I was thinking about Jesus, and how much he loves us to give up his life. To think after all Jsesus has done, the miracles of healings, teaching on the rules of the Kingdom and drawing near to God through following him. I began to search within my heart human nature when I felt this overwhelming feeling of sadness. I closed my eyes and saw Jesus carrying the cross to Calvary and the cross was not made out of wood, but words, everyone of our prayers and plead to God even to the cursing and hatred of others toward him. It wasn’t only the physical beatings that severed his flesh, but his spirit was also being pulled away from the flesh on his way to Calvary at the mocking and cruel words of the people. It’s the reason Jesus died before they can break his bones while he was on the cross.

In the beginning of creation God said, “let it be” and it was and still is(Genesis 1:3). Words are energy manifestion for good and bad.

Time to wake up, we’re in the promised land that our ancestors could of only dream about. Our accessibility to all the wisdom, knowledge and understanding is but a finger click away due to the advancement in technology. The things we are able to do from our health: cures, such as surgery and medications, homes: building built with all the accessories like fridge, washing machine, stoves, bed, travel: cars, bus, train, air plane, and so much more, thanks to Jesus who said greater things we’d do then him cause he was going to the Father John 14:12

Jesus did all sorts of miracles like feeding thousands people with little boys lunch, raising the dead, healing the sick, changing water to wine and walking on water. There’s still things he’d done that was not documented. So for him to say it was going to be possible for us to do even greater than he seemed to be crazy. But look at us, we are living in the greater, when considering what our ancestors lives was like. The only thing we are lacking is the ability to teleport from one place to another. We are going to space for crying out loud and have satellite, Wi-Fi and cord less phones that we can hear each other’s voices on. Think of it, this is the same way we can also communicate with the Lord and him with us. How scary that it is to hear a person voice talking to you from so far way and you know it’s them by their voice. Are we not simulating the connection of God to us with the advance technology after all Jesus coming and sacrifice for us put us back not only in God’s good graces, but with his abilities through the Holy Ghost to do these greater things.

We’re in the promised land cause we are the promised through Jesus. The promised land we find ourselves through faith when we truly believe in the Lord and is obedient to his will. The Kingdom came with Jesus, his sacrifice and all that he’d done and taught us while being here on earth. Jesus is the manifestion of the prophetic Word. John 1:14 “And the Word was made flesh”.

We find ourselves waiting on Jesus to return and do away completely with all evil according to Revelation so we can enter into the promised land, but it is within us through the power of the Holy Ghost as Christians to believe it, recieve it, like when Jesus took Peter, James and John with him on the mount of transfiguration. Only a chosen few will be given this knowledge and understand.

2 Samuel 11:1 (NIV) In the spring, at the time when kings go off to war, David sent Joab out with the king’s men and the whole Israelite army. They destroyed the Ammonites and besieged Rabbah. But David remained in Jerusalem. Now if David had gone out to war with the other king’s he wouldn’t have seen Bathsheda and committed adultery and murder. Continue to read 2 Samuel 11 if you don’t know the story.

How many of us like David are chosen, anointed and blessed, but we some how find ourselves idling and allowing the devil to make our brain his play ground of destruction. This is the reason are told to resist the devil because he attacks us in all sort of ways. This was not a temptation, it’s a calculating, manipulating choice. David had many wives, there’s no excuse for him to have desire Batsheda. This behavior of David goes to show a blessed peson who has it all, sometimes are never satisfied and become egotistic. Being ambitious doesn’t mean you have to use your drive to do bad. We must be conscious of our actions especially like David who is called “the man after God’s own heart” who will do everything God wants him to do(Acts 13:22) What happened to him? I am sure David knew the Ten commandments after all he’s a God fearing man that took down a giant not even the king and his army could by his faith in God. 1Samuel 26:1 When David had a chance to kill King Saul who wanted him dead, whom he’d been running and hiding, from giving up his family and home. David word to Abishai son of Zeruiah, Joab’s brother who went down to Saul camp with him said, ” today God has delivered your enemy into your hands let me kill him” David replied, “who can lay a hand on the Lord’s anointed and be guiltless? The Lord forbid that I should lay hand on his anointed.” Pretty sure he knew the Lord also said,”you shall not covet your neighbor’s wife.” David was to close to the Lord to not know what the Lord had expected of him.

“What was he thinking, and why was David mind turned from the Lord his God and righteousness? Was it that he’d won every victory there was nothing left for him to conquer or was he just bored with his life and his other wives?” It could very well be that there a curse on being a earthly king, look what happened to Saul and now David being is his successor. Maybe as scriptures declares, to whom much is given much is required and some people like David who are given the much, love the idea of the much, but can never bare the burden of the requirements. David lost sight of his relationship with the Lord, because of taking blessings for granted. His mind went on to lust instead of faith and his music that sooth his soul. Maybe like King Saul David need someone to play for him before his mind got lost. Music was the thing that kept him sane and in deep connection to God. David being a warrior was second nature to him, but his music defined him, especially in his relationship with the Lord. Could it be that a person can be affected by the actions of others towards them like Saul to David and now David to Uriah the husband of Bathsheda. This seems to be a psychological thing, cause we never hurt the ones who hurt us, some else always pays the price.

David had kept himself very busy in the beginning when he was attending the sheeps, fighting off any prey that tried to hurt them, running errands for his father like taking food to his brothers, playing the harp and writing sounds, playing music for the king to calm his spirit, fighting in the king’s army and running for his life from the king. David had to run and hide for his life after winning more wars than king Saul himself, whom appeared to love hate him. Saul had fallen short of the glory of the Lord by being disobedient; now his resentment of David and his victories in battles and the blessings of the Lord upon his life. All this had David mind preoccupied, and now at peace, don’t even have to lift a finger nor his presence needed was still victorious, not a care in the world everything was just going great. David is proof that you can never be too busy. Some people need to keep busy, but constructive and balance busy as to stay out of trouble.

I am His (God) Genesis 1:27 God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created he them. Psalm 139:14 I praise thee for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. 1 Corinthians 6:19 “Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have recieved from God? You are not your own. Even if we don’t believe in God (atheist) like everything else about life, it’s our choice.

Thank God for the freedom of choice he has given us and yet still loving us even when our choices are against His will. God is still faithful, omnipotent, omniscience and omnipresent.

Who Am I and how do I see myself? I am a temple and also the candle within that God lights up. He’s the fire and my body(flesh) is the wax that slowly melts away by His flame. With God’s touch(fire) I would never be the same. As the flame keeps burning, I’m melting slowly and soon the fire that consumes me, becomes my entire being. No longer am I wax, but burning down to nothing as the flames keep on burning.

If I am to be all I am destined to, I have to fight myself for the battle begins within. I need the fire to keep burning even though I’m melting every second, minute and hour. God’s the consuming fire that burns within me till I am completely emerged into oneness with him, no longer to be seen, but to return from whence I came from the Father almighty God. The candle’s wick, wax and fire is three in one and one in three.

In this life we have what is called our physical body, consider in biblical terms the flesh. The spirit which is the essence, the image of God within us (Genesis 1:27)

Like Job, I watch everything I love and meant the world to me be destroy, dead and stripped away from me. Why would God allow this to happen? Job 13:15 “Though he slay me, yet will I trust, but I will maintain mine own ways before him.” I’ve lost everything and all that was left is my mental and physical health, even that the enemy try to take from me. “If it hadn’t been for the Lord being on my side, who strengthen me.” I would of given up long time, but when I remember storm’s past that I’ve came through, I believed was going to kill me. The pain that has been afflicting my body, distracting my mind to be able to meditate on the things pertaining to God. The lethargic, comatose feeling of the soul has me bumping into everything like the blind in darkness. A touch of my health has left me blind, all I see is pain and not the healing victory. The pain is heighten and like being bound by chains, I am wrestling, but I can’t get loosed.

“Where does peace truly come from?” I had to ask myself. Is it in the things we have in possession or does it come from the wellness of our mind and body? I believe it comes from the mind, body and soul being in one according(working together at the same time and in agreement). That’s why the devil can touch our possessions but not our soul, which belongs to God. I know it’s not going to kill me, but it sure feels like it is trying to. I feel my body is weaken to the point of my conscious my mind, my spirit leaves my body to rise up into the other dimension like the dying of the body and the releasing of the light of God(the spirit, energy of the body) up to heaven, where the peace finally can be attained. Come Holy Ghost fall fresh on me, I prayed. I feel like I need a new body, but this is where the Serenity prayer has given me such comfort. “God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change, (my body pain and it’s affect to my mind) Courage to change the things I can,(not allow this pain ruin my life totally, but to take back control and live instead of wanting to die) And Wisdom to know the difference.

Just because you see me smiling and I look like all is well with my soul, it’s because all is with my spirit, but my body’s broken for my sins. Only through the almighty which moves within me keeps me joyful and no one has to see my face looking sad and depressed. Each day is a blessing to be alive and I would battle through it to stand knowing that God is with me through it all. To see me is to see the Father; it’s through Him I can stand and be all I can.

We see people who has their well being and maybe doesn’t even realize how they take it for granted to live without anguish. But for those who do like Paul with the thorn in his flesh 2 Corinthians 12:7-9 keeps us grounded in faith knowing that it’s through the almighty we do all things that are impossible and not we ourselves. We must not think to much of ourselves especially if we ever get tempted by the devil. God is not in the business to hurt us so we can serve him, it’s our pains and sufferings that draw us willingly to get to know him when all else has failed us.

I never been so angry, but Scriptures declares, “be angry but sin not,” Ephesians 4:26. I always felt like I am having an outer body experience when I allow myself to lose control in anger and like a whisper in my ear I would hear these word to snap out of it.

But who are the dogs and the swine Jesus is speaking about? He’s not speaking literally about animals, but it is a metaphor for the behavior of certrain people without categorizing it as the natural being of a person, but the mindset of a an individual. Dogs back in those days wasn’t treated the way they are today, as one of the family, and pigs was a forbidden unclean animals. To be called a dog or a pig is an insult, to be put down to the lowest. Dogs and pigs are animals and what value can they possibly have with that which is holy or pearls? Absolutely none, so sometimes having to deal with certain individuals in a Christian way is the same.

The thing that can push me to such anger is when I am for peace someone is for war. Many times I constantly have to remind myself I am a Christian and I believe it not fare when my opponent doesn’t share the same values and I can’t fight them on the same level of understanding. It’s hard enough when fighting within your own family knowing their strengths and weaknesses through knowing yourself, than with a stranger you don’t.

As a Christain I want to love and treat everyone the way I want to be treated. I’ve had to learn the hard way that everyone is not like me, whether Christian or not. It frustrates me because I feel like I need not only to be Christian, but a psychiatrist and a spiritual one also to understand and deal with certain individuals without letting it get to me. As human beings, we really have some serious issues only God could have mercy for. I now understand what Jesus ment when he said, ” give not that which is holy unto dogs, neither cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn again and tear you to pieces.” Matthew 7:6 Because people can take your kindness for weakness by trampling over your heart and breaking it into bitter pieces.

Ephesians 6:12 (NIV) ” For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the ruler, against authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” We are told to put on the Armor of God. The Armor was given to us by Jesus when he said to come follow him. When Paul through the power of the Holy Ghost wrote this he knew that we we have to be a warrior to stand as a Christian. Whenever I get angry I am aware of what it is I am truly fighting against, especially when it keeps provoking my spirit to anger to say or do something I’ll regret.

Matthew 5, every time I read this chapter I wrestle with God. Why will God want me be like this when he’s made me a warrior in the spirit for righteousness. I want to fight, I can’t sit back and allow the enemy to use that which God has given me to be his chosen as a weakness to destroy me and make me confused. Matthew 5:9-10 “Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the children of God.” It gets me every time when I am for peace and they are for war. Then I want to put God down for a moment and pick up the devil if you understand what I mean. “Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” When I feel persecuted for doing that which is righteous my heart is so broken, I want to get even, and vengeance is what my emotions cries out. I know scriptures declares vengeance is the Lord’s but sometimes in weakness I have no faith to be patient. I want to rip out their heart like they did mine. It’s about love, doing God’s will in love.

Matthew 5:38-48 “Turn the other cheek, love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute the you. That you may be the children of your father in heaven. Be therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect. Thank God for sending the other comforter (John 14:16) after Jesus on the Day of Pentecost (Acts 2) Because like Peter in(Matthew 14:28-31) without it we would not be able to stretch forth our hand to Jesus to walk on the water and not sink, even in a storm. Peter learned to remain walking on the water(faith) with the help of the Holy spirit. It took the death and resurrection of Jesus to have us all like Peter even to this present day to walk on water(metaphor) even when the storm is all around us. Thank you Lord!!!

When Jesus ascended to heaven, sat on the right hand of God the Father, we are now capable with His advocacy and intercession through the power of the Holy Ghost to stand in righteousness. Jesus knows sometimes it can be so difficult especially when temptation and weaknesses over comes us. We have the abilities through faith in Christ to do what’s impossible.

Casting pearls to swine and give not that which is holy unto dogs, lest they trample them under their feet and turn again and rend you, (KJV) No longer a concern, for everything that has breath will praise Him (Psalms 150:6) Romans14:11 (KJV) For it is written, ” as I live, says the Lord, every knee shall bow to me, and every tongue shall confess to God.” Isaiah 45:23-25 Before me Every knee will bow; by me Every tongue will swear. They will say of me, “in the the Lord alone are deliverance and strength.” All who have raged against him will come to him and be put to ashame. All the pigs and dogs will now be under subjection to the will and power of God.

Acts 9 In the Bible, Paul(Saul of Tarsus) was struck blind by a light from heaven on his way to persecute Christians. Three days later his vision restored and was restored by a Christian. The same Christian he was on his way to persecuting, ironic isn’t it? God has a sense of humor!!!

How many of us like Saul needs to be blinded so we can see. Paul was blinded for three days like Jonah was in the whale belly. It makes the mind wonder about the supernatural transformation of the spirit that goes on in those three days. Could it be a dimension that is traveled into for those days, a downloading of information and works that’s done in the heart and mind through God?

I know for myself to keep focus on God I have to be blinded by the things of the world because there are certain things that can be a distraction. What the eyes see the heart grief and can became an obstacle that weakens me. As the Bible says, “be in the world but not of it” 1John2:15

Blinded, deaf, mute, and lame, sometimes it’s a physical impairment or a spiritual one. In the Bible Jesus came to be the sacrificial lamb to take away our sins, he healed multitudes that had these impairments. A touch from Jesus awaken their spirit; like he did Paul, he turn around their lives and have them follow him by faith and his works. Paul blindness was not due to a physical impairment, but rather a spiritual one. When his sight was restored he no longer wanted to persecute Christians. Remember also these physical impairments are the results of sin. God is not hurting us so we can follow him. He’s healing us so we can be build up faith that he’s a God of love, mercy, and compassion for us all.

We may have certain impairment according to Paul 2 Corinthians 12:1-10 A thorn to humble us in knowing, if it hadn’t been for the Lord who was on our side and not we ourselves can take the credit, especially for those things that are impossible for us. God is so good!

Pray that God opens our blind eyes that we can see, see truths, see beyond the darkness and bitterness that sometimes over Shadows our lives. Open our ears to hear Him and him alone speaking to us not the lies of the enemy, and the distortions of sound doctoring. Open our mouth and fill it with good food in which to eat so we can speak love, truth and righteousness and our Lame legs to walk; to walk in the path of righteousness.