, is now ever so blinded, sad to say.

Just take a look at what’s going on in our world today, after the pandemic, if you’re somehow confused. Life may not have been perfect, but we weren’t as fearful of living, much less of World War III as we are today. It’s like evil has taken our vulnerability and fears of the apocalypse, armageddon as written in the book of Revelation being revealed in the pandemic and escalated it to where we are right now with the war in Ukraine with Russia, Jerusalem and Gaza, the threats and fears of democracy being eliminated by dictatorships creeping into good countries and nations as such; even to civil unrest within such countries and nations, especially the United States of America the Nation I believe was chosen by God to rule as the beacon of His purpose and will for all countries and nations to follow after their fall (America civil war, cruelty of slavery, segregation… God I believe gives control to those whom he has given power, but can humble themselves to His will like Jesus. Matthew 23:12 For those who exalted themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted. We must humble ourselves under God’s mighty hand that He may lift us up in due time, 1 Peter 5:6.

Are we faithfully carry out the work Jesus has given us to do in his absence until his return? Are we prepared for His return? Instead all of us so called Christians are lying, hating, accepting the deception and temptation of the devil, despising God’s truth for our own…not realizing that like Peter Satan has desires to have us, that he may sift us as wheat. (Luke 22:31) that our faith in God has now failed us. We rather put faith in a man, lies, wars to solve our problems. What happened to following Christ, and being Christ like. Who side are we on, when we rather accept, hatred, division, right out deceptions and lies. We are so blinded, that by sight, in light, we still can’t see and even by hearing, our hearing is distorted to truth. We can only hear what we want to hear, and that is our truth, our prospective of truth. “Help us Lord.”

Man is not falling, we already had fallen, but got up through Christ. But it’s our rebellious, disobedience actions in doing our own thing apart from God that’s causing our suffering. Adam and Eve didn’t have what we have, which is a light, our salvation, a redeemer and a mediator…one who is one with us and have the understanding of our infirmities that we can call on his name and be delivered. We find ourselves in the same predicament though as Adam and Eve because we’re lovers of the things of the world which the devil is using as bait to conform us.

Micah 6:8 He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness and to walk humbly with your God? If following in Jesus footsteps, let’s make no mistake! Remember Jesus disliked the works of the Pharisees and Scribes, so if you have their kind of mentality, check yourself Christians, Matthew 23:23.