Sadly one year ago on April 28, 2020, I lost my Father to Covid-19. I took for granted he’d always be around, especially when I think of the times I should of made it more a priority to visit than I did. “Don’t we all who has lost a love one say this same thing, I could of! Should of!” Gone too soon without a chance for me to say goodbye. The image of him laying sick in a bed alone without someone to hold his hand and attend to his every needs, keeps playing in my mind. It’s devastating the places hit the first and hardest with the pandemic and lost of so many lives was the retirement homes for the elderly with fewer staff to help out because they themselves contracted the disease. Like this happens to make us recognize the importance of our responsibilities in caring for our aging parents not someone else. But the world today doesn’t allow us, even with our children, they give to stranger from as young as six months, “Why?”Because we all must work, both mothers and fathers.

The pandemic like some sort of punishment to our humanity is the worst time to loose a love one. My father’s body had to remain in the funeral home for a long period of time before we could have his funeral and to add to my grievances living in another province didn’t help. Then there was a limitation to how many people could attend. “If it hadn’t been for God, I don’t know how I would of made it through.” The thought of God who has given man the breath of life, and that breath is our spirit. All I could do to not worry about his body laying around waiting was to envision my father’s spirit going back to the arms of God which the most important than his body, the vessel for his spirit. I pray for him to be in the arms of the Father resting and at peace letting go of this world. I thought about how many others going through the same thing, getting that phone call of the passing of a loved one and you’re so far away.

My father would not have gotten the award as a good father from any of his children, he was very awful at it. It seemed to my siblings, like I was the apple of his eyes, out of thirteen children, but he loved us all very much. He spoke about each and everyone of his children with such pride. He was very proud of us all, he bragged about us to his friends and even acquaintances we’d meet. I was the only one who had the heart and patience to put up with him. He one day confessed the reason him and my other siblings couldn’t get along is because they were too much like him and he laughed. He knew me better than I knew myself. He’ll always refer to me when I was child as being an old soul. My father had a way of making me feel like I can do and be anything, just set my mind to it. He put me on a pedestal and I never wanted to disappoint. He believed me to be compassionate, merciful, loving and caring….And I was because I wanted so desperately to please him. He taught me about God and the spirituality in the world. My father was the first person to preach God to me at the age of ten and not religion. He told me to follow God and God alone not man. He’d say things like be a leader in God’s business not a follower, and I am gifted. My dad made me want to be the best person I could ever be. He believed in me and trust I will always do the right things. It was very hard on me when I’d messed up and do wrong, but all the more reason, for his sake I fought to make it right. That’s what I love about him despite his short comings he was my greatest motivator. His role in my life was like that of God, my tur Father in heaven I’d say to myself at times in the way he loved, trust and believed in me even when I didn’t. When we’d talked especially about God, I could feel his passion and understood where I got it from. I understood him not through him, the man, but that part in him, the spiritual side. He fought hard between the flesh and the spirit, it’s what made him so awful at times.

My father my hero. As a baby no more than three years old, I remember my father had gone abroad, and I was so distraught at his leaving I got very ill, wanting to go with him. My father use to take us kids for a ride in his car whenever we’d cried to go along with him. I was shown an airplane and told that’s what my father went away on and it became a comfort. So every time I saw one while playing outside I would say, “daddy, daddy is coming,” jumping with joy. I believed so wholeheartedly it was him coming to get me. I don’t recall how many times maybe I’ve done that until one day he really did come. I was in a serious situation and prayed to God that my dad would come and rescue me, sure enough out of the blue he showed up. Another time having my first child almost died and he showed up to take me to the hospital even volunteered to give blood, first time I realized we were the same blood type.

The relationship I had with my dad, I can now look back on and say we both have nothing lift unsaid. We talked, laughed, cried and know each other’s truth and adoration. Words cannot express my gratitude to God, for I know in my heart, “ if it hadn’t been for the Lord,” my father and I relationship wouldn’t have been such a blessing because He was always present in it. I always knew in my heart as young woman if a man can’t treat me like my dad, with the love, respect, support, honesty…”He ain’t worth my time or love.”

“Rest In Peace Daddy!”

Paul the Apostle, formally known as Saul of Tarsus a Pharisee, and a murderer of the followers of Christ. When on the road to Damascus, himself was converted to be a follower of Christ. Paul is one of greatest advocate for our Lord and savior Jesus consider the founder of Christianity. He is the major figure within the early Christian movement and played a crucial role in spreading the gospel to the Gentiles (non-Jews). Also considered one of the greatest religious leaders of all time because his books in the Bible has a enormous influence on Christianity. He wrote thirteen books out of twenty-seven in the New Testament and started more than a dozen churches.

I couldn’t help but wonder, why was Paul chosen for such a task and not one of Jesus’s disciples? He was not one who loved and cared about Jesus and his mission, but an adversary. Paul, I should say is more like a police, prosecutor and judge because to make sure people upholds the religious laws and traditions as written, he prosecuted and killed anyone who didn’t and was a threat to it, as were Jesus and those who followed him. Paul was a man of Faith, but was fighting on the wrong side of it by believing his human perspective of God was the truth and only way.

The Holy Spirit, revealer of God truth says, “Paul like Judas was betraying God in what he was doing to the followers of Christ. What happened to Paul on the way to Damascus is the proof of the resurrection power of Jesus. When people say things like, “if Jesus was truly the one, the Messiah, then the end of all suffering we go through because of sin would have come to an end and we should be living in peace and joy now, not still suffering and death.” It seems like nothing had changed when so much has, through Jesus. We all now have access whereas before we didn’t to draw closer to God, we also know we don’t have to fear death anymore, and so much more. Paul became the manifestation of the promises of God to man. Kingdom rule (law) free will no longer exist as it did before. What’s happened was spiritual, not for the natural understand when realizing Saul wasn’t given a choice to change. He was reborn, not by water, but by the light, fire and the Holy Ghost (Jesus) according to Matthew 3:11 Baptized and became Paul the Apostle, Acts 9:1-19 On the road to Damascus, Saul as he was known died.

Jesus showed us here with Paul what he’d said on the cross to the Father, “forgive them, for they know not what they do.” Because we truly don’t! So for all us sinners, God do recognize and understand we’re inadequate, can’t help ourselves in the wrongs that we do. When I envisioned Paul encounter with Jesus, like Adam and Eve in the Garden naked, I saw Paul naked and ashamed also knowing he’s done wrong. But this time instead of animal skin to cover him up Jesus covers him with his spirit. “Doesn’t this makes you cry?” It is not something you can see, have the fear someone can remove from you or it can be lost, but the most powerful covering we can ever receive. This enabled Paul to be so great at all he’s done. It made Paul (man), for the first time after Jesus resurrection carrying the weight of his own sins, (Matthew 16: 24) “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.” Unlike Jesus who carried the sins of the world. Paul suffer and went through many things and face them head on with dignity, without wavering for his sins. For this reason we must understand when asking, “why do bad things happen to the good people?” People, we are not good, we all sin and has fallen short and have to pay the price. And like Paul, just because we read of him being and doing good deads, didn’t mean he’s always been good. If his past was not disclosed to us, even at his own confessions in the Bible we’d be so ignorant in believing him to be perfect like Jesus. He transformed completely and became a man of divinity. Just as Jesus was one with the Father to fulfill His will, Paul also through Jesus and we today must likewise, be one and continue to fulfill our Father will.

Paul encounter with Jesus is proof that as a man or woman we no longer could use the excuse the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Jesus resurrection has strengthened the flesh to walk hand and hand in one accord with the spirit. According to Paul himself who wrote 1Timothy 6:12 “Fight the good fight of Faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.

Judas agrees to betray Jesus Matthew 26:14-16 Then one of the twelve, the one called Judas Iscariot went to the chief priests and asked, “What are you willing to give me if I deliver him over to you?” So they counted out for him thirty pieces of silver. From then on Judas watched for an opportunity to hand him over.

When we think of Judas one of Jesus’s twelve disciples, closest and confident friend who betrayed him. No one wants to be associated to what is known as the villain that got Jesus kill. When people are referred to as a Judas, we all can come to the one and only conclusion, someone that will stab you in the back, betray you and not to be trusted.

Judas is proof that God knows everything about each and everyone of us, nothing that we can ever do or say surprises God. He has a plan for all our lives according to the role he created for us play in his destiny for our lives as well as that of others. At the last supper when Jesus said that he was going to betrayed by the one who dipped his had into the bowl with him, will be the one. “Woe to the man that would do it, for it would be better if he had not been born.” Jesus had already proven to us as we’d read on that he was well aware of what exactly is going to happen in his future. He prophesied about it, it all happened accordingly. I was suprised as Judas replied like if he’s unaware of what he was about to do when he already had the thirty pieces of silver in his picket. The nerve of him to ask “surely you don’t mean me Rabbi?” (Matthew 26:23-25).

As soon as Judas took the bread, Satan entered into him. So Jesus told him, “what you are about to do, do quickly.”(John 13:27). Jesus knew all this time Judas was the one going to betray him, he just confirm it by saying do it quickly. Not one of the other disciples seems to have caught on to what Jesus said or did they? Jesus did this before with Peter when he’d ask all his disciples, “who do they say that I am?” Peter was able to identify Jesus as the Messiah, the son of God. Jesus told Peter that it was not revealed to him by flesh and blood, but by the Father in heaven. But when Jesus told them he was going to go to Jerusalem  and suffer many things and that he must be killed. Peter then began to rebuke him saying, never shall this ever happened to him, and Jesus turned and said to Peter, “get behind me Satan!”(Matthew 16:15-23).

Once again it seems that Satan has entered one of Jesus’s disciples to possess him and Jesus was very much aware. The pattern here is there’s no defence to stop the devil from ever having access to man and preventing  man from allowing him. I believed in my ever so sensitive, loving and compassionate heart that Jesus was being too hard on Peter for caring about his well being, until I understood the devil do come in disguise as good especially to prevent us from doing God’s will by making us think we’re doing good. The will of God was for Jesus to take our sins upon him and sacrifice himself for us. From this incident between Peter and Jesus, it thought me to always pray to God for discernment in all matters, to be like Jesus, to know when something is of God or the devil, even when appears to be a good thing or bad. Romans 8:28 “All things work together for the good of those who love God, who have been called according to his purpose.” For example: Mary the mother of Jesus was engaged to Joseph, had to tell him she was pregnant with the son of God. What a devastating situations for the both of them to be in, but God! And it worked out.

We ourselves are all Judas vulnerable to the devil. Judas was the representation of our humanity imperfection and fragility which lead us into temptations and death (sin). We have an innocent, like that of Eve in the garden. God didn’t put up fences to prevent both her and Adam from access to the forbidden tree and temptation of the devil. But Jesus came and changed it all for us through his life, death and resurrection, if only we’d hold strongly to this Faith. Jesus is now foundation in which we can stand, the barrier and the force within us the devil cannot penetrate to get us. If we’d just keep the Faith.

I was ever so blown away to learn Judas action in betraying Jesus for thirty pieces of silver compared to that of Peters was good. Why? Because Judas like Jesus, was fulfilling God’s will. I was at a lost, even though it was bad? I questioned. But Peter even though it may seem like it meant good was not. According to Jesus the devil possessed Peter to say what he did, when he plead for Jesus not to go to Jerusalem and suffer many things and be killed. He was being a hindrance to God’s will.

John 16:8  Jesus said, “the Holy Spirit would come and he will prove the world to be in the wrong about sin, and righteousness and judgement.”

We celebrate the birth, life, death and resurrection of Jesus, the completion of his work in the world as he himself said on the cross, “it is finished, John 19:30. Understanding that his work was to bring man back to God, the way He had intented at the beginning with Adam. Jesus came as the manifestation of God’s will through all he’d done and had to endure. Jesus was one with the Father (John 10:30) and also with man as he came into the world through a virgin name Mary Luke 1:27-38. He’s is proof that man can overcome the bondage of sin. Flesh and spirit can co-exist with balance through his example of obedience and discipline to the Father’s will.

After Easter we should all acknowledging the Holy Spirit presence within our lives. Read, meditate on the Word of God, searching within our hearts and mind if we’re living accordingly, by being in the world but not of it. Jesus doesn’t have to return to and be crucified over and over again, neither the Holy Ghost after him each time, who remains forever our comforter and Jesus our salvation. Once again we are blinded by being caught up in the world. Our priority is in what we desire and long for most and God is not it, for the majority of us today. Man, I believe has hit the pinnacle of evolution with sciences and technology. We now have NASA’s Perseverance rover which landed on Mars. Who needs a God? When now, we believe we have all the answers and know how, right!

Jesus said, ” I will ask the Father, and and He will give you another Help ( Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor–Counselor, Strengthener, Standby), to be with you forever.” Amplified Bible.  We should never have to feel lost, confused or alone, especially  the times we’re living in the world today, we need to understand this more than ever. Don’t wait for the day of Pentecostal, it has already came and the comforter is here.

When Jesus was here in the flesh, so many of us refused to except and acknowledged he was the son of God. It is even more difficult for us with the Holy Spirit for us to whom we can’t see. As with God, it is only by Faith in which he can be revealed onto us. It’s our freedom of will which also plays an important part if we chose to believe by Faith. John 20:29 Jesus said unto him, Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed. Blessed are they that have not seen and yet have believe.”

It took twelve stranger, Jesus disciples chosen by Father for his purpose to leave all that they know, their entire lives, family friends whatever, to follow Jesus. We have to think to ourselves where this is concerning us Christians of today. We are no longer disciples like they were, we are Faithful and blessed because we haven’t seen and been with Jesus like they have. Through the sacrifice of Jesus on the cross many I believe like myself are born this way. Born, chosen for God’s purpose admits all the struggle you may had to endured in life, your faith, love and hopefulness in God never ever wavers. It’s not even an emotion, but a fact of knowing the existence of the true and living God within you.

The Holy Ghost is continually operating on our behalf in the world today. For those who have eyes to see, and ears to hear what the Lord is doing and saying to us.

What it meant for me to wrestle with God like Jacob? I was tired and fed up with life and it’s constant struggles with the evil that’s in our world. Why can’t life just be good and remain that way without the roller coaster ride? And to mention, I am people tired. Don’t get me wrong I am aware there’s good and bad people in our world, but the bad is too much to bear. It takes so much energy to deal with them. There are those who suck you dry of your virtue by their constant dependency on you and those who are just pure evil. I’ve been so beaten up in my heart, mind and spirit by the bad things that happened to me for my love and kindness to others, leavening me bitter and angry, very angry and bitter even to hating myself for being so naive and foolish where they are concerned.

Many times I screamed, ” I am not Jesus, I am a sinner, born into sin, wasn’t not conceived by the Holy Spirit. No matter how much I love you Lord, the spirit is willing, but my flesh truly is weak because I want to cuss, fight and even punch them in the face.” I often thought to myself in my rage, “now I understanding why the devil hated humanity, we’re really a bunch of messed up beings, the way we treat one another because of race, gender, religion, sexual orientation, social status… Desiring power and control to possess the entire world when not one of us is perfect. We are so prejudice and hateful to each other that we leave nothing for the devil to do to us that’s evil. I would sometimes imagine the devil saying to God, “look at them, told you so, but yet you consider them worth saving.” I picture God like a good doting parent making excuses for our behavior, even towards him. Worst than the devil, it’s like we’re provoking God to be more severe on us in his discipline towards us for our wrong doings.

One day I’d decided to fast and pray until God blesses me with the knowledge, wisdom and understanding of it all. Being so frustrated and tired of all the negative things reported in the news, I couldn’t help but believe the world is coming to an end. Humanity are way out of control and we definitely need Jesus, now. Like Jacob, I decided not stop fasting and praying until God gives me an answer to, “why?” I remembered saying, even if my health is jeopardize, I will not give up till the Lord blessed me, like he did Jacob. “Be careful what you pray for!”

When Jacob wrestle with the man (angel) he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched. “Let me go, for it is daybreak,” said the man. Jacob replied, ” I will not let you go unless you bless me.” Genesis 32:25-27. What I understood the meaning of the touch was to inflict pain because pain is the power to ignite healing when at the brink of despair to rebirthing something new within us. Pain signifies and activates our sensations and emotions. The man (angel) didn’t touch Jacob to prevent him from wrestling with him, he touched him to release the pressure of the pain from his heart and mind. His touch was to weaken the flesh and strengthen his spirit which was already at work.

Pain, suffering, heart aches and all manner of brokenness has never been part of God’s plans for humanity, it is not part of life it’s part of sin. Like Jacob we have the ability and strength within us to stand and fight, rebuke it from taking control over our lives. Jacob was courageous to confront and challenge the source of his afflictions, himself, the image of God, in which he was created. We are given free will, and there’s a price to pay even though it’s suppose to be free because of sin. Free will can brings good as well as bad, when not discipline within us. Jacob was wrestling with God to take back the free will, because he was not worthy to possess it, too much for him to handle with all the pain and suffering he had to endured in his life. He recognized the only way to go forward is through the will of God not his or any man’s.

The spirit of God shall not always strive with man, Genesis 6:3. All the reason to remember to pray, ” Lord protect us from all weaknesses that leads us to temptations, .” Jesus came and his life death and resurrection changed everything for all humanity, so stand firm in the new found liberty we’ve been given through him. Seek wisdom, knowledge and understanding till you find it.

I see it in your eyes, how much your brother means to you. There’s love, there so much love between you two, “so stop it! Stop the self righteousness and judgement on your brother.” You know, he’s always been free spirited like your mother and yes you do worry about him and felt you’re responsible for protecting and watching out for him since your mother passed, but he’s grown. Just remember you both are the prize possession of your mother, her legacy she left for the world, who loves her and still today mourn for her. You guys all we have of her, so fight if you want like all siblings do, but it’s time to make up and be a family regardless.

When I think of your mother and father relationship, I am angry that it seems like selfishness and wanting things ones own way with no compromise that destroyed it, and just plain stubbornness. Don’t make the same mistake that can undoubtedly let us lose interest in the monarch. The both of you, like your mother Princess Diana, for me and I believe many others, if I can speak for them, were the change the monarchy needed to keep us hopeful and excited for the future of the monarch.

You don’t be your father and put your brother in the position like that of your mother. Don’t allow history to repeat itself with you both. Make the difference that both your father and mother together couldn’t. Please allow your grand mother and our Queen Elizabeth to live out her last days in peace. Enough is enough, the monarch needs to get into the twenty-first century. All the bickering, fighting and negative views of the monarch needs to be addressed and made right and a front of unity of the entire family needs to establish in front of the cameras and behind closed doors. Do whatever it takes to continue the Queen reign in the most powerful and influential way.

As a mother I want to see all my children get along with love respect, communication, support and unity with each other especially whenever that time comes and I pass on. So I sincerely believe in my heart that your mother, Princess Diana would want the same as any mother would. “A family that prays together, stays together.” This is a fact even though it is not always without problems.

Who am I? A nobody, who became a somebody because of the love of Jesus.

As I read Luke 22:35-36 Jesus asked his disciples, “when I sent you without purse, bag or sandals, did you lack anything?” “Nothing,” they answered. Jesus was referring Luke 9:1-6 where he’d sent out the twelve disciples and give them power and authority to cast out all demons and to heal all diseases, taking nothing for their journey. He said to them, “But now if you have  a purse, take it, and also a bag; and if you don’t have a sword, sell your cloak and buy one. What this is allowing us to understand, God equips us with what is needed to do his will through our obedience to him.

I’ve spent my entire life trying to live honest according to the teachings of Jesus and all he taught his disciples as written in the scriptures. I’ve been following and listening faithfully to the ones who supposedly called by the Lord as shepherds over his flocks, such as Bishops, Pastors, any leaders of the church. I truly believe that all of them like Jesus disciples after his life death and resurrection, were deserving of trust in their faithfulness to follow through on his will. Sadly enough, but the imperfections of man always shows it’s truth, leaving all of us feeling some how deceived and ever so let down to not trust ever again the institutions of religion (churches). But they are just man, not God, is my realization with their strengths and weaknesses, the frailties of man, which equals to imperfections. Man, to whom the more than ever, we must not put our Faith in, but only God himself.

Forgiveness: “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing, Luke 23:34. “And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive them, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.” Mark 11:25. “Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times? Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.” Matthew 18:21-22. For so many of us we rather in our anguish go to hell, than to forgive someone. Forgiveness is a gift from God to us to pass on to others, like grace.

If Jesus never took credit for anything he has done, all is done through him by the Father. John 5:19, 5:30, 8:28. We also must have that kind of humility, concerning the will of God. Even though Jesus was in the form of God, he emptied himself, (Phil. 2:5-8) and made for a while lower than the angels, became man, (psalm 8:5). He was also under the law,Gal.4:4). That’s the reason we knew according to scriptures he grew in wisdom and stature ( Luke 2:52). Col.2:9 says that in Jesus “dwells all the fullness of the Godhead and bodily form.” Therefore, Jesus is both divine and human in one person. He was a man as well as divine, but the divine nature, like the spirit with flesh so to speak, worked together even with the limitations of humanity (flesh) in order to fulfill the law, and God will. We ourselves can be the same as Jesus by following Jesus.

“It is God’s will be done, not ours.” Jesus surrendered himself to it and we like him, have to now surrender ourselves to Jesus, who’s one with the Father. Your thought has to be in one with Jesus’s. We are not to move until Jesus in us move, we’re not to speak until the voice of Jesus in us speaks, and we’re not to walk until the feet of Jesus in us walks. United together as one, one body, mind and spirit, three in one and one in three. Not of our own individuality and power like so many of us who loves power and control.

The other thing I’ve learned is you don’t always have to be present to do the will of God. It take Faith from wherever you are to send out energy to make the impossible, possible, that’s sometimes the only work we must do. Matthew 8:8 ” The centurion (Roman soldier) answered and said,”Lord, I am not worthy that thou shouldest come under my roof. But speak the word only, and my servant shall be healed.”

You don’t have to necessarily be seen and heard to be glorified by God. Matthew 6:6 “When you pray, go into your closet and when you have shut the door, pray to the Father who is in secret, and your Father who sees in secret shall reward you openly. A lot of people don’t get this, because when they see you blessed and highly favored, they often wondering, why?

It takes obedience and willingness to submit to God’s will by choice, it can really make the difference for our lives as human beings, even with our imperfections.

The universe is to huge for us to truly believe we are alone in it. The earth being one part of the entire universe with so much different race and ethnicities of human beings, animals, the fowl of the air, fish in the sea and whatsoever passes through the paths of the sea, countries from the East, West, North and South of our world. Maybe there’s even places yet to be discovered in our word especially in the deep oceans or even in our highest mountains. It surely be nothing but ignorance to believe that our God, creator of all things here on earth, and a massive universe would be limited.

Made up of connected energies is our universe in which we are all part. Energy can be felt but not seen with the naked eyes. As human there are limitations to what we can see with our naked eyes. We wear glasses to improve problems with our vision. But there’s spiritual vision that can only be attained through fasting, meditation and prayers to connect with the creator to open up our eyes not only to the mysteries of our being, but also of the entire universe and all creations.

I believe strongly that we’re not alone in the universe and that we humans are the aliens not the other way around. Why? Because humanity has yet to evolve. And for us to be evolving has nothing to do necessarily with technology or all the things humanity is now accomplishing scientifically, but spiritually with wisdom, knowledge, understanding and discipline of the weakness of the flesh. We are still stuck in or sins, the very thing that is holding us back. We have free will and is not wise enough to take advantage of using it for good. If only we’d be obedient to God and stop being a magnet for negative energies, all the impossible would be possible, the unseen would be seen and our deaf ears will definitely hear all that the Lord is saying to us.

No rest and no peace the continuing fight to get through this pandemic. Business had to finally closed couldn’t afford another temporary closer, work from home for those who can, lots of job losts, more school closers, stay at home warnings, no social gathering, line ups again for grocery shopping, shopping centers closed, more cases is confirmed and hospital ICU filling up with covid-19 patients and the list goes on.

“How much more can we take?” Is the cry. People looked to the vaccine as a fast cure back to normalcy, but the set back still hit hard in the midst of receiving it. We’re in the third wave with new variants, Lord have mercy on us.

In biblical times we’d be calling these days famine, a great drought. The only thing we can do is to Faith it through these difficult times. People are frustrated, drained tired and mentally fatigued with this pandemic including myself as a faithful person. But we’ve being living carefree for so long, taking it for granted. Now we all have to suck it up, be strong and faithful knowing that this too shall pass. It is so hard, but this is nothing compared to what our ancestors had to endure before we got so intelligent after Jesus came.

Jesus Christ is real Royalty, with wealth, class, privilege and more, but yet, he flaunt it not. Royalty and sovereignty with so much love and humility for man kind, who wouldn’t want Jesus to be our earthly king? Yet no man has ever curtsy or bow down to honor him. No man or woman on earth is worthy or can be compared. Why? Because none of them will be willing to sacrifice themselves even unto death with all humility, to come down of there throne, especially as humans with our, pride and prejudices, to become one with the people, their subjects or even walk along side them, like Jesus.

“Be in the world, but not of it.” That’s me! I couldn’t have found myself interested in earthly royalties simply because in my heart and mind I feel they do nothing for humanity beside looking down on their fellow man as though they’re some how above them. I don’t believe they understand their position where God is concern in their lives, especially the monarch who believe themselves to be based on the foundation of the church of God. They are more like pagans kings and queens, if they had anything to do with the God then their truth shall shine not lies. They are not true to themselves how can they be true others. Protocols and traditions, they are like the Old Testament of the Bible, stuck and want to keep their people stuck with them. No freedom just a stiff neck self absorb, selfish and egotistical bunch of snobs. They act like they don’t, urinate, poop, eat, sleep, have any kind of emotions, like robots some kind of automatic controlled being. Hiding their true reality as being humans, to convey something more like a fantasy for all who has imaginations. Sad, so very sad. All they have to do is be normal and imperfect like all regular people.

Jesus was true to himself as he was to all humanity. He hid nothing from us about who he was by opening up himself to humanity from the day of his birth to the prophecy of it. I believe the truth that should of set us free with the wisdom, knowledge and understanding, set some free, but not all of us. Some of us is bound by the truth. When Jesus revealed himself to the entire world, he was dead already, without showing off his power and authority, he willingly submit himself into being a servant to us, a slave for our sins and a sacrifice to deliver us. How many human kings or queens will be willing to do the same. When everything they portray as being normal is just an act for the cameras and publicity stunt. All that glitters is not good or diamonds and don’t judge the book by its cover; all theses saying applies to them, what a shame!

Not one, not one is worthy from the first God chosen king in the Bible, Saul who had proven such unworthiness from the beginning until Jesus. There’s only one who took up the cross and follow Jesus, the one real true royalty I’ve known, “Lady Diana,” who changed the world’s perspective of royalty. Through her humility, innocent, truthful and pure childlike personality; like Jesus they stripped her of everything and nailed her to the cross, metaphorical, but yet she revealed her true self also when she died. Her true self is God being shown through her love and acts of kindness and hardship she endured. Her life like Jesus was one of service and sacrifice, even being hated and rejected by the one she loved and family.

The Lord light continued to shined through her like Jesus and we the world embraced the light and fell in love. It shined even it’s brightest at her passing, leaving those like Jesus’s hater to say, “truly she was a blessing from God to the world and for their country.” Her light keeps on shining even now as a reminder concerning the monarch, they were lost and hopefully now found through her just like the light of Jesus in our world today with all the despair it’s going through.