I caught a glance at her for a moment as our eyes met. She’d whisk by so fast through the years. Look back at her as she brushes pass. “Something about the encounter resonates within the soul, doesn’t it?” Couldn’t help but wondered about who she truly is at the core. Faithful is she and has life lessons some how martured her, and does she now understand the, “meaning of life, is?” From on the outside she looks amazingly astute, but looks can be undoubtedly deceiving. No one can comprehend what’s behind her grace and virtue (faithfulness to God), she’s a mystery to others as well as herself. Speaking her truth can be misconstrued by others. What do people really thinks and say about her? Do they say she’s boastful, arrogant, “who does she think she is?” Anything negative. Most of the time everything about her is misunderstood. To understand her is much harder, without being connected with her the through only one way, the spirit, (Holy Ghost). Seemingly dark in a mysterious way to the natural eyes, in the spiritual a servant of the light.

“Who do you see, when looking in the mirror, stearing back at you?”

We always associate courage with standing up against a fierce apponent. True courage is acknowledging when you’ve done wrong or made a mistake. Excepting the facts even when going against ego. Courage doesn’t require you to go work out in the gym to strengthen your muscles. Courage is strength and discipline of the mind especially when emotional.

How many times have you ever thought to yourself as a soldier in the Lord’s army, you have the rights in some way to play God? Think for a moment. I say to play God because you believed strongly, you could help others, it’s what expected of you and let’s not forget the judgements and condemnations. Where did this kind of theology came from? Maybe Sunday school, the Pastors of the churches you ‘ve attended or just your own understand? Proverb 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. We definitely must take this Proverb literally!

As for me, it took spiritual growth through some hard lessons to bring me to Jesus on my knees in pain and tears, for me learn it’s not my will, but the will of God working through me that would enables me to deal with the powers and principalities of the world. Realizing no strength or power have I of my own to stand up to it. The devil is a deciever for anyone to believe they could be in God stead. None of us is righteous, we’re all sinners. We can follow Jesus, but not be him.

I wanted so much to believe as I understood, my actions for God is acceptable in his sight and could make a difference in the world, that he’d say, “my faithful servant to whom I am well pleased.” I truly believe in my heart I was so righteous, but it was all self righteousness not God’s. His thoughts and ways are nothing like ours, according to Isaiah 55:8. This selfish kind of deceptive thinking can only come from one source, our enemy the devil; satan that liar, deceiver and tempter of our soul. Whatever we do in our own strength as a man because of our imperfections, weaknesses and limitations it can crumble and fall, taking us with it. Don’t get it twisted we’re not in control, God is the (General) leadership and controller of our lives, not we ourselves, especially being in his army.

Bible verses the battle is not yours: 1Samuel 17:45 King David said to the Philistine, ” you come against me with sword, spears, and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty.” (47) All those gathered here know that it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves, for the battle is the Lord’s.” 2Chronicles 20:15 Be not afraid nor dismayed, for the battle is not yours, but God’s. 2Corinthians 10:13 God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you ma be able to endure it. Deuteronomy 20:4 For the Lord your God is he who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies, to give you the victory.

It is with great consolation knowing that when you surrender your life to God in obedience to His will, He’s got you, in the good times and especially in the bad. Don’t allowing the devil to manipulate and confuse your mind to think differently.

It is Halloween time and you can find so much television horror shows and old scary movies for the month reminding us what season we’re in. How is it that for Christmas and Easter all there is to watch has nothing to do with God. It can’t blame on the many different religions, because no true followers of Christ should be more interested in the dead walking, supernatural, cult and paranormal. And there are a lot of other religions that denounces any such things, and yet this hasn’t stopped television and movie makers. I am not saying there’s anything wrong with it, but it should not be the thing to consume our spirit. It is said what we eat affects our body, also what we watch (sees) also affects our mind.

Matthew 22:21 Jesus said, ” Render to Caesar the things that are Caesar’s; and to God the things that are God’s.” Have we drifted so far away from God being a priority in our lives that we’re even afraid to mention Him in order to not offend others who don’t necessarily believe. There was a time it was unheard of for us to not know anyone who doesn’t go to church, children not Christened or going to Sunday school. Today is the opposite it is seldom heard of, more or less strange to even mention. Churches are closing down and those that are left open has fewer members and are filled with mostly the elderly, where I live. The mega and well established churches in other places works very hard to maintain it and keep it going especially financially. It is not like long ago where God was priority and tithing and donations was given from the heart of those who loved and obey God. It wasn’t for an expected sure insurance to get you into heaven or blessings patiently waiting to recieve for giving. It was knowing that God is not in need of anything, but a way of showing gratitude to God by helping the church to bless others the way you’ve been blessed. To share blessing from heart to heart with others who are less fortunate.

We don’t want to go backwards, we should be going forward in wisdom, knowledge and understanding, not on worldly things, but on the things pertaining God. Could this pandemic, covid-19 be a sign to prevent us from going any further in iniquity? Everyone is caught up in the things of the world, we can’t help it. By not giving God one hour, now we all had been lead into temptation. God is now taking back his hour.

I am not perfect don’t get me wrong, I am only human I’m not all that strong. I’ve made mistakes, sometimes I cried and Lord knows how hard I have been trying to do what’s right. But I’ve been judged a and criticized.

I am not Catholic, but this symbol of the heart of Jesus was given to me in a dream. So I researched it to see if such a thing existed and sure enough it does. Never could I have ever remembered seeing this symbol or even knowing the meaning. “Why me with all this Catholicism stuff? I thought to myself. First the Rosary and now the sacred heart, what’s next?” Looking into my ancestry I found out Catholicism has been part of my ancestors. According to some belief I just might be a reincarnate, “no pun intended.”

The medal of the heart of thorns was given to me and I must give it to the world (the knowledgeable about it’s meaning). The Cross represents the trials and tribulations Jesus went through for our salvation (the burden of all our sins he took upon himself). The Fire represents the unconsuming burning love for God. The Thorns represents the never-ending torment, pain and sorrow of a broken heart.

The scared heart of Jesus is a reminder to all followers of Christ, his example to love God with all our heart, mind and soul having faith in doing his will, and loving our neighbors as ourselves. Love is the key to all that God has done and continues to do for us. But unlike Jesus we as humans are imperfect so when we’re hurt physically or emotionally, we want to retaliate. We would not have gone to the cross without a fight and without a fight is what is required of us in falling Christ. We must trust God like Jesus in the garden of Gethsamane even though his soul was overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death, he said, ” my Father, if is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will” Matthew 26: 39.

Though trials and tribulations may come our way Jesus died on the cross already (bared our sins, pain and suffering to save us) and he promised to never leave nor forsake us (Hebrews 13:5-6), as the Father was with him, so shall he be with us. He sent us the other helper, the comforter, which is the Holy spirit, John 14:16. So let not our heart be trouble, John 14:1

When we love like Jesus our hearts are broken by the ungrateful, traitors and takers of our love. You’ll be repaid evil for your good and yet still love, and be faithful servants of the Lord. “Can you stand? Yes! through your faith and the power of the Holy Spirit that will guide and up lift you.”

“Yes I am faithful. I trust and believe in God with all my heart and soul, but yet, it doesn’t make me invincible to natural human emotions.”

I pray each day for our world that’s filled with so much negativity right now, like the shadow of gloom just hovering over us all. I know for sure the Lord is control, but yet my heart is troubled. My heart is troubled by the mindset and the actions of humanity where God is concern in this trying times. It seems like there’s more unfaithful than faithful. And those who are faithful their faith is beginning to waver.

I wish my faith to be strong enough to cover everyone, especially those who feels a sense of hopelessness and fear. This is truly a test of our mental stability as well as our faithfulness. Can we stand? Yes we can, if we’d focus on all the good to keep us pressing forward. Yesterday is gone, but thank God we have today.

Be blessed and encouraged!

I had to allow my heart and my mind to be still, not watching the news for a few weeks. Overloaded by so much sad and bad things going on in the world I had to keep my mind fixated on the things above, heavenly things that brings about peace.

I decided to fast and pray for a few days as I was traveling with my husband a truck driver, and as usual something about the drive always makes me fall asleep on him instead of being his co-pilot, as I’d sat in the passenger seat. But for the very first time as I slept, there stood before me was an angel glowing ever so brightly it illuminated the entire truck and woke me up. It was a dark rainy gloomy day, but I woke up to a clear beautiful sunny day. After a few minutes of being startled by the whole ordeal I fell back to sleep again and there he was this time with a shield in his hand and he began to spin it and spin it very fast and like the blades of a fan I could have felt the wind radiating from it and once again I jump up out of a deep sleep. When I woke up I wanted desperately to share with my husband my vision, but I didn’t. I waited much later that day before I told him for some strange reason I felt like he saw something also or even felt something and was not saying. I felt like he was glancing at me every so often as I was asleep. I am the kind of person if you look at me, I can feel it and then I will look back at you like a reflex. And if you steer at me, I can feel it in my spirit, I would immediately be drawn to you.

Now today all I could envision in my mind is knocking on the doors of heaven and the gate has begun to open slowly. My knocking is my prayers as I cried out to Jesus about the unrest in the world today, please can he get his suitcase packed and be on the next flight as soon as possible, we need him like yesterday. Something is happening out of the control of man and it is scary, not a force we can deal with. Terrifying, but we got to keep the faith in Him as we were prepared all these centuries. The last days as it is called the final battle between good and evil. It may feel like the devil is rising up in power. The angels of God are standing with those who cry out to the Lord in faith for deliverance. Everyone has to keep praying on in faith until it passes.

After seeing the angel I feel so different, in a good way. I can finally take hold of my emotions and not let it control me through fervent prayers and supplication unto God. His door is never shut nor His throne unapproachable.

Possessing true faith require certain characteristics: integrity, honesty, compassion, respectfulness and humility, just to name a few. It also requires action and not just what man wants to see, like a bumper sticker, going to church, a cross around your neck or even a bible in your possession. But action in what is said and done, proven to be like what is written in the word of God, especially according to his commandments. Remember man can be so ever so decieving.

The only true leader or royalty for us all is Jesus, because he loves us unconditional. Knowing that man is flawed, having strength and weakness, until Jesus returns we can’t trust that any man here on earth is capable of fulfil the true righteousness of God to lead us, we are always going to have problems with likes and dislikes. So anyone we chose, it is our duty to pray God cover them in His righteousness to lead through the power of the Holy spirit. Man will just be man without the intervention of God’s power working through them.

According to Ecclesiastes 3 there’s a season and a time to every purpose under the heaven. In today’s world we’re in a time of selfishness and greed, even for those who as Christians, who should know better when following Jesus. We all have to be our brothers and sisters keeper.

When I look at the effect of the pandemic on the world. I can’t help think of all the people who refuse to follow the rules of protection, especially for the safety of others, like wearing the masks, washing there hands or not gathering in big crowds to protect others from this deadly disease. Simple and easy tasks that is required of us all for protections. It is ignorance and disobedience that has us now in a losing battle against the pandemic. This is the second wave and more lives are going to be lost. This is not a conspiracy theory, but true fact that covid-19 is real and killing people.

I speak about greed, because people only want to be ignorant of covid-19 due to their money making desires that are being hindered by the pandemic. Many businesses are now closing, people have lost there jobs due to the pandemic. Money is needed for everything in this world and without it, people can’t see themselves surviving. The poor is getting poorer and the rich is getting richer. Not all rich people who are millionaires or billionaires in this crisis is concerned about those less fortunate. Some are caught up still in working to make even trillions, this to me is greed. The reason why no one has been able to come up with a vaccine that works is the rush for money. The thought of the wealth it will bring to the one or country who will discover the vaccine is what holding back humanity from the wisdom and knowledge. When it comes to health and well being of humanity it should be priceless.

GREED: Matthew 6:24 “No one can serve two masters…You cannot serve both God and money.” 1Timothy 6:17-18 “Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth, which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment. Command them to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share.

Taken from the rib of a man, formed by the hands of God, as a suitable helper and companion for each other. Woman, man as one.