Gone but not forgotten, I love and miss him so much. The world could have never contain a light so bright for long. This entire week all I did knowing the anniversary of his transition was this weekend, I spent my time watching every video and concert about Micheal Jackson over and over again on YouTube. I couldn’t help but prayed and asked the Lord to reveal to me why Micheal had such a profound impact on some people lives when I saw the multitude of fans at his concerts and then at the same time there were those who hated, hurt and persecuted him. This is the answer to my question John 15:18-19 Jesus said, “If the world hates you, understand that it hated Me first. If you were of the world, it would love you as it’s own. Instead, the world hates you, because you are not of the world, but I have chosen you out the world.” And the question to ask is, why did the world hated Jesus?

Micheal did a lot of good besides his musical career, helping a lot of people all over the world through charities. I get it the musical side was used to soothe and electrify our souls, it was also prophetic. But truly he was a light in which the Lord was showing Himself mightily, we call it genius. The energy that radiated from him in his music and on stage was magnetic, no one can resist its power, God image in man manifested. “Brilliant, blessed and highly favoured by God.” Like king David to Saul, when the evil spirit from the Lord plagued king Saul making him agitated and fearful 1 Samuel 16:23. Micheal music soothe our soul also, if I could speak for other like myself who feels the same way. I can’t help but believe the same spirit is plaguing our world today, we can sure use his gift. I promised I wasn’t going to cry, but here comes the tears when I think of him. Whole week I held back my tears as I recalled the times I was broken, afraid and felt hopeless; his music and my love for him give me the drive and strength to continue with this life in hopes to one day meet him. He was my first boyfriend, we’d write songs tour the world together doing concerts, my husband, the father of my children. “Boy did I ever had an imagination.” The impact he had on my life from the age of five, remembering watching the Jackson 5ive cartoons on the weekend. He brought me joy and happiness in the darkness days of my life with his music and my imagination.

“ I would never idolize any human being, with all our imperfections, sorry, but no way, you’re just disappointing and that’s a fact I know too we’ll.” I don’t idolize Micheal I see him for who he truly is not just a famous person but a human being, a kindred spirit. Decades ago I went on a spiritual retreat a married woman, mother, and had my forth child five months prior. At the retreat I had experience, witnessed and learned things about this life that I never knew before and Micheal was part of it all and that’s all I am going to say. When Moses went out to the people of Israel to deliver them according to what the Lord had spoken to him and he spoke to pharaoh he did exactly that, no where is it written in the scriptures he mentioned to both the people or pharaoh about the burning bush he saw.

Micheal Jackson is one of the real deal of our century, many has come before, but no other entertainer before or after him can ever be like him. He’s God’s original and I say this will all humility, truth and authority of the spirit within me. What did Jesus say? John 14:12 “ Verily truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. Micheal did do great work, and he represented even in the storms in his life.

I use to say that there are so many gifted people in the world and we’ll never ever get to see or even know who they are, but here comes the internet and social media, “Isn’t Good good!” And it’s not only about entertainers only. Jesus disciples are camouflage in all walks of life in our world. With the internet we get to see not only the rich and famous, but normal, regular people all over the world who are also world changers being blessed with amazing gifts, so inspiring.

One thing that I acknowledge about this life, no matter how brilliant and a genius you may be or even a regular person there’s always a demon we all have to be fighting. And the demon comes in many forms and situations in our lives. We struggle with health, fear, pain, drug abuse, finances, homelessness, hunger, depression, loneliness, emotional trauma, sibling rivalry, jealousy among others, and the list goes on. All these things becomes a blockage to our highest self, refusing to allow perfection in our being. A brokenness preventing the wholeness of God within us to grow and gives us perfection, like he our Father is. The negative forces of this world refuse to allow goodness to reign without putting up a fight. It’s sad to say, but in this world it’s hard to be good, because they take bad for good and good for bad. And if you’re good it tries its best to make you bad by plaguing on your innocence, love, mercy, compassion…kindness for other through deception and manipulation, braking you down emotionally, mentally and physically. The wages of sin has to be death, because we can’t live like this forever.

Micheal Jackson got me through the worst times in life when he was here with is music and presence. All I had was to offer him was my prayers, praying the Lord would watch over and protected him as I heard of all allegation that was against him. Each time he’d escaped the jaws of the enemy they kept on trying. The last court case really took a toll on him and I can’t help but believe God reached down from heaven and snatched him out of this world, he was going right back into life storm unknowingly. It was hard to except God’s will for Micheal, calling him home so early, knowing how much he meant to the world and his family. I love him so much I’d refuse to let go and say goodbye, but I do understand he’s no longer suffering. Sometimes when I meditate on the condition of this world today I truly understand why God takes certain people out the world because he know what we all can, can’t handle and I believe empathetic, big hearted, loving and caring Micheal, would of been broken as I am over it all.

My heart still breaks and aches for him. It is not his soul that needs to “Rest In Peace” it’s mine. In memory of him my love light is shining as reminder to him in heaven, here on earth he’s still loved and missed, never forgotten.

Why were God’s people, the Israelites, always scattered? It was because of disobedience; they rejected God’s covenant and refused to listen and obey God. First they were in Egypt, Babylon, Persia, Greece and Rome and then all over the world even today.

I had an epiphany when meditating on what’s the meaning of the return of the Israelites to the promised homeland. The promised homeland is not a place, but is it a higher state of consciousness; being in one with the Lord where sin no longer has dominion over us. We can acknowledge it when confronted in our minds and rebuke its control over us. The Lord wants his people to return back to Him as Adam before sin entered in. Whether consciously, unconsciously or subconsciously, the power and authority of God is moving upon the minds of humanity for the restoration of our soul. The only homeland is back to God being our one and all. Even the garden of Eden wasn’t a place as we know it to be, but utopia where man was in spirit, body and not flesh. Sin caused flesh covering because it no longer allowed Adam and Eve to see with spiritual eyes, but natural eyes and with the natural eyes they saw nakedness(darkness) within themselves instead of the the pure light of God glowing that was their covering.

There are some of us walking with the mark of Cain on our foreheads because of sin, Genesis 4:15 And the Lord set a mark upon Cain, lest any find him should kill him. We refuse to acknowledge the truth that has been set before us through Christ. Though the blood has been spilled and sprinkled and has landed on on the entire earth as a sacrifice for sin, some of us still struggle and can’t help for the devil is in our midst. Jesus recognizing that it’s not our fault, it’s a struggle for humanity and refuses to give up on us.

Truth is out here fighting against lies, that it is so bright it is shining to the the point of disbelief and non-acceptance. It has now become controversial, another attack of the enemy in our midst. If there is ever a time that we need discernment it is now. We must pray for the Holy Spirit; comforter, to fall on us and grant us discernment. Our eyes are deceiving us and so are our ears. When we watch the news and hear what is going on it’s considered fake news; even what’s on social media postings. What’s going on? We are losing sight of truth. Long ago we had to suck things up and act like everything was great when it really wasn’t. We had to cover up with so much lies and sneaking around. But today in the ‘Reveal’, it’s all nakedness with no shame or reprimand for immortality, consequences such as going to hell. Hell the biggest threat there use to be, when God and heaven was once first priority in our lives.

As I am writing, I can’t help but believe that my thoughts is inspired by the Lord. We can no longer pretend or as the young people says, “fakes it.” Not in His temple(body) all unrighteousness must be purified by coming out of hiding. The enemy in me, the desires of the flesh fighting against the spirit in me. What’s happening is irrespective of the person, their race, religion, social status etc. The ‘Reveal’ is to expose truth, finishing what Jesus started on the cross, I believe. All that’s in the dark is now coming to light; nothing is hidden anymore. Like an infection, the wound has to be drained of all pus for it to heal. The world is so swollen and infected with sin. Truth and all righteousness will bring about the healing.

To understand who the Israelites are, remember Jacob the only son of God, true friend and faithful servant of Abraham and his wife Sarah. Jacob stole his brother’s Esau birthright, ran away to his uncle Laban house out of fear of his brother’s retribution for his deceit over a bowl of stew. After serving his uncle for years, he has himself been deceived by his uncle for a wife has decided to now once again runaway to return home knowing his brother Esau who’s probably still angry at him and now his uncle for him leaving with his daughters and grandchildren. Who else can he turn to but the Lord. So he made up his mind to wrestle with the Lord until he blesses his soul. He stayed at the place he called Bethel on his way to his uncle. He stayed overnight, set up an altar onto the Lord where he had a vision and believed the Lord to be in that place, Genesis 27-32. Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.

Have you ever struggled with God/man and had to overcome? Then like Jacob you’re an Israelite! Jesus’ life, death and resurrection have merged us all together as one sons/daughters of God. Scattered we must have been, but the truth, knowledge, wisdom and understanding of God was given to us by the manifestation of the Word, “Jesus” John 1: 1-5“ In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God, and the Word was God…And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.”

No longer are we to be wandering all over the world; our place is in Christ Jesus. We have to stand in him and through him. He’s not a place to be found, he’s a way to be in this here world. Jesus fought with flesh(humanity) and the devil till death and won the victory. It’s because of him, grace came to be. Sin has penetrated the world that his being is the way we all must model after. This is how we are to discern if a man/woman is of God. When we show love, compassion, mercy, humility, willing to serve others, treat them way we’ll want to be treated, with no judgment or condemnation and have forgiveness and a conscious mind to God’s will and purpose at any cost to be done…having the characteristics of Christ, grounded knowing who we truly are.

To be deeply cut and wounded by tragedy that traumatized, you’re totally out of control mentally, and physically. A deep wound that takes time to heal. The scar on the outside heal pretty fast, because we can walk and talk like nothing is wrong, concealing the truth. But the real healing begins with recognizing the brokenness and then can continue for months, sometimes up to years on the inside. Deeply cut and wounded is a constant reminder of being in this battle field called life with its valley and wilderness of tears. Severely paralyzed, inconceivable therapy can help, knowing that medication can’t heal emotions or a broken spirit. You got to seek spiritual healing.

“The battle is mine,’’ says the Lord, according to scriptures. But then he put you in the war zone and says to trust him, when you’re pierced by fear against the knowledge of what you’re about to face and fight. There are two emotions that can leave a person paralyzed and confused as to what to do, and that is love and fear. With emotions running so high, how can we find the confidence and peace in the word, especially when ambushed unexpectedly by the enemy? Already vulnerable with a lost of hope is when we need to feel the Lord at work within us immediately, and He has, but in midst of our pain and suffering we don’t acknowledge Him taking away the fear and doubt that makes us lose faith.

Timing according to humanity isn’t the same as for God, who’s a spirit. Spiritual time has no seconds, minutes or hours, because it doesn’t move slow, but swiftly without a count. God moves swiftly, but we are so unaware because we have to deal with second, minutes and hours all to do with timing from one point to another going around in a circle. Like an elevator for us there’s only up and down, but could you imagine it going side to side, left, right and in a circle, that’s what God’s time is like. In times of troubles a quick fix is what we require of the God who’s timing seems slow, but yet some how right on time.

What may works for me doesn’t necessarily means it will work for you. There are somethings about life that’s not a one solution fits all. We have to stop measuring ourselves to others. We are are all different in some ways with our strength and weaknesses, but never alone. There’s always someone you can identify with as having similar circumstances or characteristics as you. Overcoming trauma in our live takes fortitude and steadfastness . Some of us can be so fragile that we’re easily broken and some very resilient.

No doctor, preacher, prophet, life coach, or guru can penetrate a wound so deep with an everlasting effect when it come to emotion. You’re hyped up for a while feeling like you’re floating on air and then something happens a déjà view, flash back, a certain incident something that brings you right back to that state of mind, the enemy. A healing wound has some how reopened as soon as the bandage was ready to be taken completely off. You got to rebuke the enemy for your survival.

Knowing fire burns, you become afraid of fire. Your natural instincts kicks in when you know you’re too close to fire, you move away immediately with fear of being burnt or consumed. It’s your natural reflex when touching something hot, you drop it. But needing to use fire to cook, or you’re a fire fighter and almost lost your life in a fire, your fears shouldn’t get the best of you, you’ve got to take control of it. What choices do you have when you are challenge with the only solution to your situation is to face it head on. You can’t fight against a storm, you can take cover and pray it will pass. It is up to you to take control of your emotions with the discipline of the mind to get you through. Start by calling on the Lord, plead with him for help and deliverance, and believe it’s already done. It’s never a losing battle if you’ve got faith. If you believe in God wholeheartedly then you got to know He’s in control of the storm, you shouldn’t be afraid, Philippians 4:6-7 “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God…

Cry out to the Lord, Psalm 130: 1-2 “out of the depths have I cried unto thee O Lord. Lord, hear my voice: let thine ears be attentive to the voice of my supplications.” There’s no other help we know, when all else has failed us. The Lord’s help is everlasting it’s for all eternity, not to hype you up temporarily. An encounter with the Lord can give you the healing miracle in whatever situation you maybe going through by fasting and praying. Ephesians 6:11 “ Put on the whole armour of God” Especially when emotionally paralyzed.

The devil is a deceiver, there’s nothing impossible for God where we His children is concerned. Give over unto Him the most difficult situations in your life and He will deliver you. He’s a miracle working God!

The world is crazy and chaotic right now. According to Ephesians 6:12 the powers and principalities, spiritual wickedness in high places…is showing itself mighty strong in what’s taking place in our world today, in which I believe is causing us to be mentally spiritually depleted, we need God. We are so busy today, distracted by so many things especially technology, God is not on our priority list. But we need Him now more than ever. We are slipping into darkness unaware. But we are so lucky we have a God who doesn’t changed. His love, concerns, and commitment to humanity remains always. No matter how we treat God He’ll never walks away leaving us in the midst of our troubles. The Lord is our anchor, but the strong current of this life keeps us drifting far away from Him, sometimes due to our own choices and disobedience.

We must ask ourselves this question, “am I living up to the will and purpose of God, or am I truly missing the point? What does God truly require of me?” Think for a moment, in the beginning it was obedience, so shall it be in the end. It all began with our obedience Adam and Eve. Obedience is for our own benefit. God wants us to acknowledge His presence in our lives and yes, once we do, it doesn’t mean we’ll never be without problems. But knowing the Lord’s with us is trusting Him in times of trials we can be like Jesus asleep in the boat in the midst of a storm, with no worries, but faith the storm will pass, Mark 4:38-40. God want for us to serve(help) one another with love and respect, to be each other’s keeper. God desires for humanity as I understand it, is to fulfil our needs like a parent making sure we’re clothed, fed and protected…Even though He provides our needs, He always takes into consideration our wants. Working with and through us, using our weaknesses to show His strength within us in times of struggles. We all do have to question ourselves because in wanting to fulfill His will and purpose in our lives we should not assume we are, let Him be the judge of that. After all His thoughts are not like ours, neither His ways, Isaiah 55:8. We all can understand and acknowledge, to be human is to make mistakes, no such thing as perfection. I constantly remind myself, “ those without sin cast the first stone.” And there’s no way I could hold a stone much less to cast it at anyone. Matthew 7:5 “you hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the spect from your brother’s eye. In this scripture Jesus is pointing out the people who believe themselves to be perfect or even equal to God that they judge and condemn others. Search yourself, does this sound like something you do?

I am sure there’s others like myself that are sometimes at a lost with the wisdom, knowledge and understanding of God. As I read the Ten Commandments, I couldn’t help but question the Holy Spirit when the Lord says, “ you shall have no other gods before me. Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image(idols).” Is God acknowledging that there’s other Gods? I thought. Is He just stating, there’s no other besides Himself, so don’t even consider it and nothing is to replace Him as being first in our lives. Was God demonstrating He can foresee what’s in our hearts and minds? God knew because we couldn’t see Him face to face we were going to create a likeness of what we believe Him to be or resemble,us. As for an graven image (idol) God is adamant that we believe in Him by faith only, not by normal senses of what we can touch, see…the evidence in which we’ve known to operate by as our proof of truth. Why wouldn’t God want us to idolize Him (graven image), it’s because God has a problem with ‘forms,’ which are not truth and original. 2 Timothy 3:5 “having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.” Have we ever thought to ourselves whenever we call God, ‘Him’ giving God humanistic features and characteristics we’re breaking the commandments. When God said to Moses, “I am that I am, Exodus 3:14. I understood it as God not giving man any specific name, gender, authority…other than to say I am, which to me means everything beyond comprehension that a name or a tile cannot be referenced, but an real life being that exists. God is not complicated. Whenever I meditate upon “I am that I am” and it reverberates in my mind constantly I don’t see God, but I feel God like power of electricity rushing through my body. When God had spoken to Moses it was not just a soft spoken “I am, that I am,” but a confident, bold authoritative “I am that I am” with power. I am pretty sure when God said that lightning and thunder sounded.

As for me I truly believe taking God out of our lives, the image in which we are created we can’t help but feel lost, like being in darkness. God is the light of our lives we are not powerful enough like God to take on the darkness as though it be light(same). The darkness consumes us too often because of sin. God is the heart beat of our lives. The body can’t live without the heart that supplies the blood flow to the entire body and that what God is to our soul. He reaches to the places of our being by His flow in us that we ourselves can’t see or touch neither anyone else for that matter. God never disconnects, but we do when we don’t remain aware or except and acknowledge His presence. It like not ever knowing how much every party of your body is important from the crown of your head to the sole of your feet until one day a discomfort, pain, illness…something goes wrong disrupt the body’s natural flow. The heart can be functioning perfectly until a blood clot, comes and disrupts it’s flow. Sin in our lives is like the clot that disrupt the flow of God in us, then we are wondering why life is so difficult?