One day I was going through some videos on YouTube, what started off as a curiosity about a video of mother monkey carrying her baby turned out to be a horror. First of all it wasn’t a mother, but a male monkey just dragging around a baby girl monkey, who was refusing to let go of him no matter what. It was very sad because the monkey was abusing the baby, but it kept holding on, not even running away from the abuse. It broke my heart and made me cried and that wasn’t the worst of it all as I kept watching more and more videos that popped up about all kinds of animals which started to appear one after another that was even more devastating.

I started off crying, but after watching a few more videos which was about what’s it’s like for animals living in the wild I was now bawling. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing, animals killing and eating each other. Snakes looking for a dog, money, bird whatever it can, the egles attacking baby animals and dragging them away, alligators waiting in the water to get a hold of any and everything that crosses its path to kill and eat, the leopard getting hold of a fawn(baby deer) as the parents watch fearfully and hopelessly running back and forward and the leopard playing with it’s prey just before grabbing it by the throat with one bite and it was dead, my husband then entered into the room, with a sobbing voice I said to him, “look at the video,” describing to him what was going on. His reply to me was it’s what happens in the wild and that’s how they survive is by hunting other animals for their food it’s normal. I considered it being so cruel and evil, and he said, “why are you watching that anyway?” I couldn’t watch that.” To watch a mother buffalo watch her baby snatched away and eaten by a pride of lions as she herself after fighting to protect the calf succumbed to the same faith, so devastating. I thought it to be cruel for the person videotaping not trying to intervene and help the poor animals. But I am just as bad for watching. Human nature forgive us Lord. Unlike Jesus with us, we chose not to help the animals, but we can if we truly wanted. Instead we stand by and say it’s all part of nature.

I thought to myself, life is real like living in the wild concerning humanity also. People can be so cruel to one another like the animals the only difference it is not for our survival or hunger, but dominance, greed and selfishness. It troubles my spirit within me so deeply, that I cry out to God. There is something wrong with the world when I look at all this bad, I see hell on earth in a sense. But it is part of what life is all about because of sin in the world, but why does it have to be like this? It seems so cruel. The cruel thing is the fear, suffering and then the death. But when it’s not that we have sickness, diseases, birth defects, accidents and then death. We just can’t escape I thought to myself.

As I reached out to God in pray about my fears of the reality of what I considered cruel and hurtful for both man an animal. I heard a voice inside me say, ” that’s what I felt why I came into the world, not to judge or condemn, but save it.” And in hearing those words I felt at ease in my spirit because I know that change is here for the better, all that is going on still is just a work in progress. I felt like the exposure of the wild was a wake up call for someone like me who has never had to see or experience anything like that to realize I am living where God changes has taken place already and the rest of the world would need time to catch up. I want to say is the civilized and the uncivilized is what we are dealing with and thank God for the civilized.