We take for granted our health. “If it’s not broken no need to fix it.”Some of us feels the same way about our physical and mental health. As long as we feel ok and we can move around and do the things we’re accustomed doing, even with a little pain and discomfort, as long as we can get through it, then, nothing is really wrong. We always wait until it’s more than we can handle to realize something is seriously wrong, like severe pain causing immobility

Here I am counting down the days until I find out the results of my biopsy and she died. This is the second time I am on this path. The first time I was terrified, just thought of cancer petrified me. But the closer my relationship got with the Lord and I’ve become more mature as His child, I fear no more rather this kills me or not, because no matter what, one day I will pass on, death is inevitable. I am not going to spend my time worrying about when and how I am going to die. As long as God is with me whenever, however it is alright with me. How can I have faith in God and fear death. My faith will carry me into the arms of my saviour in death as it has kept me here on this earth through the good and the bad.

Look how the devil is so wicked, two days ago my son wife lost her mother to breast cancer. God call her home from all her suffering. We had a good heart felt conversation as two mothers, at our grandson birthday party. I told her to fight, stop wearing black clothing like she’s mourning her life already. So I went out and bought her some uplifting colours of clothing to wear. This was not her first battle, she’d fought before and won, but it came back. I believed in my heart she was going to win this one also. But the phone call that morning brought me to tears, and I can’t stop thinking about her as one mother to another, OMG! For it was only a few weeks we had our conversation about God, life, health and family and now she’s dead. I cried for almost an hour. I heard a voice in my head saying, “ this could be you next.” But I know the devil is liar! I haven’t gotten my results yet and for a second reality of it did hit me, but in Jesus almighty name, I rebuke the devil to get behind me. I felt it in my spirit that my son mother-in-law knew this was going to be it for her, because when she said they couldn’t operate anymore, they would try a new medication that may give her a few more years to live, if it works, she then smiled and said, “ whatsoever God’s plan, I believes in Jesus, I have faith, I’m not afraid.”

Her death makes me want to live and not take for granted every moment of this life. She suffered really suffered because she had refused to take stronger medication to help with the pain as to not be incoherent to her love ones. She sacrificed herself for her love ones. She was brave and so strong…Sorry I can’t write anymore my heart is breaking.