Matthew5:3-12 Jesus was on the mountain teaching his disciples. Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are they that mourn, for they shall be comforted. Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth. Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness, for they shall be filled. Blessed are the merciful for the shall obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God. Blessed are the peacemakers for they shall be called the children of God. Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and say all manner of evil against you falsely for my sake. Rejoice, and be exceeding glad for great is your reward in heaven, for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you. God knows that I have lived by everyone of these teachings. I didn’t have to try, it came naturally for me. I believe I was born, and created to be walking like Jesus taught, on the mountain.

God has proven to me, time and time again, that He is the true and living God. Matthew26:38, 39 and 42 Jesus says his soul is exceeding sorrowful, even unto death. O my father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt. O my father, if this cup may not pas away from me, except I drink it, thy will be done. Jesus you who understand what is like to walk among man. You have witnessed and endured the pain and suffering man is cable of inflicting on one another. The  pain and suffering you endured on the way to Calvary, has it changed your mind on what you’ve once taught about dealing with humanity? Because like you Jesus when you know that the enemies were after you, you broke, and you cried out to your father for help,  I am crying out to you for help now Lord. Fear, pain and anguish have also taken hold of me for following your way. Take this crown of thorns from my head and the many daggers out of my heart. I am not in this battle for myself or to be glorified, but to do your will and serve you. Some also appreciated it, and others also ridiculed and hated me for caring and doing good, that which came naturally for me to do, because of you. When it is said, that the battle is not mines, but yours Lord, only now have I understood. It was you all the time with me, that had enabled me to do the things that I’ve done, like showing compassion, humility, understand, love, forgiveness, healing, teaching, to stand strong and firm in faith and so much more that I could feel without your presence within my life or should I say with the enemy trying to prevent your presence in my life, I am stuck and I become as wild beast(man eater and I mean it literally) raging out of control, I find myself having no patient or understanding for humanity, including my own weaknesses, fighting within and without, over it.

David has written in Psalms 30:5 Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning. ” Why is my morning not coming Lord, why am I feeling forever abandon to the night?” I am praying that you Lord will deliver me, deliver me from the torment of my mind and the constant piercing in my heart over the wickedness and evil of humanity. When the chains of this bondage I feel is finally broken, I know that you are on your way. I am trying my very best to hold on at a very perilous times, for faith in this millennium. “I am my brothers and sisters keeper and a child of God.”