Whoever can say that God doesn’t hear and answer prayers definitely wasn’t praying long or hard enough. Sometimes it can take decades before God answers your prayers. I am a living witness to this fact, even to prayers I’ve forgotten I had prayed for, God still remembered to answer.

I wanted change in my life from being the kind of person that people take my kindness for weakness and take advantage of me by using and abusing me. I could never believe that someone could always do wrong because I never could. I always believed that the way that I was everyone was also, and the way that I thought and loved everyone did too, or had it in them also. God created us all so why not? I could never accept evil as a permanent in my life, I resented it. I believed being God-like was to love and serve others by doing good all the time no matter what. But there’s only so much the soul can take before it breaks. The spirit is always willing but the flesh is weak as scriptures says.

For this reason, I prayed that God would grant me the spirit of truth and discernment, because I was always naïve when it came to dealing with man. I had such a sincere and innocent trust like a child with an adult where you figure they should know and do better so you look up to them for guidance and protection, trusting that they wouldn’t do you harm. And especially because you know you’re cute and sweet, lol. Everyone loves cute and sweet, loving and kind people right? So I thought. Some people hated me because of it, and I couldn’t understand why. I had no ulterior motives. It is my nature to be sweet, loving and kind, it is not a pretense, I was born this way. I couldn’t control the way I was and it was killing me, mentally, physically and spiritually.

People can be so cruel, especially the ones you love the most, like your family and friends because I would never say no to them and no matter what they’ll do to me I forgive them and continued with love towards them. It was not strangers that I had to pray God for as much as it was to the ones I’d love the most, because of the hurt and pain I had to endure from their actions towards me. It left me feeling stupid and inadequate, because I could never realize they were hurting me. I trusted them so sincerely.

Now I do have to thank God for hearing and answering prayers. I wanted to change from being like that, feeling naïve, stupid and inadequate. I felt like I need to be much stronger to do what God has called me to do in my life, lead. But how can I lead when I am so easily broken? When my emotions always get the best of me? My heart was too great and I believe the devil knew that, so he target me at every point of my emotional weaknesses especially with my friends and family. I had to overcome and relinquish all to God. My heart, mind and spirit all work together in one accord now in allowing me to discern in spirit and truth. God is now the controller of it all. If left up to me, I know I would be making the same mistakes all over again without the Lord’s guidance and protection in my life.

I must admit that when God answers your prayers, you know it because the things you used to do you just can’t do any more. But when I say the word no, the devil always has me questioning myself as to whether it is of God or him. God is definitely with me because something always happens to allow me to know my saying,” no” was for a good reason. This saying no, standing up for myself and not allowing anyone to use and abuse me anymore is still yet new to me. I am still questioning myself if it is wrong and God is still responding to me in by proof of the actions of others, that I am not wrong. God is so patient. I sometimes feel like I am questioning the very thing I prayed for, but even in writing this I know that it is God once again talking to me.

Once you’ve been a certain way for so long when you ask for change and change comes, it seems so incredible that you can’t believe it. I it a blessing and sometimes we have to be careful we don’t curse our own blessings by not having faith or trust that God is able. Satan is a liar and a deceiver so be careful of your thought and draw nearer in prayers and supplications unto God so you can be an over comer.

What you pray for sometimes you get, but be ready recognize it, when you do get it! So be careful not to throw prayers around as a momentary thing, God does answer it for a lifetime. I believe that is why God take so long to answer prayers because he has to see that we are ready to receive it.