Mother Mary our First Lady and Queen of the world. Mary is queen of the world simply because even though she was espoused to Joseph here on earth, God is her rightful husband in Heaven. But in respect to the laws and  customs, Mary had to have an earthly husband. How else could what was born of her be a King and the heir to the throne of the earth and in heaven? Remember that God is njot like us and his rules don’t apply to himself, it is for us to obey and for good reason. When comes to God, well, He can do anything; even make the impossible, possible. (Isaiah55:8-9) For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says the Lord. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Nothing much is said about Mary in the Bible other than she was a virgin and an angel of the Lord came to let her know that she was chosen to conceived the Son of God while being engaged to Joseph. She accepted to be the mother of Jesus, went and visited her cousin Elisabeth, who was pregnant at the time with John the Baptist. That is all the information we got about Mary. Now where did she come from? Who were her parents and why was she chosen? What was so special about her? These things and more seems to be irrelevant to us in the bible, but they sure are very much relevant to God, because she served a mighty purpose and destiny in bringing forth not just a child, but the son of God. To be acknowledged by the angel (Luke1:28-29) Hail, thou art highly favoured, the Lord is with thee, blessed art thou among women. And when she saw him, she was troubled at his saying. (You see why I would ask the questions wanting to know more about her? Who would see a angel and be worried about a question the angel asked you and not freak out about the fact an angel is standing before you talking? What manner of person speaks to an angel like it is a normal thing to do or encounter without being afraid, freaked out, forget about what he saying or what is the meaning of it is? And ask her mind what manner of salutation this should be.

Everyone in the bible that has been touched by God in some ways, never remained the same. Think about this, one of the most relevant change in the old testament that ever happened to someone after an encounter with God was Moses. He came down from Mount Sinai after fasting and praying for forty days and nights speaking with God and receiving the Ten commandments his face was shinning so bright that he had to wear a veil. (Exodus34:28-35) If Moses face changed so drastically from being in the presence of God, just imagine what it must of been like for Mary to have that which was holier than thou (divinity) growing inside of her. It had to have been more than her looks that was affected by the presence of divinity being in her. Pregnancy changes everything about a woman mentally, physically and emotionally, so just think about it, what kind of divine metamorphosis Mary must of gone through being pregnant with Jesus.

We have a tendency to worship people who are rich, famous, high social status, and ‘royalty’. Even those who have in no way done anything to help us in our lives. They may have just gotten married or born into rich or famous family and don’t contribute anything to society. The worst is to see some people screaming and fainting over their favorite singer, movie star or sports team and players. What we forget to realize is we are paying these people for their services; it is not given for free and yet we worship them. We are not to worship or have any other Gods before the one and only true God. Yes, some of us do have other Gods such as our families, material things, money, and whatever we put before God in our lives. We are not in anyway righteous and perfect we have all sinned and come short of the glory of God therefore we should not put each other on a pedestal or have high expectation, we are all flawed, that’s why it is important to look to Jesus.

Who God bless no one can curse. As for Mary, scriptures declare she was blessed and full of grace so no one has the right to judge her worth in Christianity. When I’d hear people saying things like “where in the bible does it say to worship Mary?” It was never said to worship anyone in the bible beside God. But we can ask anything in the name of Jesus. The prayer of the Rosary is all in the bible I don’t understand why anyone will have a problem with  it or giving Mary some sort of honor for after all she is the mother of the son of God and knew it was all and will always be about God. People who speak about Mary’s role should read (Luke1:46-55) It’s all about God.

Look at you people who worship your churches, pastors, and ministers whatever you call them and completely forget that they would not be able to do what they do without the anointing of God and that they themselves are servants of God. Even to your own the interpretation of the bible and the like the Pharisee and scribes you all know so much that you will judge wrongfully once again Jesus himself standing in your presence, because you know too much, more than God. You all put burdens on these servants of God that they can’t carry, as if they can’t do wrong and then worshipping them as being like  God. Yes I do understand it is hard to give glory to that which you can’t see, remember God knows that too, it is all about faith, but no man is worth being treated like a God, its just wrong. Take a look at the book of Acts14:8-15 After Paul healed a man that was born crippled in the city Lystra. The people started to worship Paul and Barnabas like they were Gods come down from heaven. They ran out among the people and tore their clothes saying, “we ourselves are only human beings like you.” Every true servant of God never takes glory for themselves they know it all belongs to God.

Mary doesn’t only belong only to the Catholic, but they give her great honor adoration and praise. She belongs to every woman and man of God that are in service to God for his greater glory as well as to help his kingdom come and his will be done on earth as it is in heaven, just like she and all others and Jesus do and continue to do in our lives. (Matthew 18:20) Whatever is bind on earth shall be bound in heaven and whatsoever shall be loosed on earth shall be loosed in heaven. If two shall agree on earth as touching anything that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my father which is in heaven. For where two or three are gathered together in my name there am I in the midst of them, says Jesus.

Any servant of God, his saints do deserve honor and respect, from what I do understand, it is given by God in which only a humble mind, body and spirit has the wisdom and knowledge to receive not from man.

Food for thought: if the president wives, kings of the world wives, famous people wives,  the wives of wealthy and the wives of the ministers of well established churches today get so much respect and honor for being there queen or first lady’s. I can’t help but think that in today’s world with so much media and all acess on the internet for coverage of what is going on in the world that if Mary was to give birth to Jesus now, just how famous she would of been today.

 

Whoever can say that God doesn’t hear and answer prayers definitely wasn’t praying long or hard enough. Sometimes it can take decades before God answers your prayers. I am a living witness to this fact, even to prayers I’ve forgotten I had prayed for, God still remembered to answer.

I wanted change in my life from being the kind of person that people take my kindness for weakness and take advantage of me by using and abusing me. I could never believe that someone could always do wrong because I never could. I always believed that the way that I was everyone was also, and the way that I thought and loved everyone did too, or had it in them also. God created us all so why not? I could never accept evil as a permanent in my life, I resented it. I believed being God-like was to love and serve others by doing good all the time no matter what. But there’s only so much the soul can take before it breaks. The spirit is always willing but the flesh is weak as scriptures says.

For this reason, I prayed that God would grant me the spirit of truth and discernment, because I was always naïve when it came to dealing with man. I had such a sincere and innocent trust like a child with an adult where you figure they should know and do better so you look up to them for guidance and protection, trusting that they wouldn’t do you harm. And especially because you know you’re cute and sweet, lol. Everyone loves cute and sweet, loving and kind people right? So I thought. Some people hated me because of it, and I couldn’t understand why. I had no ulterior motives. It is my nature to be sweet, loving and kind, it is not a pretense, I was born this way. I couldn’t control the way I was and it was killing me, mentally, physically and spiritually.

People can be so cruel, especially the ones you love the most, like your family and friends because I would never say no to them and no matter what they’ll do to me I forgive them and continued with love towards them. It was not strangers that I had to pray God for as much as it was to the ones I’d love the most, because of the hurt and pain I had to endure from their actions towards me. It left me feeling stupid and inadequate, because I could never realize they were hurting me. I trusted them so sincerely.

Now I do have to thank God for hearing and answering prayers. I wanted to change from being like that, feeling naïve, stupid and inadequate. I felt like I need to be much stronger to do what God has called me to do in my life, lead. But how can I lead when I am so easily broken? When my emotions always get the best of me? My heart was too great and I believe the devil knew that, so he target me at every point of my emotional weaknesses especially with my friends and family. I had to overcome and relinquish all to God. My heart, mind and spirit all work together in one accord now in allowing me to discern in spirit and truth. God is now the controller of it all. If left up to me, I know I would be making the same mistakes all over again without the Lord’s guidance and protection in my life.

I must admit that when God answers your prayers, you know it because the things you used to do you just can’t do any more. But when I say the word no, the devil always has me questioning myself as to whether it is of God or him. God is definitely with me because something always happens to allow me to know my saying,” no” was for a good reason. This saying no, standing up for myself and not allowing anyone to use and abuse me anymore is still yet new to me. I am still questioning myself if it is wrong and God is still responding to me in by proof of the actions of others, that I am not wrong. God is so patient. I sometimes feel like I am questioning the very thing I prayed for, but even in writing this I know that it is God once again talking to me.

Once you’ve been a certain way for so long when you ask for change and change comes, it seems so incredible that you can’t believe it. I it a blessing and sometimes we have to be careful we don’t curse our own blessings by not having faith or trust that God is able. Satan is a liar and a deceiver so be careful of your thought and draw nearer in prayers and supplications unto God so you can be an over comer.

What you pray for sometimes you get, but be ready recognize it, when you do get it! So be careful not to throw prayers around as a momentary thing, God does answer it for a lifetime. I believe that is why God take so long to answer prayers because he has to see that we are ready to receive it.

I believe that God has called me because of my curiosity about him. I had many questions about God and life and whenever God answered, he wanted me to share the knowledge I’ve learned to the world.

Why leadership? I wanted to change lives in this world, with a leadership like no other. I believe understanding, respect, love, unity as well as discipline without anger, frustration, and revenge would have played an important role. I want to make life better for everyone, but with the help of God, like Moses. Not like what Moses had to go through , but like how God was with him.

The word of God is like a seed planted in my spirit which grows with every level of wisdom, knowledge and understanding I’ve attain. I always believed in the existence of God. I was born with this knowledge and I would never believe otherwise. As a child, I had many questions for God, especially after going to Sunday school and learning about the creation of the world, Adam and Eve, the questions grew even more.

My first questions to God as a child was God who created you, if you created us you must have a mother and a father too? Did I ever get any answers to that? No I didn’t. So I made up in my mind that the sun and the moon are God’s parents. I believed that God was the wind because we could not see him but feel it. When I would look back to how I thought, I was very intelligent for baby. My imaginary friend as a child was God and I would ask him questions like where did the devil come from, who are his parents, why couldn’t they just spank him and he would be good? If Adam and Eve were the only people in the world, where did their children get husbands and wives? Was it their own brothers and sisters that they married? After you had Noah build the ark and destroy the world with forty days of rain, where did more people come from besides Noah’s family and why were their still bad people in the world after that?  Why, after Jesus came, are things still the same? People are still sinning and the world is so corrupted. Why can’t God just kill the devil and make everything better? Why do people have to die and even our pets? Why are there bad people? If it is Jesus’ birthday on Christmas why are we getting presents and not Jesus? Why does God have angels and we don’t?

To all these questions, as I grew older, I began to search for the answers in all religious beliefs and practices read the Bible, was water baptized, fill with the Holy ghost and went on a retreat. I do believe that I was given all the answers, especially when God called me to go into the world and preach what I’ve learned, experienced and witnessed.

If the angel of God didn’t go to Joseph in a dream, he would’ve left Mary at the altar. If Moses didn’t witness the burning bush on mount Sinai he wouldn’t have believed in God. If the disciples didn’t witness the miracles that Jesus had preformed and his resurrection, even to receiving the Holy ghost today, we wouldn’t known anything about that man called Jesus, would we?

12/07/2016. The day I will never forget. It started at 7:41am as I entered the shower lifted up my right hand to move my hair as the water beat down onto my face. All I felt was pain, pain as I never felt before in my chest radiating to my left arm. I couldn’t even breath without pain in my chest and the feeling of pressure. I thought to call out for help, but I was more concern of the reaction of my family and the attention I was going to have to endure so I started to pray, “Lord not like this, please not like this, for my family to see me in pain and hurting.” My daughter and my sister to find me naked and on the ground in the shower and my husband who was two hours away would go insane to have heard anything had happened. I prayed like I never prayed before even called upon my guardian angel.

I challenged Satan. I said if you think you’re going to take my life, go ahead I dare you, but in the name of Jesus when I get to heaven, what I couldn’t do here to you in this life, by God I will return to loose all my family and friends that is in your bondage so help me God. I will be fighting beside Jesus to put you away for good. I was in so much pain that I felt like someone was stepping on my chest to break the bones in my chest.  I guess the devil doesn’t like to be challenged, not like that.

I am not afraid of dying, it is living that I am afraid of. I love and believe in God so much and because of my near death experiences I know what Heaven is like. Nothing in this world can compare to its peace, love, beauty, it is just extraordinary you can’t explain it. But coming back to this world where there’s so much pain, suffering, fears, doubts, sicknesses, diseases, struggles, humans against humans, etc. The only hell I believe is right here on earth.

I heard a voice whispering in my ear exactly what I must do to overcome this situation without a panic. And I did what I was told; I made it out of the shower, even had time to get dressed, go downstairs and pray at my altar. I sat down and watched television for a few minutes. Something told me go tell your daughter come and see what I was watching on television. But as I walked up the stairs, the pain started again and this time I couldn’t catch my breath. I went into my daughter’s room and told her I was not feeling well and that something is happening to my chest and left arms, right away she said, “mom you’ve got to go to the hospital.” I told her about how I was struggling in the shower and I didn’t want an ambulance. I told her I hope it would pass and then she convinced me to go to the clinic and I said ok. I was going to take the bus and my sister said it was not a good idea, if I was in pain. So I called my husband who then came home from work to take me instead.

I was poked and pinched, you name it. Every test that can be done was done on me. The doctors thought it was my heart and then ruled it out, then thought it was my something to do with my lungs. I was in pain now for seven hours before they realized I needed pain medication. I was ready to go home when my husband begged me, just let the doctors do their work to find out what is wrong. I was hungry, in pain and tired. I felt in my spirit that this was an attack , a spiritual warfare of some sort. And the I began to pray and as I was praying, I heard angels singing and I began to sing along with them. I knew I was going to be sent home.

I went to get an x-ray when I met up with this woman who was suffering with bleeding for thirteen years and the doctors doesn’t know what or where it was coming from. I asked her if she believed in God, does she pray? and she said, “every day.” I told her read in the bible about the woman who touched the hem of Jesus’s garment and was made whole, and with saying that I heard the technician for the x-ray call my name. I felt so bad that we couldn’t continue our conversation, because I was taken in right away as if it was an emergency. I was hoping to see her when I got out the x-ray, but she was gone. She wasn’t even waiting for an x-ray, but was out of breath and sat down to wait right next to me for the use of the bathroom next door. I wanted so much to tell her it is just not prayers alone, but the woman’s faith in Jesus, that she would be healed by him, just a touch. And she fought through the crowd secretly for that touch. Her healing was in her faith. Now she can’t see Jesus or touch him like that woman did, but she can believe through his life and resurrection she is healed. It’s been over two thousand years, but we can still through faith touch Jesus and he will heal us with his healing power.

After my x-ray, I was sent back to the assessment room. The doctor that came in to assess me was not too impressed at the fact that I was laughing as I was describing what happened. He turned and said to my husband with a serious face, “she would laugh at a funeral?” I just continued to laughing, because as I had been waiting so long I was being entertained by the choir of angels and my guardian. After I spoke to the doctor and he left to order more tests, my husband who gets so embarrassed by certain things I’d do and say at times, look to me and said in a very loving way, ” Would you stop? You’re acting like a child,” and he smiled. I told him exactly what was going on in my head and around me with the angels. I told him why I was so happy. It wasn’t until I told him what the doctor was going to do and say next, is when I knew he finally believed me, because it came true.

Remember it was seven hours before I got any medication and I had not yet been given any medication to have made me so high. But I was high on the power of the Holy ghost,  that even when I was finally given their medication for pain and was told to continue if I was in any more pain, it’s been several weeks now and I never had to take one pain killer and I feel fine just a little bit of pain when I’d move that I need no meds for. Thank you Lord!

I believe for myself that when it comes to me going through spiritual warfare, I am always being attacked in my body and so when I would go to the hospital, the doctors could never find a diagnosis, it is always a mystery to them but through prayers I get healed.

Is it a building? What if the church was not predicated on a building, but rather on the truth of the wisdom, knowledge and understanding of God. Matthew 16: 16-18 Thou art the Christ, the son of the living God. And Jesus answered and said unto him, “Blessed art thou, Simon Bar-jo-na: for flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but my Father which is in Heaven. And I say also unto thee, that thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it. If the interpreters of the Bible had only said, “with this knowledge I will give you the keys of the kingdom of Heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in Heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in Heaven. The church, temple, synagogues and mosque, are all places believed to be where worship of God takes place with gathering of all the people who believes. Psalm 133:1 Behold, how good and pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity.

When Jesus said, “flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but my Father which is in Heaven.” Peter, like the others, did not know that Jesus was truly the son of God, but God had to reveal it to him within his spirit. All of the other disciples that were with Jesus saw the same things Peter saw Him doing. But yet, why couldn’t they say what Peter had said, or why couldn’t they have seen it also, that Jesus was the son of God? Peter means rock and upon the rock is the foundation of the knowledge of God which, as was revealed to Peter, is the church built within each and everyone us.

After Jesus’ resurrection, the promise of the Holy ghost (comforter Matthew 14:26) did come on the day of Pentecost Act 2:24 And the truth was revealed and spread to all who believed in Jesus even today the Holy ghost is still moving in us to do the will of God. Just as Jesus has given us the key to the kingdom of heaven(Matthew 16:19) He has given us just as the father has given him authority through him, to access the heaven and the earth. But we have to remember it is only through obedience, and oneness to the will of God like Jesus, can we accomplish this, not by flesh but by the spirit.

In conclusion the church is not built with concrete, wood and glass. It cannot be torn down or broken into. To me the church is revelation of divinity.

There’s nothing like a need being fulfilled  by what was desired for its fulfillment. That’s what true love is all about.

You are to me a listening ear,

The revival of my spirit,

The restoration of my soul,

My comforter and salvation,

My light in my darkness.

When I am buried in sackcloth and ashes, you wash and renew me.

By the power of the Holy ghost, I am set on fire with the zeal for change and to make change.

I now have a hunger for bread (the word),

A thirst for wine (the knowledge of the crucifixion and resurrection).

You’ve drawn me nearer to you with your love.

Love was made and we became one, conceived and multiplied.

Now my desire is all for you and you alone my love.

You are the lover of my soul.

I am your vessel, you are my water, pour into me and fill me up

Come Holy spirit, come join me so that we all become one.