I rather say being Christ like, than following Christ. “Why? Because I acknowledge and accepted when I was baptized, He’s in me and I in Him. With no strength nor power of my own, I surrendered.

Being baptized was the best thing I had done for my life. I thought life will be smooth sailing from then on. I had believed according to what I was told or maybe misunderstood, and that is, baptism was going to make every bad thing in life better. I would be delivered from the bondage of sin, and set free. But I was ever so wrong, and it was the beginning of a troublesome, fearful, trial of my faith in God. Jesus was led by the spirit after being baptized to go on a retreat, fasting and praying, so was I. No solid food to eat just hot water and sometimes glucose in it. But I was fed in the spirit , I never felt hungry, neither thirsty. God is real!

Everything was great like I had expected it when being Christ like, but then the devil show up when I felt like I was walking on air, just floating in the spirit in His grace and glory. I felt like what the Israelites and Aaron saw on Moses face after coming down the mountain from the presence of God, Exodus 34:29-35. As I walked in my calling about my Father’s business, preaching, teaching, healing and prophesying… The threats to my life and family was frightening and unbearable. Matthew 5:16 “Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.” They don’t glorify the Father, they are too busy trying to destroy you for the light, God is completely out of their mind and thought. If they would acknowledge God, they would understand it’s His light not yours. You are just Hid vessel. The devil takes control over them, and they become deaf, blind and ignorant and gravitate to possess what I call Cain mentally. After killing his brother Abel had the nerve to ask God, “ am I my brother’s keeper.” Genesis 4:1-13.

Never have I ever believed when I had excepted to be Christ like, I was going to be crucified like him for loving and caring about humanity with their ingratitude, envy and jealousy. Those you love and all who are acquainted, like Jesus disciples, also are affected by being judged, hated and outcasted because of you. Your light is an influence to draw people in a positive way, but negativity also gravitates to your light, I had to learn and accept. It’s your tears and pleas of the heart for the love of those who wrongfully hurt you and cries for your persecution for no apparent reason you; your haters. God knows and understands a heart issue, love that kills a person quickly on a cross. When you are able say, “forgive them they know not what they do.” But if you’re bitter and resentful your bones will be broken and only then you die fast.

It took me years to recognize and understand that, “ even though , I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil…Psalm 23:4 and Isaiah 54:17 “No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn…Romans 8:31 “If God is for you, who can be against you? I was filled with fear, doubt and hopelessness. I didn’t keep my eyes on God, walking in faith. I was distracted by the sight of the things going on in the world. Faith can take you out of the world’s reality into Gods existence of glory and all truth of “the meaning of life is?” Romans 8:28 “All things God works for good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.