This situation with my eyes, led me to take a another look at the story of Saul on his way to Damascus in Acts 9:1-18. “For the light of God is so great it penetrated not just Saul’s sight, but his spirit.” I’ve asked myself, was it really the light alone that affected Saul’s sight? Or is the light of truth that man can’t bear? It is said that “no man can see God and live.” The power is just too consuming to the soul, and here is a great example of that. This man Saul was a murderer of innocent Christian, and what changed him was an encounter with Jesus and the lost of his vision.

I’ve asked myself this question after analyzing the scripture on Saul on the way to Damascus: Is God making a change within my spirit? Is all this happening for God’s purpose?’ I truly believe that this was not an attack from the enemy. It all made sense to me after coming from MegaFest 2015 in Dallas, Texas. The last day I spent there was in hopes of going to the Potter’s House for Sunday service and instead service was at the AA center and Bishop was ill. I was ever so disappointed, but service was still fantastic. Something held me back from leaving right away after service and as it turns out, one of my favorites, an influential spiritual teacher whom I love and adore, was there: Dr. Cynthia James. All I could hear was my sister saying,” look, your favorite lady is here.” I approached her simply to greet and thank her for Wednesday night bible studies and babbled on about how much I adore her, and she stopped me as I was praising her and said,” I don’t want to hear all that, what do you want me to pray with you for?” I was taken aback because I didn’t go to her for that. I was shocked when those words came out her mouth. God knows I don’t even put in a prayer request in private to anyone to pray for me. In fact, I am always the one praying for others, so this was like a Divine intervention for me. I couldn’t speak, I didn’t know what to say, I felt my mouth moving, but no words were coming out of it. I remember thinking or even might have said it, “I don’t know, I am so tired of being afraid” and the tears started to run down my face. She placed her hand on my stomach and all I could remember was her saying is, ” out of your belly.” The whole place went silent and I was in a dark place, but she was with me, she was like a light pulling me out and I could of heard myself praying with a loud voice. The louder I prayed, the light started to shine where we were and I felt like I was ministering with a loud and powerful voice on a the highest mountain with the sun shining ever so brightly. And she was gone. It was only then when I came to, that I could hear myself repeating the words “loose” several times while shaking myself off. My husband and my sister were gone and there were these women surrounding me. I had no clue who they were, so I looked around to find my husband and sister and noticed Doctor Cynthia James was also being surrounded and had been separated from me by some women in the back of me. I felt like I was in a dream. When I’d realized what had just happened, I told the women that surrounded me who turned out to also be Pastors, “Thank you”. When I tried to approached Dr. James to say thank you to her, one of the ministers said to me, ”she’s done with you now,” and I said,” I know, all I want is to tell her thanks.” Dr. James was heavily still in the spirit I had notice and understood, and the minister held my hand and said, ”I’ll tell her for you.” I then found my sister and husband, and my husband had taken pictures of myself and Dr. James. I was so happy. I didn’t expect that; it is not as though we had posed for them. I should had thought about asking her to take a picture with me instead of talking lol.

It was an experience that touched my life in more ways than ever; my mind, body, and spirit. Psalm 130 “Out of the depths have I cried unto thee, O Lord…” So filled with fears, fears because of what the eyes can see; the wickedness and evil that man are capable of doing. Matthew 6:22 “The light of the body is the eye, if the eye is healthy your whole body will be full of light, but if your eyes are not good you will be in darkness.” I believe the reason it is said, ” that the eyes are the window to the soul,” is because of all the senses (to taste, touch, hear, emotions, and to see), God has given man eyes as the confirmation if it all. How would we then be able to enjoy all of creation and its beauty without being able to see it? Everybody wants to be in the light and no one wants to be blind; we want to be able to see, especially as Christians. If we could understand our spirit is the real consciousness of our being. The body is just the evidence of being human. The eyes speaks they talk about your mind, heart and your body when you are sick, that’s why even if you are blind the eyes still cry, because the tears is the washing, purging, renewing and communicating of our spirit to our God all at the same time.