Twenty-three years ago I finally decided to go on a retreat to connect with the Almighty. My frustrations with religions( is there really a right and true one) my spirituality and all the unanswered questions about God. One day I had a vision of Love, there’s no other way to describe it. It was about love, forgiveness, patience, mercy, compassion, sacrifice, understanding, wisdom and knowledge. When you’d think about the goodness of God which is within each and everyone of us being created in His image, we can possess it if we choose. That is how she appeared to me, Queen of all Queens, Mary the mother of Jesus, to whom I believed had no importance other than she’s the mother of Jesus.

To make a long story short, after communicating with her I no longer feel that way. Mother Mary took her crown of heaven, crown of the earth and crown of the crucific, placed it on my head and handed the infant Jesus in my arms saying that I am her and she’s me, just as God has entrusted her with Jesus, she also enstrusts me with all God’s children. Whenever you believe you’re not worthy, God says yes you are. It is said we are saved by grace, Ephesians 2:8. But there’s a grace we possess within ourselves through the Holy ghost that enables us to walk, speak and do the impossible, that Mary had, not just favour.

Everyone wants to be a queen, not me. The only thing I could think of is the saying by William Shakespeare “Uneasy lies the head that wears a crown.” Luke 12:48 From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked. Luke 14:11 For everyone who exalts him or herself will be humble, and the one who humbles themselves will be exalted.Remember Moses in Exodus 4 trying to convince God he was not the man for the job to deliver God’s people out of bondage, I felt that same way.

When God calls you out, you are set apart from the ordinary. It is not you that is the alien or strange, it is the world and it systems of things contrary to the will of God or should I say the way things rightfully should’ve been before man sinned. When God puts a light in you, you can run, but you can’t hide, people always find you out. That light exposes you and then you wonder why so much oppositions from the enemy. For this light that should be for a blessing turns out to be a curse. It is one thing to be envied and jealoused by strangers, but like Joesph in Genesis 37 when he told his family about his dream. Sad, but it can creep into your own family and friends. For the crown of Mary, I have suffered like Joseph. And it is sad because people who don’t know my story assume with the title Empress that I am egotisitical, calling attention on myself. If only it was so. In carrying out my duties, many times I’ve stumbled in more ways than ever, but if it hadn’t been for the Lord who’s on my side. God kept me and is never letting me go, no matter what, as it is said, ” being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ.” Philipians 1:6 I don’t like lying so I would never call myself something I am not. The truth is I love my peace and quiet, don’t want to be noticeable.

Being Empress is not to impress man, but to be a servant of God.