In this life we have what is called our physical body, consider in biblical terms the flesh. The spirit which is the essence, the image of God within us (Genesis 1:27)

Like Job, I watch everything I love and meant the world to me be destroy, dead and stripped away from me. Why would God allow this to happen? Job 13:15 “Though he slay me, yet will I trust, but I will maintain mine own ways before him.” I’ve lost everything and all that was left is my mental and physical health, even that the enemy try to take from me. “If it hadn’t been for the Lord being on my side, who strengthen me.” I would of given up long time, but when I remember storm’s past that I’ve came through, I believed was going to kill me. The pain that has been afflicting my body, distracting my mind to be able to meditate on the things pertaining to God. The lethargic, comatose feeling of the soul has me bumping into everything like the blind in darkness. A touch of my health has left me blind, all I see is pain and not the healing victory. The pain is heighten and like being bound by chains, I am wrestling, but I can’t get loosed.

“Where does peace truly come from?” I had to ask myself. Is it in the things we have in possession or does it come from the wellness of our mind and body? I believe it comes from the mind, body and soul being in one according(working together at the same time and in agreement). That’s why the devil can touch our possessions but not our soul, which belongs to God. I know it’s not going to kill me, but it sure feels like it is trying to. I feel my body is weaken to the point of my conscious my mind, my spirit leaves my body to rise up into the other dimension like the dying of the body and the releasing of the light of God(the spirit, energy of the body) up to heaven, where the peace finally can be attained. Come Holy Ghost fall fresh on me, I prayed. I feel like I need a new body, but this is where the Serenity prayer has given me such comfort. “God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, (my body pain and it’s affect to my mind) Courage to change the things I can,(not allow this pain ruin my life totally, but to take back control and live instead of wanting to die) And Wisdom to know the difference.

Just because you see me smiling and I look like all is well with my soul, it’s because all is with my spirit, but my body’s broken for my sins. Only through the almighty which moves within me keeps me joyful and no one has to see my face looking sad and depressed. Each day is a blessing to be alive and I would battle through it to stand knowing that God is with me through it all. To see me is to see the Father; it’s through Him I can stand and be all I can.

We see people who has their well being and maybe doesn’t even realize how they take it for granted to live without anguish. But for those who do like Paul with the thorn in his flesh 2 Corinthians 12:7-9 keeps us grounded in faith knowing that it’s through the almighty we do all things that are impossible and not we ourselves. We must not think to much of ourselves especially if we ever get tempted by the devil. God is not in the business to hurt us so we can serve him, it’s our pains and sufferings that draw us willingly to get to know him when all else has failed us.