I remembered as a child being told in Sunday school, there would be a time the presence of God would not be felt in the world. We’ll be crying out to God and he will not answer, because of sin, God would be far from humanity. There’s scripture in the Bible to back this up Jeremiah 11:14, Zechariah 7:13, Ezekiel 5:11,and it was taught that this was going to take place in the last days. As a child it petrified me, the thought of God leaving us and the devil being able to take control knowing that he is the evil one, my imagination took advantage of my fears and vulnerability. I promised to pray all the time that the Lord presence would always with me regardless. I was not going to allow God to leave me. I would always blink my eyes and there would be light that flashes before me in which I would call my imaginary friend whom I called, Father. These circles of light that surrounded me and would never ever abandon me, I truly believed. I couldn’t bare the thought of being in darkness and God not being there. I was almost fifty years old when I’d learned to sleep without a night light. I put it in my Will that when I die my family has to keep a light for me always and don’t allow my body in a freezer without light, for I fear darkness that much. The Lord’s presence to me from a child always represented by light, like the sun, it’s hard to imagine the earth without it.

How can we keep the flames of faith from burning out, at a time when the presence of God is obscured by so much negativity in our world. From the beginning of the pandemic until this very moment I find there’s been a movement, a shift of energy in our world, negativity fighting against positivity. All that is true and righteous, is in a struggle to stand and maintain. It’s fight against an invisible evil forces you can’t see or touch, but there is this undeniable fact of its existence, that we’re in a war, a spiritual war. It seems like good is now evil and evil is now good. The greed for power, control and money has taking over the minds of many and that which once was a priority before anything else (God) has now become only for convenience, placed way in the back of everything else. Out of sight, out of mind, this is the position our Lord has taken in our lives as faith is based on what is seen and tangible. Remember there was a time being poor was following and being like Jesus. Now fame and wealth is because of being obedient, follow and be like Jesus. We are being motivationally empowered and taught this. “Why settle for anything less?” We still don’t get it, we can be rich and still poor and poor and still rich. We all want to be rich, don’t want to just get by, we desperately want to be able to pay all our bills and still have leftover to do whatever we want to do, like go on vacations, buy a new car, help others…whatever. We still don’t get it whether rich or poo it’s all about our spirit within and our relationship with the Heavenly Father through the power of the Holy Spirit. This is all on a level of spiritual awakening and understanding.

We got to get down on our knees, clasp our hand and bow our heads and begin to fast and pray like never before. Get out our Bible begin to read the books of the prophets and revelations and recognize the irony on what humanity is going through again for our disobedience to the word of God. After the life death and resurrection of Jesus, I refuse to be like the Israelites in the Wilderness going around in circles for forty years after being delivered out of Egypt slavery because of their lack of wisdom, knowledge and understanding of what the Lord was doing in their lives when bringing them out of captivity. We got to read the Bible to truly get the understanding of humanity ignorance when concerning how we ourselves can impact the change for the betterment of our world.

Ecclesiastes 1:9 What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun. We’re living in a time of lawlessness and the grieving of the Holy Spirit. It is better that we didn’t know the truth, than to know and still choose to go against it. And the truth is God is real and obedience to him is going to make our world a better place and our lives filled with peace when together we overcome the power and authority of devil for good. For us to go against Him is sealing our lives to all kind of disasters and causing the end of days instead of changing it. He’s on his way, no longer coming. God’s existence is present throughout our entire world and also the preaching of the gospel has spread. There’s now no place in the world the gospel has not been preached and exposed, whether believed, excepted or not, social media has completed the disciples mission.

Genesis 3:8-10, God never would leave us, we turn away from God. The enemy from the beginning of time always finds away to lure us away from God. But no matter what God comes calling and searching until we answer. Hebrews 13:5 “ Keep your lives free from the love of money, but the devil makes us suffer without having it by temptation and deceit. And be content with what you have, because God had said, “never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” But yet today, our faith is wavered in these times of what seems hopeless, fearful, uncertain, desperate and in need.

“How ignorant are we? Death is no respecter of person. Whether, black, white, straight, gay, religious, atheists, rich or poor… not matter what we all die. If a religious beliefs was predicted on survive this thing called death, and because it’s proven to be so powerful you become immortal then we’d all know for sure which religion is the correct faith to follow, wouldn’t we? But there’s no such thing, regardless of what our faith or not believing we all still die. Death is inevitable, it’s destined for the flesh(body) the clothing of the soul(emotions) so that the spirit can return to it’s life force, God. What a great mystery, this thing called death is for us all. Not to be feared, we get a glimpse of it every night when we sleep. Like the opening of a door, our spirit comes out the body and travels to another place and time, we call it dreaming. The door open and when about close the spirit calmly returns to our body and then we are woken up. We are limited to where the spirit can soar once the spirit is destined to return to the body for a time. When we die it’s different the spirit soar for what like seems eternity. You can feel yourself ascending, being drawn up by a gentle magnetic force taking you through darkness and then into a marvellous light. With a great jolt you’re landed into a new reality called heaven. It’s called heaven because for once in your life you found an everlasting inner peace and joy within your soul that cannot be explained. No more fears, pain, concerns…an ecstasy, euphoric feeling of continual tranquility that would never existed within and around you in the earth realm.

What is the meaning of life? A question always asked by those who are seeking purpose. We all have our own definitions especially conscientious folks. The true question we should be concerned about is what is the meaning of both life and death because life is something we all experiencing and death sooner or later we’ll experience. Like good and bad, but yet both serve purpose for life. Scripture declares world without end, so does it mean death has no effect to the world? The answer is, ‘yes,’ death do effect the world, but unlike us. We see the transformation and transition in the four seasons especially at autumn the harvest time to reap what has been sown and prepare the earth for winter’s coldness which kills everything that once was. We watch the beautiful flowers, plants, grass, tree and leaves wither away(dies). But we don’t get sad about it because it all returns again in the spring. This to me is like the storms, earthquake, hurricanes, floods…is a form of the world dying. But no matter what it God made it so that it replenishes itself a new.

To me, when I think of death, it is to be understood as a transformation and transition same as the world in the changing of seasons. The difference is we go to other regions in the world not remaining like the trees, grass, flower…or whatever we’ve sown in the earth. Our appearances and memory are renewed. We’ve been given many chances by the Lord at his judgement (throne of mercy) on the life we lived when we die and go before him. We’re given the chances to change whatever needed to graduate to heaven. For this reason some of us has long lives and other short. I believe after we’ve learned the lesson of life and it’s true meaning only then we graduate to heaven, becoming master teachers enter into the heavenly realm and become helpers to those on earth through God. I had a dream and saw my life time, which is many, I’ve been to the east west, north and south of the world. For whatI have seen about myself, I believe I am finished with this life being here on earth. I’m not returning again here on earth I believe when I die this time. My life circle after many renewals have been completed and my spirit will returned to the Heavenly Father.

Ask me how I know this? I have lived many lives before and got a glimpse at it all, I ‘be almost died three times and have returned. One foot in this dimension and the other in the spiritual realm. Acknowledge and now understand why I was told I am a medium. Like the movie Six sense, I can speak not only to the dead, but angels. When you have crossed over to the realm you are able to see life from looking down on it. Like being in an airplane, you soar over life and could see, discern, prophesy what others can’t, through the supernatural. Like demonic attacks you suffer a lot spiritually to gain balance of the negative and positive energy that clashes at times in your life, fighting for domination authority and power, like thunder and lightening it’s very frightening. I had to learn it’s not in the fighting against one or the another where safety and security is found it is the acknowledgment of the both are existing simultaneously with each other. We must not be afraid especially of the negative. It’s not only negative energy that weighs us, but the positive we have difficulty maneuvering in our lives. With discipline and obedience to God you have ability to stand against all energy forces, to weigh ourselves balance on the scale of life and death.

When Moses saw the burning bush, God didn’t send him out to deliver his people by repeating his experience about the burning bush. What I am trying to say is when we encounter God our lives are changed and we are placed on a mission for God’s purpose and no matter how we try we can’t run from it. Sometimes it feels like it was better I didn’t know, because knowing gives you a determine push from the Holy Spirit and it doesn’t matter how long it takes God prepares you until you’re ready, patiently moulding and shaping you for His purpose for you.

For a long time I’ve been hiding because God had a few finishing touches on my life in preparation to complete my being. The pain, fears, doubts…all negativity (sin) that laid dominant and strong within my soul has now been abolished. With everything that has been going on in the world today God’s calling prophets and preachers to do a mighty work in our world. “Now are you going to take your place and stand to fulfill the needs of others in preparation for the drastically changing world and the returning of the Lord?”

Matthew 9:37 “The harvest truly is plenteous, but the labourers are few.” Let’s get real for a moment, we do have enough labourers in our world today, but the problem is they are being judged and condemn especially the ‘Mega labourers’ for their wealth and fame by the Pharisees and the Sadducees of today’s world. If they are in it (having a church, preaching and teaching) for the wrong reason the Lord knows, and it will only be a matter of time till they fall in the sight of the entire world(social media). “God can’t be mocked!” But the devil sure tries and uses the innocent and vulnerable to his advantage. God is in control. It is not when things get worst for humanity means God is losing control that’s is when his power and authority is in full force all around our misbehaving, disobedient, rebellious, selfish…power trippin’ selves. “The devil will always try if we let him, but rebuke him in the name of Jesus!”

My thoughts as I sit and watch the funeral of Queen Elizabeth II. I can’t help but think to myself after Her Majesty passing, “where do we go from here?. Not just the world, but the entire royal family. This is a sad day, but the out pouring of respect and love for the Queen from all over the world says a lot about who she was as a human being and head of state. This is a marking of an extraordinary movement of God in which has been done in our world. I believe it is a sign to the beginning of something. We had the plague, fires and climate disasters…and now the sovereign of seventy decades passes. “Brace ourselves. something is coming, I can’t help but feel this within my spirit.” We can only pray that it is something good like Jesus return. Things has gotten so bad and chaotic in our world today with humanity and it’s getting worst, even with the truth and the word of God to guide us, we are still not taking into consideration the lessons we are to have learned. Prejudice, hatred, racism, war, enslavement to have dominion and power, unforgiving, lies, murdering…everything that has been detrimental (sin) to the existence of the future of humanity in which we are yet to overcome. As it was in the beginning we’re still disobedience to the loving Father of us all. “When will we ever learn?”

At least Jesus with all his love for his earthly family was able to come back (resurrection) to his disciples in the upper room after his crucifixion to encourage them to move forward with all that he’d taught, and showed them. He didn’t just leave written instructions, but his divine presence intervene as witness to enable their weak and broken soul. Sometimes I wish our loved ones will return to us and also give us encouragement to press on forward. Maybe they do, but man has fallen so far from God we no longer have that ability to hear them, being caught up with the things of world.

With every passing of someone that made an impact in our lives we should recognize how important it is to live good and do good. You don’t want your legacy to go down in history as the worst human being ever. Knowing we’re flawed doesn’t give us the excuse not to strive and fight against our imperfections, do the best we can to make this world we’re living in a better place for ourselves and the generations to come. To bring about love, unity, mercy, peace and compassion like our Heavenly Father, reflect Him within us.

It feels like a helpless emotion after the passing of a loved one. Change is hard, but the human spirit is resilient . At the moment we feel stuck in time to move forward, holding on to the moment that seems to have ripped through our soul, the passing of a loved one. Going forward is hard, but we must move along regardless, because time waits for no one, and moving forward, is life goes on. The difference between moving forward and time, is emotionally we can be held back form moving forward, if we don’t take control of it and it takes discipline to move with time as it keeps ticking away not waiting. “We can’t hold back the hands of time.”

“Oh Lord, do have mercy on us!”

1 Samuel 8 The people ask for a king. What was sad about this request is revealed in verse 7: And the Lord told Samuel, “ listen to all that the people are saying to you; it is not you they have rejected, but they have rejected me as their king. You can hear and feel the rejection of God in His word, His heart is truly broken over it. We rejected God for a man, “but I get it, man we can see, but God we can’t.” It takes unwavering and steadfast faith in which much of us is lacking to acknowledge His presence in our lives. People rather have someone they can see versus an unseen God. It is so much easier to connect with what you can see. The one thing we don’t take into consideration is man is flawed. The imperfections of man through sin causes so much turmoil to one self as well as others.

Verse 9: “warn them solemnly and let them know what the king who will reign over them will do.” And as Samuel prophesied all the things the people would endure having an earthly king which to me was very serious to contemplate, especially the part of being his slave after what they experienced in Egypt. But the people refused to listen it didn’t detour them, like spoiled children having a tantrum, just wanting what they want without thought of the consequences. But what struck me is the Lord give them what they asked with humility. He’s God! If He was a man, right away He would of answered them with boast and pride of who He is, “I am God, and how dear you? Worship me, I am your king, all you need.” But God with all humility gave the people what they wanted, but warned them of the consequences. From since then when man was given a king as they requested of God, suffered under his rule for choosing man naively over God. It was not God’s intention for us, but what we want.

After what happened in the garden of Eden with the serpent causing Eve to sin by being disobedient to God, I couldn’t help but ponder at the kind of God we have, He still give us the right to choose, instead of a dictatorship. Our obedience to God is for own welfare, there’s dire consequences for not being obedient as we’ve learned through Adam and Eve. God does everything for our well being. He doesn’t need our worship and praises, He has the angel in heaven doing that already. Our worship, prayer and praises is our way of connecting and communicating with God. And God loves having a relationship with man, so pray, get angry, cry throw a fit…whatever He’s got you, like a parent who no matter how difficult a child may be never give up on them and stand with them through it all with love.

Jesus had come into our world to lay the foundation of God’s kingdom to humanity. And no kingdom in our world today that belongs to God is going to stand lest its foundation is according to the Father’s Will given to man by the son. The return of the son to the Lord’s kingdom here on earth is not an institution he’s coming to built by the hands of man, but predicated upon how its constructed within humanity hearts, mind, body and spirit. How well learnt and discipline are we to the word of God and humanity history of past wrong doings. It’s all about God and the movement of Jesus life death and resurrection, its infectiousness upon us all in the world. Jesus is not coming because the world is in trouble, he already did. He’s coming for the fulfilment of his reign for all those who are blind in faith and can’t see it is he that’s truly the king of us all.

God has called some people to stand as his light in view of others for His Will and purpose in the world. People may think you’ve got it all and your life is so easy. But if only they knew the truth our light is to shine to glorify God in us not ourselves. We are not to be prideful or indulge in the accolades of others, but have an humble, loving, compassionate, merciful, forgiving nature like our heavenly Father. Some of us are blind and unaware of this wisdom, knowledge and understanding or the eyes to see that it’s all about God. Instead we worship the man, idolizing the person as they are a God. Putting weights upon them they cannot carry, making our expectations of them so high that when they disappoint us we move to hating on them in such an evil way, forgetting they like ourselves are only human.

God’s kingdom is to rule the entire earth, to reign taking over the world kingdoms. For this reason the kingdoms of this world must fall to give rise to the true kingdom. The spreading of truth has fully taken over the world regardless of the enemy wanted to pollute the truth with deceptions, lies, manipulating and confusing even to those who are chosen by God to lead all people. All people are God’s people (children).

There was once a time the Royals was insignificant to me. It was only the marriage of Princess Diana to Prince Charles that had caught my attention. Every little girl love fairytales love stories in my days, after all these stories enticed the imaginations. We didn’t have technology, movies and television like today to keep our imaginations occupied. Reading was the source back then, the only way to open up our imaginations. Fantasizing of one day getting married who wouldn’t wished it to have been fairytale like we all had believed Prince Charles and Princess Diana was as portrait in the media. There’s no young girl or woman brought up in western world with its influences that doesn’t have this kind of sentiment concerning marriage.

Learning about Her majesty Queen Elizabeth life became an obsession to me as to what she could have in common to the Queen of all Queen, Mother Mary, mother of Jesus. I had so many questions like why would she be the only living queen so popular in our word? And like Mother Mary was she chosen from among many women, honoured and favoured? Understanding her back ground from her parents to her position as to becoming Queen is nothing but a calling to destiny, I thought. Everything about her life was orchestrated by the hand of God, I truly believe. And as a woman Her Majesty The Queen empowered me as I learned that a woman can play an important role in the world dominated by men, especially back in the days when woman was only to be wives at home, having children and up keeping a home, seen but not heard. She has changed for me the perspective in which I saw the role of a woman in the world as a young girl. I couldn’t believe a woman could play such an important role as sovereign. Queen Elizabeth The II, the only Queen I’d known that existed in our world as a child and I was blown away she was not an entertainer like a movie star, but she being a queen was a job and a big responsibility.

Seventy decades of service, commend enough respect. Seven the number of completion and this amazing Queen reigned. No one can do such a thing without the Lord guidance, I call her God chosen Queen. Her Majesty had done a fantastic job that we all can model after, duty before all else, a true servant of God. I could just imagine her as she’s before God right now, as He says to her, “my beloved servant whom I am well pleased.” Her service, loyalty and leadership is untouchable and cannot ever be replicated. A one in a million only for our century we got to thank the Lord for her presence in our time. Yes, I know her relevance to a lot of people is not one of any importance, even to resentment and for some hated for the institute she represented, guilty by heritage. There’s the talk of enslavement and cruelty which I believe had nothing to do with her reign. She was born into an institution dominated by man with rules and regulations out of her control. What she had an ability to change she changed but we all know with us humans we’re never satisfied and always want more. Things take time to grow and change. I am just so happy there’s now the rule for the royals to marry for love and not prestige. Even with her passing things are still changing. We all must stop holding on to the bad and think of the good that we as humans who are so imperfect do, to keep hope and most of all love and peace alive, not focussing on the bad to fuel negativity resulting in division instead of unity.

Three times I was moved to tears watching the television news about the passing of Her Majesty. The first was the brothers Prince William and Prince Harry and there spouses together greeting the people, the proclamation of King Charles The III with his son Prince William at his side thinking if only things had worked out differently Princess Diana would of been there also, and the removing of the of Her Majesty coffin from the hearse into the St. Giles’ Cathedral in Edinburgh couldn’t help it the tears just kept coming. I felt something in my spirit that said the world has just lost an very important woman of God The Head Of State, of the East, West, North and South. What an authority, powerful position given to woman who represented well. Not even Kings of the past can even be compared to her extraordinary reign. Sorry men, but according to MC Hammer, “ U can’t touch this.” She makes me so proud to be a woman, because we as women can do it all.

Very much loved and sadly already missed. One Queen that change the perspective of what it means to be a woman in charge, authentic who served with such excellence and very much loved and admired. Would ever be known to me as The Queen of Legacy for our century. There’s this eerie feeling now that the Queens has died, like a warning to all humanity that something is going to happen to our world when someone of this status passes on, the world would never be the same again. A great change is coming to the life we known for so long.

Queen Elizabeth II, “I f it hadn’t been for the Lord who was on your side, you reign! Rest In Peace and love my Queen.”

Everyone like when good things happens to them. There’s nothing like being blessed and highly favoured. But are we aware that it’s a blessing or do we just feel entitled? The worst thing to me is when blessed and highly favoured can make one feel entitled and yet so ungrateful. We are all created in the image of God, though clothed in flesh. It is the spirit within us that gives the essence of God in our being. The conscious to me is the spirit of God that dwells in us. When we are awaken spiritually, we are connected to the heavenly realm. Being in the world but, not fully of it, tapping into spiritual frequencies broadening the intellect of mind by using more than the five senses, but the seventh senses which means complete.

I’ve realized there are people who love indulging themselves with the kindness of others and give nothing back in return. Its one thing to give back to the one to whom you freely received from, especially in times of great need. But when you’re stingy and selfish that you don’t even give to whom has given you, even when opportunity arises to give back, to me, you seriously have a problem, if it doesn’t bother you at all. Maybe it’s a psychological mental thing, I just can’t comprehend. I do believe we all have a conscious, some of us are in tuned with it and some just ignore or turn it off. To be conscience to me is like the voice of God or your guardian angel speaking to you. Any time you hear a voice encouraging you to do wrong, it’s obviously it’s the devil.

I want to believe that I am not the only one who feels the way I do about the conscience-stricken mind. I constantly fight within myself whenever I do or say something out of character to hurt someone in anyway, especially unintentionally. Always reflecting on how I would like to be treated and trusting and believing that just as I wouldn’t intentionally hurt someone, people are likewise. But not truth at all, people can be so cruel and selfish. Why would God allow me to feel this way, always wanting to be pleasing, truthful and good to others. When I was younger, I felt good for having this blessings. But as I grew up, family, friends, acquaintances and people I’d try to help put me through nothing but drama for trying to do what I’d considered was good, good as Jesus himself would of done, which caused me such pain that traumatized me. Leaving me questioning myself if it’s worth it to suffer myself the selfishness and ingratitudes of people and the effect it has on me. It’s one thing I had to deal with the disappointment, hurt and pain from friend, acquaintance and strangers, but from my loved ones it broke me. The pain has caused me to be frustrated, resentful, angry, bitter at myself and the spirit of fearful crept in continually prevent me from fulfilling God’s call on my life. PTSD has consumed my soul over powering my mind, but thanks be to the Lord the Comforter my helper and guide broke through to my spirit setting me this sinner captive free, “Hallelujah, praise the Lord!” And continually working on me to help me overcome.

I believe God choses specific people like myself and many others in the world to awake our conscience mind for His purpose. There are things about our lives unlike others, we are not allowed. You are called to be and do a work for the purpose of God from birth. You don’t discover there’s a God, you know that there is. Everything about your life is orchestrated for you to come into acknowledgement of His Will and the purpose. Fighting, screaming and running, isn’t going to some how prevent your purpose from being fulfilled. When everyone can do what seems like anything and get away with it, even if you try and attempt it you’re completely blocked, warned by total strangers, have a dreams or couldn’t no matter how determined. Then that voice, the conscience voice of the mind speaks to you. God puts certain people in the world to be His angels going around blessing others with an awareness of duty, but yet sometimes like an innocent little child screams, “not fear, not fear at all,” when it seems like others can do anything and get away with it and you’re confined. You’re confined, but by something much more greater and better, for your own well being.

Sometimes it becomes frustrating, lonely and sad for having a conscience-stricken mind. You understand you’re different, but the demands of life can be more than you can bear, especially when you see others prosper on the goodness you were blessed by God to give. Then you’re feeling like no one’s there to do the same for you, your energy feels depleted, having no more to give. That’s the devil speaking to you because all that you were giving was never yours to begin with. Scripture declares, “His strength is made perfect in our weaknesses and he never gives us more than we can handle.” The devil is a liar! And he sure is good at convincing you of his lies. You’ll be fighting within yourself especially when being hurt by others for doing good or the right thing. You can recognize a conscience-stricken mind shouldn’t have you battling within. You should have no confusion, feeling depressed…and being hard on yourself once you’re following Jesus and that’s truly what you’re suppose to do. Look what happened to Him for all the good he has done and he wasn’t people pleasing he was being obedient to the Father. “He was God fearing, God willing, God purposeful and most of all God loving!”