I’ve been feeling very troubled lately about the going on in the world. I thought I was the only one feeling this way, but I now know that I am not. I am tired of doing the right thing while everybody else doesn’t care. I’ve wanted to make sure I dot the I and cross the T, with no room for error. I have been trying so hard to be perfect in an unperfected world itself, “God help me.” I feel like a change wanting to take place and I am having problems allowing it within and surrounding me. For example, learning to say no, and not feeling bad about it, to stop trying to do God’s job has been a struggle because for some reason I want to save the world. I feel tried though as if this is a fight for my soul. It is said, “be not weary in well doing,” but I am more than weary, I am burnt out, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I get angry at other people telling me how much they are tired of well doing and ask them how have they contributed to helping someone today just for kindness and for the greater glory of God, they can’t answer because in their heart it was about them and what they got out of it. Today in this world 2 Timothy3 The last days there will be difficult times. People will be selfish, greedy, boastful, and conceited; they will be insulting, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, and irreligious; they will be unkind, merciless, slanderers, violent, and fierce; they will hate the good; they will be treacherous, reckless, and swollen with pride; they will love pleasure rather than God; they will hold to the outward form of our religion, but reject its real power. keep away from such people. (But what are you to do when some of those people are of your own household?) Don’t let them contaminate your spirit, pray. Some of them go into people’s houses and gain control over weak women who are burdened by the guilt of their sins and driven by all kinds of desires, women who are always trying to learn, but who can never come to know the truth. These people are opposed to the truth, people whose mind do not function and who are failures in the faith, but will not get very far, because everyone will see their stupidity.

Everything about these people is not what you’d want to be to get in God’s good grace, but they create balance, because whenever you’re for peace someone wants a war, whenever you try do good, evil presence its self. Learning to let go and let God do his work sometimes is the only way to handle it, and the balance is in wisdom of acknowledging of that, when certain things are out of your control. Luke21:8-17 Jesus said there would be false Messiahs coming don’t follow them, wars and revolution, it would not mean that the end is near, countries will fight each other, kingdoms will attack one another, there will be terrible earthquakes, famines, and plagues everywhere, there will be strange and terrifying things coming from the sky, Christians will be arrested and persecuted, handed over to be tried and put in prison, you will be brought before kings and rulers for his name sake and you will tell the Good News. Don’t worry about how to defend yourself, because you will be given words and wisdom that no enemy will be able to refute or contradict. You will be handed over by your parents, your brothers, your relatives, and your friends, and some of you will be put to death. Everyone will hate you because of me, but not a single hair from your head will be lost. Stand firm, and you will save your self. 2Timothy2:3 Take your part in the suffering, as a loyal soldier of Christ Jesus.

There is nothing hidden anymore; the truth has been revealed, God’s truth not ours and as we stand in judgment before Him, it is better that we didn’t know than we do know. Because God is a reader of heart and mind you can’t lie to him. God went out all the way to provide us with the truth. He has sent signs and miracles, messengers, prophets, and priest. John 8:32 You shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free. John 1:17 truth came by Jesus. The revealing of God’s truth exploded even into the millennium now we stand as Christians, after almost two thousand years for those who has eyes to see could see and ears to hear is hearing.

God is asking us to stay strong throughout all what is going to take place before Jesus returns. Matthew 7:21-23 Not everyone who calls me “Lord, Lord” will enter the Kingdom of heaven, but only those who do what my Father in heaven wants them to do. When the Judgment Day comes, many will say to me, “Lord, Lord!” In your name we spoke God’s message, by your name we drove out many demons and performed many miracles!” Then God would say to them, “I never knew you. Get away from me, you wicked people!” I would not want to be one that God says, ” get away from me for, I know you not.” If there is something in you that is making you afraid of God’s rejection then you’re not doing what God want you to. Remember God never gives us more than we can handle Matthew11:30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.

I feel like I am fight to stay on the right path. It is a battle field to stand in God’s truth when everyone around you isn’t, it is not their priority and there’s always something coming up against you. 2Timothy 3:12-13 Everyone who wants to live a godly life in union with Christ Jesus will be persecuted; and evil persons and imposters will keep on going from bad to worse, deceiving others and being deceived themselves. If you’re not a person of strong faith in our Lord and saviour Jesus Christ unlike Job are you going to curse God to die. There is so much more distractions, and temptations that the devil uses to get you off course in your faith, like for me it’s been my health, children, family, and friends, and if you don’t have the strength to put up a good fight in faith then evil wins. It is worst now than then, in the days after Jesus’s death. But for some reason I feel like we are given an even better weapon than back in those days and it is faith. We have never seen, but just have to believe. The Holy Ghost, our comforter is truly with some of us. We are in a different kind of warfare, unlike anything before.